mEmEmEmE~~~~bEcnEZz!!

2004-09-16T19:07:00.000-07:00

I HAV TO START FUCKIN AGAIN.. ma last one jus got soo deleted.. okkkk

ne waiZz skiP da skoOL part wat i was saYing wAs... no more caps i type faster... welll as i was saying after sams bdaii edlyn sed to oOO so wat noe u like ivan .... well sumfin on da lines of dat and afta da dat every night it was jus running through ma head.. first sentence was YOU STUPID WHY DA FUCK WUD U LIKE IVAN.. dis is me tokin to me by da waii and i thot abt it.. i thot it was extra fun hangin on sat bcoz.. evn wen ming or sumon teased me abt ivan i cud react like i wud normallii wif others.. like joke around wif it... and i wud NEVER LIKE ivan in dat kind of way ever again ok.. coz like ivan is one of ma bestes friends.. and possiblii ma closest guy friend.. bcoz i can tell him alot of sutff.. and ne waizz dis whole thing abt ivan likinng irene i think iz pretii kool.. like its funnii and even i tease dem.. but sumtimess u noe it can get a bit awkward fo rme i guess... but i mean usualli it doesnt and i jus get over it.. but sumtimes no offence to jay or ne thing and im not hurt.. but sumtimes when jay teases irene abt ivan to me.. it sounds as if shes trying to tell me ivan likes irene now get over it.. maybe not so harsh but it does hurt.. like DEEP daYm deeP.. i mean deeP wiF da PassiON and its awkward coZ i duNno wat to saii.. like oOo ha ha ha,..>.<>

weLL next up.. ITS DEES BDAII SOON YaY!!!... TOK abT PartAY iTS GOnNa BE greaT i canT waiitt... uMmM ne other thots daT come to miND?... weLL rite now guys guys guys.. im kinda at a state where i don reaLLi care abT gUys anD FlirtinG anD i jUS wanNA haV fun n PArtAY.. daTZz rite now.. u may think im bull shitting but i don ever reaLLii think abt guys... or stuffss.. i cudnt realLi care LeSs.. weLL im not dat energetic abt it or ne thang.. u mmMM i reaLLi dON thiNK deres nE thanG eLSe... i soo wanNA sEe You goT ServeD bY da waiI.. OmariiON anD hOUStON... toK abT *whiSTLE* seCKSII HAHahah... NawW deii KOoL... sooO i think daTzz mA borinG Life REVEALED.. lOlzZz....

bA bAizZz

2004-09-08T17:46:00.000-07:00

hei hei mA seCksiZz mA mAZz~~..

weLl LetSss sEe Last LasT saT i wenT shoPPinG wiF dee anD eD.. daT waZz MeGALLii KOoLizZ neZz.. i BOT a top anD den Da weeK Later i wenT To sLeeP oVa eDS hOUsEe iT was QuiTE fuuUn..=D=D uMM.. Yeah and den on saT we wenT to da mOvIEss me eD dee Jay anD meL.. ONce aGain me n eD haD da coNvo abT da weaTher.. hAHah aGain iT was MeGarLii hOT.. lOlzZ we watChed whiTe chiX..=D=D iT WAS SO DAYM FUNNY.. iTZ da kOoLeSt.. aNd den we wenT for soMe shoPPInG i bOt a whiTE top. aND den anD den uMmm.. we wenT hoMe?... i meaN weLL to dees hOUse.. iT was Fun at dees.=D=D we aTE foOod... YUm YUm aNd den we jUS hung ouT.. It WAS FARNII.. i aCtuaLLii duN rememBa a whoLE LoT i was a bIt HYPed uP..=D=D=D.. dis weeK iS saMS bdaii PArTY... WHOOOO =D=D iTZa GonNA be funN.. hhehe i Like LiL saMM HEs fuNiii.. n ewaiZz uMmm i haV no ideA waT to weAr.. I SHUD BY SOME SHOES.. yes da top skirt and shoes are next on ma list.. WHooO u can do it beC WHOO .. n e waiZz ummMm...

mA thoTzzzzZzzZzzz.... i am kiNDa PIsseD at da MaLeZz diS weeK.. weLL uNLike da sKanKY HOe sLut baGSs ouT dere.. i Do haVe PriDe oF femenine natUre.. nE waiZz waT im TrYIng to saY iS.. i HAte GuYZzz hU thiNK iM a sLuttY hOE.. anD wuD jUS fLirt aroUnd wiF ne oNe.. fuCKIN heLL i aM not a PLaY toY.. AND AND AND sEe mosTLii i GeT comPLimenTSs riGHt.. anD todaii diS Loser FUGLY GuY but into our convo .. ok so heres wat happened.. me matt n steph are TalkIN.. anD maTT GoeS err "STePh iSnt offenDed wen i caLL her faT bCoZ she nOes She iSNt" and deN iM Like "Yeah".. dEN diS Loser coMes uP anD saYs .. "wat she iZ uGLY" or sumfin LA daT.. aND i thot he was otkIN to me so Im LIke... "exCuse me Did u You jUS saY iM uGLY"... and iM aLL LIke.. weLL " i thiNK u shUD shuT yOUr fuCkin dirTY traP.. bCozZz JEe daT coMMent coMMin oUt of Your uGLy face.. doN u thiNK Your beinG jUS HUGELY hYpaCriTicaL?.. Jee Gud oNe comMINg froM YouR fuGLIneSs.." weLL he wasnT actuaLLii tokIN to me.. HE was otkiN abT ma frienD anD eVeryONE LauGHed at hiM.. bUt DA POINT IS.. he shudnt Go arouND sayiN stUFf LIke dat wen he LoOKs LIke SHIT.. anD another siTUatioN todaii.. dIS GuY GoeS to Me.. mY frienD saYs Your noT daT greaT LoOKin.. and by da waii diS is comMing from LIke A HUGE DORK.. i doN thiNK he nOEs.. HU mY frienDs aRe OR ME.. buT i can CRUSH HIM.. CRUSH HIM BAD.. and ne waizz dis guy IS SHORT.. he probablii hasnt gone through puberty yet.. hes A TOTAL LOSER IN DA SKOOL.. he looks like a 9 yr old boi.. with a bad bad bad haircut.. and a fucked up face.. ok now.. i don thiNK he shuD be caLLing me noT dat greaTnow eH.. coZ comPAred to hIm i thiNk iM a suMthinG a whoLE Lot mOre den He iZz.. anD so LIke jUS bCoz hEs a GuY doEnsT meaN he caN diS a chiCK LIke me.. bCOZ HELLOO??!?!?!?! LoOK at yOur fuCKIN SELF.. YOUR A MOLE... soOO dOSe biG MOutheD GuYZz OUt dere.. u gUyS noT care wHat You LIke buT uS chiX dO.. soOo hOw abT u SHut Your dirTY fuGLii.. cuNT of a facE up?... mITe maKE a whoLe lOt oF senSe.. =________________________= ne wiaZz i thinK daTZz abT it..

hAHAHahAH suMfin fuNNy daT hapPened todaiiZz.. we were in science and i was sitting wif zoe, matt, josh, lewis.. (aLL yr 9'Z).. anD suM other GUys doWn da Long taBle.. anD den dere wAS dIS GuY soMewheRe aT da fronT anD he wansT in uniform bUT he was hoLDinG a fiLE.. anD LewiS was LIke huZ dat.. aNd mAtt was saYIng iTS a new yr 9 GUY.. anD lewiS was LIke serious.. and was like NO.. hehehe anD den joSH n matt are like i think he iz coz hes hoLDing a fiLe.. anD den maTz LIke i thiNK heS a teaCher tho coZ its oNE of theM bLUe fiLes.. aNd i was LIke weLL.. iF he iZ a Yr 9 new GuY.. hes abT da onLI decEnt onE herE... LOL anD Lewis was LIke.. beC LOoK nOW uve pUt alL of uS gUYS doWn.. HAHAHAHAH and den he was pretending to cry.. LOL SOOO FARNIIIII.. LEwiS roXx.. ne wiaZz i tiNK datZz abT iT...

bA bAizZz ~~

2004-08-31T22:30:00.000-07:00

hei hei..

well its been a whiLe since i wroTE in here ProPerLIi eH?.. weLL i thiNK evEryOEN eLSe has aBadONeD tHEir bLoGss.. uMmM weLLi Go tO sKOOL n aLL da uSuaL..

i fiNd thiNGs bOrinG LateLii iM baCk to thE sTAgE oF i waNNA GO aPPeXx.. TruST me thO.. u saY u wuD waNNa mOve or.. i wuDNt waNNA Go buT TRUST ME.. i haVe been awAii da LoNGest OK.. iT suXXx... maN chri GoeS to aPpeX anD she stiLL hatEs canniNgvaLe... ne waiZz uMmMm.. i feeL LikE i haV nO Life jeEse iM sOoo bOreD.. i waNNa Go Like mOre pArtieS n i duNno dO fuN stUFf eXciTinG stuFf.. i aLso nEed mOre casH buT heii..=D=D.. iM in a reaL ruT oF a shiT.. i waNt da HoLidaiZz to coME soOn.. i doN thiNK mY PArenTs reaLIsE hOW muCh i hatE canniNgvaLe.. anD hOW muCH i hate noT beinG abLe tO Go out aLot anD seeinG mA frienDs aLL da time IT SUX.. TRULY.. IT DOES.. aTLeasT gIve me daT One saTurdaii to Go do thinGZz... JEESE..

ok oNt o da thots n LoveY dovEY stuFf.. i thiNK the PeoPle arouND em eFfecT the waIii i acT Now.. Like You sEe mY frienDs aRe LIke toTaLlii nOt mE.. LIke uMmM heLLooOoo TherEs suMFin caLLed fLirtinG dat was iNventeD?.. anD weN i bitCh abT othErs daT flirt wiTh retArds.. iT prevenTS me from flIrtinG bCoz iT mAkeS others ThiNK heii sHEs flIrtinG wif daT gUy so she thinKS dat hes noT so retArded... REALITY CHECK.. jeEsee iTS jUS flIrtinG doesnT meaN im iN Love witH da GUy.. anD ne waiZz i haVnt seen ne thanG LateLii daT.. iS wortH fLirtinG foR.. LikE aT skOoL... i useD to umM conCern abT da waii i LoOK.. kInda buT NOw i jUS doN givE a fuCk.. aLthO to a certain standard.. buT Heii.. i duNNoo i jUS don sEe ne thaNG new n YumMY.. iTS LIke iM boreD wiTh aLL the nOrmaL stuFf i wanT neW PeoPLeZz.. i wanNa Move SkoOLs man canniNgvaLe is SUCH A BITCH IN THE ASS... LIkEe skOoL iS OK.. buT itS nOt shaLL i saY FUN?.. LIke exCitinG or gOSsiPY or bitCh asS.. kiCkin hYper fun.. mayBe i haVe weirD hiGH exPEctationSs.. buT i feeL LIke im Not PlayIng arouND in skooL.. i am now jUS hangin aROund feeLing extremeLIi boreD>. i mean dO u noe how manii PeoplE.. juS waG oFf skOoL.. Like dei ijus waLk ouT anD LIke.. todaii saM was Lookin OUt da winDOw anD his frienD was GoiN hOme.. LIke acroSs da skoOL anD he waS LIke screamiN eh whEre Ya goiN.. anD heS LIke uhh hOme.. saMS LIke whY?.. he jUS LIke uRghh coZ i canT be craPPeDd sTayin At skooL.. anD he jUS waLKs oFf.. LikEe.. daYm.. LikE i havNt etremELii wagGed b4.. buT kinda.. noT sO etreme coZ mamOm wuD find it weirD if i wenT hOme.. i jUS waLK around Da skooL GrouNdss or waLk ouTsidE... weLL ne waiZz iT suXx BIG TIME...!!

bA bAIzZz...

2004-08-28T06:15:00.000-07:00

hei hei dere... weLL let sEe

todaiZz i sTaYeD hOme.. I AM SO FUCKIN PISSED OFF... THE MOTHER saY cheh sHE canT TaKe mE coZ sheZz bZ.. trY n maKE me feeL baD.. HAH// BULLSHIT waT she stAii hOme inviTe peopLe ova.. wen Deii LEavE watCh tv????.. IZ DAT BZ I DON FUCKIN THINK SO.. den dis mornin she say... your sista is goin out y don u ask her.. WTF.. DO U THINK SHE WUD TAKE ME ALL DA WAII TO WINTHROP SHE MAY BE MA SISTA BUT SHE WUD NEVA FUCKIN DO DAT./...... BCOZ NO ONE IN DIS FUCKIN FAMILIII DOES NE THING NICE FOR ME... IM JUS A LIL HELPER DAT DOES ALL THE LITTLE FAVOURS.. FUCKIN HELLL SO FUCKIN ANOYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FUCKIN HELL.... I AM SO PISSED OFF.... I HATE STAYING HOME AND I HATE SKOOLL I HATE IT ALLL FUCKIN HELLL.. I HATE EVERYTHING....................... ne waizz i dunno wat to saii atm coZ im so daYm fuckIN piSseD..

ba baizZzz/......

hei hei

2004-08-21T01:50:00.000-07:00

HaLLoOoo.. mA seCKSIZzz~~

weLL i haVnt wriTTen in AGES~~~~~~~~~~~~... buT heii i havNt been ouT in a LOng timE wenT out to CiTy.. todaiZzz wenT for sOMe shoOpanG iT was KOoLIzZz.. toDaiZzz was ReaL fUn sPendin tiME wiF ma fweNDs n aLL.. by da waii JAY sorrY i diDnt GeT to sEe You.. uMMmm thinGZ caMe uP... stiLL reaLLii nuthiN to saiiiiii~~~~~~~ weLL todaii was extremeLii fun

weLL.. i haVnt LIked ne GUYzZz Yet... im KInda not into iT verii muCh.. i thiNK i hav verii hIGh exPEctations.. aND i thiNK datZzz GuD cOZ i doN LIke as maNniii peoPLeZzzZzz... iTS weiRd.. anD BY da wAii da theorY oF "PLaYin Da GAme" iS soOOoo daYm TruEeeEe~~..mY GoODneZz iLL shAT ma seLF..... hAhah buT ne waiZz nuthiN iNterestinG...

SuMtimesSs i KInda LIke beinG noT in aPPeXx bcOZz i dun fight wif ne one no arguments jus see each other every now and den hav a fucKin fun time and iTS heii sEe YA LaTerZz sum tiME.. buT other tiMEs i feeL lIke im miSsin oN suMFin.. evN if u gUYs saY dat iM not anD i wuD waNNa LeavE soOn as pOSsiBLe.. i stiLL thiNK i mite aCTUalLI haV a gUD tiME there.. Den U hav da ProbLEmZz. oF i duNNo Da ClosNEzZz anD da situatiONS uR pUt iN.. eG... GrouPs splittin uP etc....etc...etc.... bUt Yeah iT weirDd...

weLL i thiNK daTZz alL.... bA baizZzz~~~~~~~~

2004-08-03T07:41:00.000-07:00

hei hei mA seCks A LiCiOUs~~..YUm yuMzZz

OK weLL Yeah seCond weeK of skoOL GoiN sLow aS... =.="""i HATE SKOOL iTS soOO BorinG~~ NewaizzZz uMMm.. Yeah i thinK iM nOt GoNNa GO ouT in a whiLE sO i JUs siT aT hoME whiLe i heaR aLL da Gud tiMEs mA frieNDzZz Go oUt.. hrmmm.. buT heii GoTta saVe moNEy dEre arE LIke 4 bIrthDaiZz neaR each oTHer eEekZzz...>.<

oOk.. uMmm i thiNK iM a bit conFuZzLed LateLii cOZ i doN thiNk im in a MOPeY GroPeY PhasE... bUT YeaH dEreZz suMfin wroNG anD i duNNo waT... iTZ KInda weirD... LikE i Noe i ForGot suMfin buT i jUS duNNo waT.. weLL aTm i aM reaLLi INto eiTHer r n b or daNce kInDa stuFf i feeL LiKe DDR...='( hehhEHeh muST dO soON... uMmm .. uMMm i duNno reaLLi waT tO saY.. daYm LiFe is hArD... moneY iS harD...Yeahd datZz alL

bA baIzZz

2004-07-30T05:04:00.000-07:00

hei hei hei... mA seCkaLicioUS babeZz

oK weLL LoOKs Like everyOne eLS ebaNdoneD dEre bLogs weLL LetS seEe.. uMMM iM nOW aT skoOL anD skooL IS GAY!!.. =D

weLL aTm nuthIN interesTinG GoiN oN i GueSs... nO GuYz iM iNterEsTEd iN.. pHAUIhau sPeakIN of whiCh eD u memBA we werE waLkin aCroSs dA ovaL neaR You rhOUSe anD den we LoOK ovA to da GuYzz siTTin doWN anD den dEii sTartEd to wAve .. HEHeh daT was vErii fuNnii....

oK hErE iS da evErY nOW aND deN LiL LEGenD daT i fiND trU thanG.. oK weLL u Noe hOW dEreS daT saYinG daT GirLS LiKe GuYs wiF conFidenCe anD GuYs doN LiKe da chiX daT foLLow dEM bUT aRe PLaYin HArD to Get or suMFin LA daT.. buT iN a waii i thiNk daT iZ trU.. anD bASeD oN mA dreaMs a whiLe a Go i aM KInda chAnGinG mA waiZz... i dOn PLaii aRound ne MOre.. i doN fLirt.. *couGH* as MUch ne waiZz.. anD i TrY to treaT aLL GuYs Like mA bUddiZz..

ne waiZz TrYiN diS whoLe don thinK abT GuYs thinG ouT.. i thinK iTs beTTa i enJoi aLot oF thinGS aLot MOre.. aND iTS noT Like oN ma mINd aLot or nE thanG iTS kOoL.. oF coURse thiS wiLL aLL eND if i reaLLii reaLLiii reaLLii Like sumONe anD he LikeS me baCk whiCH miTe not hapPen uNtiL LIke aGes aWaii.. sOOo hEY uNtiL deN aLL Guys aRe jUs LIke girLS to me jUS a LiK More manLii ...lOlzZ..=P newaiZz i tiNk daTZ abT aLL ...

bA baiZzzZ~~

2004-07-25T02:03:00.001-07:00

hei hei Ma seCksiZzz~~

weLL i sLepT ova eDz hOUSe...fRom Fri tO saT.. iT waZ kooLizZ..=D=D but Let Me GeT mA GrowLiz oUt... I WAS FUCKIN PISSED ABT OUR PLANS DIS HOLZ.. we PlanNed thiNGS soOO GUd.. anD deN aT LasT MIn u have PPLz saYin i canT dis daii can we chANGe diS i duN wanNA do daT... weLL actuaLLii iF we jUS wenT OUrseLves.. we cuD haV kepT ouR PLanS.. BUT... pEoPLe diDnt Go.. oR diDnT haV da moNeY.. tOo weLLL FUCK IT.. coZ i dUn care ne MOre.. i aM seriouSLii noT PlaNNinG ne thiNg daT hUGe ne mOre.. u GUys caN jus TeLL me da PLAns whEn anD where.. anD whAT... buT THnX to da PeoPLe hu ActUALLii trieD anD madE iT to oUR craPPiii bUT fuN pLaNs WHICH CUD HAV BEEN BETTER.. iF PPL diDnt fuCK IT UP.. bUt heii dEre iS neXt HoLz riTe..=.= NE WAIZZ
oN haPPier ThinGSs i haD fuN aT cErtaiN timeZz.. Like YeaH GoiN outs n StuFfzZz... i haD fuN aT bbaLL esP Yesterdaii.. iT was fuN.. JUs da chIX shooTinG n stUFf iT was fuN...=D=D
oK here aRe ma thoTS... firSt Of aLL abT mA dreaMSs anD weLl accOrdinG to eDs LiL diCtionarY i thiNk diS is wat iT meanS foR me.. weLL i thiNk daT diS TerM.. i wiLL becOMe or shuD becOMe a LittLe LesS fLirtatiOUS.. or GirLii or Yeah i sHUd Try anD conServE da amOUnt oF fLesH conTact i Give.. iN a waii anD in a waii i ReaLLii waNNa dO daT.. coZ sumtimes iT maKeS me FeeL Like PeopLe jUDge me By daT anD thinK im deSPo oR suMFin.. bUT iM fuCKIN NOt.. i duN eVEn waN a BF atM.. coZ aLL da GUYs are sEe are FUCKING GAY... iM seriOUS aLL oF dEm aRe reaL baD.. anD i GUeSs i shuDnt saY ne thiNG coZ im No betTEr eiTher.. bUT JUs to saY i wuD nevEr trY foR ne of eM.. LikE.. eWww aNd aLso da seCOnd pArt i thiNk izZ.. i shuD Try anD GEt in touCH wiF mY quieTEr seLF.. U noE Like havIN fuN not tRyIN to imPreSs ne oNE.. cOZ i think in MA head aLot oF timEs i waZ worrieD abT wat cErtaiN peoPle wuD htiNK of Me.. soo Yeah yestErdaii i tRIeD iT oUt anD i haD heapS of fuN.. YeaH iT was SoOo KOoL..
oK now mA seCond thoT suBJecT.. i duNno hOw to saii DiS.. bcOz iT can bE TakeN da wronG waii.. iTs nuthiN to dO wiF ne oNE ok.. iTs jUs me and waT i thiNK of mE n sTuff...bUt i GUeSs aLL u GuyZz nOe iM pretii LikE LouD n HYpe Rite.. iZ dEre Like ne timess whErE u tiNK WTF?!?!.. waTTa fucKin weirD.. bcOz iF i suMtimes thiNK daT..of oTherS dO PeoPLe thiNK daT oF me?.. aND Like doN hoLD baCk oN Your opInions aiGHt.. iM Jus CuriouS.. aRE dEre nE timEsS whErE iM LouD buT You JUSt tHInk omGooDneZz stFU u r soOO anNoyING?.. bUt YeaH suMtimeS i tHink PeopLe i tryinG to Be suMfin dEre noT.. anD daT iTs JUs sO TrY-hardish.. buT maYbe dEii r Jus Like daT anD i JUs finD iT aNnoYinG...
i thiNK aT timEs You shuD Jus LIsteN tO tHe PeopLe arounD YoU.. anD uNtiL dEN u canT saY ne htinG urseLf to othErsSs... i thiNK itS nOt da proBLeM of baD aDviCe iTS a ProBleM of duMB PeopLe HU canT PerfoRm da adVicE prOPErLii..
suMtimEs i Get reaL uP myseLF.. buT i canT heLP iT Ok.. bCozZ i Noe for a FaCtt... sEe PPL miTe not aGree wiF me.. buT i nOE i caN be saY beTTer aT cErtain ThinGs dEN otherSs.. YeaH iM noT smarT n aLL.. buT dEre aRe thinGS iM bettEr aT.. aND iTS KinDa fusTratinG seeinG othErs fuCK IT UP aLL da tiMe.. cOz i Jus Get soO piSseD oFf.. aT jUS LookINg Or LIStenING to thE thinGS daT Go wronG... anD YeaH i Noe suM of mA frienDss aRe bEtteR aT others asweLL..
suMfin daT reaLLii REALLI REALLI REALLI REALLI PISSED ME OFF..im not mad at ne one or nething so don try and explain ureself or wateva coz dat jus pisses me of more... and don do dat fuCkin shit where we try and defend each other on da blogs... or get upset wateva and try and tok to da person A BLOG IS SUMFIN PERSONAL dat sumone needs to get off dere chest.. i mean if i wrote in a diary no one will say ne thing a blog is da same except i get to tell u guys.. sOo doN fuCK UP DIS OppOURTUnITy TO gET WAt IM THInkIN...If SUmoNE WRItES a DefenDInG BLoG or dEre "opiNIOn" whiCh is aCtuaLLi tryING to correcT me oN dEre bLog i wiLL basH da FUK OUT OF YOU... so dONt.. ok da thing was wen not mentioning names or ne thing... and i cant rememba exact words... but ne waizz dere was a time wen dis person sed err u noe sumfin on da lines of haha u noe jus coz u cant do dat wif your bf... anD deN da rePly was suMfin on da rePLy oF i duNno aTLeAsT i haVe a Bf dat i cud... or sumfin Yeah not exact and im not exagerating it but i rememba wen i heard dat i wanted to scream out and defend myself and other single people.. but i didnt bcOZ she mite end uP crYing coZ u noe ma sPeeChes aRe reaLLii shocKinG ..... buT diS is jus generaLLii da second person IS WRONG.. bCoz da first person sed jus coz u cant do dat wif ur bf.. weLL imMa thiNKin daT da First persoN onLiii seD daT coZ 1 iTS ProBabLiii tru anD 2 im sure she onli sed dat coZ shE cuD dOo beTTer.. iF she haD da OppouRtuNity.. aND yes daT iS trUe.. OK end of discussion no one tok abt dis ne more.. unless its to ma face.. tHanXx.. whooOO~~ GUd to Get oFf ma cheSt...
weLl i thiNK daTZz aBt aLL LUv YAzZz.. bA bAizZz

2004-07-20T23:15:00.000-07:00

haLooOo MA seCksiZz

weLL lets see iTZ stiLL da hOLZ anD im doiN nuthiN mUchh.. rite?.. Yeha jus satyin hOMe chiLLin.. but thiS thurs i TinK is dA sLeep oVa hOPefuLLii..>.<

OK LEtS get sumFin stRaigHt abT daT GUY.. FUCK IT.. OK mA HUge boOSt OF aTTiTude enErGy has Come baCK THANK God I THoT i waZ GoNNa PuKE froM aLL diS LoveY doVeY sicKness eVerythanG thaT u hearD from me abT diS.. FUCK IT.. iT dON mean JaCk aLL.. HAhah whOA dat weirDLii souNDs LIke da sonG fuCK IT HAHaha weLL ne waiZz YeaH iM nOT GoNNa FoLLow arouND sOMe PathetiC GuY.. hiS eYes are oBviOUSLlii fOR sumONe eLSe... aNd YeaH anD wen diD da ThoT i dun waNNa GuY suDdenLii rUN out of ma head Like wtF was i THinKin riTe... sO YeaH nO one iM interesTed anD Im thiNKin of KeePInG iT daT waii.. foR a LOnG whiLe ne waIZz.... i think datz abt it..

bA baIzZz Ma LiL PeePozZz~~

2004-07-16T23:52:00.000-07:00

halOo mA seCKsaLicioUS PEepOZz~~

oOK weLLzZz.. i fiRsT wenT to sTammErs fOR suM BBT..:D:D yUmmeH aND deN we wenT to da oVal whiCh is ME ii anD eD to MEet Jha JHa.. aND den we sTArted to PLaii suM foOty.. bY da waii i HAd to waLk to staMMers LIke three tiMes>> hahahAh doN ask why=.= HEeehEe iTS fuNnii anD den da third time walkIN gUess hu we mEet ivaN miNg etC etC.. anD Yeah me n eD gO seE meL anD han ba Nan..:D:D anD Yeah wenT baCk tOkZ n stUFf ne waiZz anD wenT eDs hOUS eofr aGes.. man I thoT meL cuD eaT for aGes hAhaha...JZK jZK

mA thoTss YeaH..? uMm nuThiN mUCh JUs chiLLin.. YeaH bUT noTiciNG thoSe GirLii thoTS.. Like u NOe abT da whoLe bOIfrienDs thinG. i thiNK im MOre intO iT now.. iTZ weirD.. i saY ne waIZz uMM.. weLl aPParanTLiii diS GuY iM kInda diGGin iS reaLLi not da ONe foR me.. buT i cuD hav toLD ma seLF daT.. buT aLL da siGns daT teLL ME are JUs dOWn pUTTinG suMtimes..weLL datZz alL todaiZz was Quite fuN hehe iT was KOoL..

bA baizZ

2004-07-15T02:28:00.000-07:00

suP mA seCKsoLiciOUs chiXx~~

weLL LEtSs sEe..
toDaiZz i JUs stAyeD hOMe restEd.. iTZ aLL GUd.. i duNno iF i seD buT yeS mA eArs aRe pIErced BLoG.. uMM ne waIZz

IGnore mA LAsT enTrY ITs jUS buLLshiT.. oK iM jUS scRewEd iN da HeaD.... nO i duN LIke diS GuY.. anD i PLaN to KeeP iT daT waiii... The LasT timE wiF ivaN GoT craPPed aND diS timE wiF diS GUY iTLL gEt craPPeD so Screw iT alL nO oNe fOR me.. anD YeS TherE are NO gUYs aT mA skooL anD derE are nO guYs aT aPPeX aND deii aRE proBAbLIi da maiN skooLZ i NOE.. buT YeaH Hu careZz eiTHEr oNE daii we wiLL meEt suMOne oR dere iZ aLwaiZz uNI.. Rite.. i caN waiT i TinK.. ne waiZz YeaH.. i tiNK daTz aLL
aLso da sPeaKers oN mA comP are oK NOW WOOOOOOOOOOO.. iM haPPiiiiii...

bA baizZz * muAhZz*

2004-07-14T07:42:00.000-07:00

suP mA seCkaLiciOUS chiXxxXx~~

weLl.. i sLept ova Jha JhaA's hOUSe... iNterestinG oN Tuesdaii we wenT GArbO wenT shoppIN aorund anD i boT a top.. anD deN Yeah we went to bbaLL anD den we wenT baCK TO Jha jHazZ hOSUe anD den da Next daii whiCh is todaiZz iT was kooL coZ we wenT anD plaIIed foOty.. dEre weRe heaPS of baLL gUYs dere.. weirD.. anD den yeah it was interesting coZ da gUYs goT boreD anD sat oN da stAiRs wiF da ChiX.. iNterestInG daT.. aND we TrieD to PLaN soME craP buT goT a biT weirD anD shoUTy.. AHah but we came wif a solution i guess..

oK nE waiZz i goTTa fiGure ouT a waii tO get ME extRA casH to bUY thinGS...>.< to scAred to asK ma moMmii.. man im anNoYeD.. ne waiZz.. YeaH everythanG daTZ goNNa haPPen iS a mAjor BLurr to MEzZ.. iMma jUS goNNa enJOy toMorOw.... aCtuaLLi i kInda hav iT aLL plaNNed in a waii.. not reaLLi sure.. ne waizZ.. here come ma thots

welL lets seE aLot of thinGS haV kInda chanGEd i gUEsS.. in a Gud waii... LoTs oF more hapPier viBes from eVEryone...aLL GUdZz.. u Noe todaiZ we were PlayIn fooTy anD iT was HeLLa fuN and den we restEd.. anD den we aLL jus sat dEre.. daT was HeaPS kooL i Luv tO jus siT dere anD tok abT stuFf.. and den dA guys sTarted to PLaii sO we joIneD.. i triPPed ova..XD hAHaha.. iT was funNiii ne waiZz.. uMmMmM...

weLL Guy Ga GuY nO nOOzZz.. i toLD onE persoN abT wat was hAppenING Latelii.. anD iTS aLreadii stARted dOSe URges tO jUS keeP on keeP on tokIN abT iT.. iTs hOrriBLe.. iTS even HArdEr deN b4.. weLL LIke i stILL don LIke ne oNE i thiNK... o waiT coRreCtioN.. i LIke i admiTT iT now okkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.........i dO anD its eXtreMeLii hArd.. bCozZ thErE aRe soOooOoOooOo manii reasoNS whY i shuDnt anD wud BE a totaL hyPAcRit ass For..... omG.. whY dOEs Life aLwaiZz puLL me baCk LIke diS... i NOe i shUDnt anD i canT... i NOe i CANT.. buT iTs alwaiZz baCK TO SQuare 1.. oUT of lIke 50000 000 00 0 00 0 0000 0 0 00 0 ............ sQuaRs... oK.. buT tHIS timE iTS diFfeRent iTS noT gonNA get outT anD iMMa gonNA keeP iT daT waii.. i Tried beiNG opEn abT da LAst ONe anD it was JUS GaY,, bcOZ iT hurTS weN pEoplE tok abT u daT waii eVEn if it iZ jUS a jOke.. i tHot mAYbe if i hAd LIked ivaN lOng enuF deii wuD eventuali get ova it.. buT it wasnT... iT jus kepT goiNG sO diS timE wiF diS GUy.. iTS difF iMMa jUS gonNA kEep mA mOUth shuT.. aND so nObodii wiLL noe.. anD don boTher askIN meH if ur curiOUs.. anD pluS no oNE noeZz.. diS is jUS for mE to admIre... i tink datZ abt it ..........

bAB AIzZz

2004-07-11T05:27:00.000-07:00

suP mA seCksiZz~~

oMgoodneZz iTS finAlli da hOLidaiZ i aM soOO daYm eScited ARGH!!!!!!!!..
ok weLL.. i mUSt pLan fuN stuffzZz wiF ma chiX eh.. hehEhe..jUS hOpe i doN get siCk..>.< umm weLL lets sKiP rite tO mA thots YEh?..

mA thoTS are pretII mUch da saME as YEsterdaii... buT suMfin jUS came in mA heaD.. aND iTS reaLi annOYing.. weLL Like wen a person says sumfin abt a PersOn and i duNNo wat iT iZ but iTS aN inStanT feeLing da a chiCk getZ.. i duNNo enVY jeaLOusy aTTitUde wateva sumone caLLs it yeah.. caMe into mA head anD dat iS LIke oNe of da siGNs daT meanS Your gOnnA kInda mayBe LIke taKe aN interesT in sumONe anD.. juS weN i was oN a winnniNG stReaK of noT LIkINg ne one.. cmON y dOes dIS aLwaiZz haPPen to ME.. am i suPPOsed to LIke diS guy... AM I REALLI?!?!?!.. shud i teLL mA frienDs watS runniN throuGH mA head.. cOZ i Noe I Dun LIke ne onE rite nOW.. aND i doN wanT to ne tiME soON.. i thiNK IM NOT SURE.. URGH!! iTZ aLL verii conFusinG.. uMmMmMmMmMmMmMmMmM i NOE daT if u tinK of da baD poiNTs oF a PErsoN u reaLLi stARt noT to LIke eM.. anD yeaH don u wannA do daT.. buT u canT do daT wiTHouT feeLing craP abT YourseLF... anD i duN waNNa douBt aND hatE ma seLF.. coZ u NOE daT cuD haPPen in aN instAnT sinCe TherE are soOO mAnii thiNGs i cuD fiX abT mAselF.. buT ne waizZz... iT kInda feeLS lIke suMfinG iS goNNa hAPPen sooO mAyBe daTZ y iM suPPoseD to LIke noticE diS persOn rite.. aND iTS jUS aLL goiNG so SlOwW u duNNo da enD resuLts anD Your jUS Left dere hanGIng in mID aIr.. LIke i iwSh time wuD jus gO fASTer.. BUT i wan Da hoLZ to lASt foRevEr...='( bUT IN a waii i kInda LIke da fEeLinG oF juS wanTinG to seCretLii sEe daT persoN.. anD Get aLL haPPi.. bY myseLF iTS fuNnii.. bUT i wuD nevA BE aBLE to kEep a SeCreT.. hHAHhah tHIs iS GaY.. buT trusT me i DOnt LIke ne oNe... pHewWzZz

bA bAizZ

2004-07-10T09:17:00.000-07:00

suP mA seCKsiZz oOKizZ~~

weLl iMma goNNa try be diFferenT oNCe in a whiLe...
i heaR Ya eD... wAt yA sayIN n aLL anD i admiTT i did Get a LiL aNNoyed weN ireaD Ya BLog buT u nOe i wAz a biT hArSh anD u aLL nOe i jUS eXagerATe weN iM aNGrY..
sOoo yeaH i aPOlOgisE iF i huRt suM peopLEs feeLings or iF i seD da wrONG thinGS.. buT u nOE hu caREz iTs aLL setTLed wherE aLL nOrmaL nOWs ne waiZz.. uMmM

weLl aS everyONe noeSs... we wenT to diAN anD ivaNS bdaii pArtaY thinGO.. vErii vErii fuN imite aDd.. anD janELle didNT eFfecT a sinGle thIng.. i GUeSs i was jUS aFFraiD daT .. sHe miTe geT aCCepTed fuLL on intO oUR grouP aGen oR.. yeaH u neVA she cuD rePlACe ME or suMFin.. (weLl dat hAS HAppenEd b4).. bUT i was wronG to mIS jUDge u aLL.. lUv yA aLL heapS oK..

oK thiS is da pArt daT shud sTaii jUS betweeN da girLS plEasE.. Like i waNNa teLL u buT i wanT aLL of u gUYS to PretenD i didnT even saY dis ... soOo yeaH keeP to Ya selves.. gUrLZzZ.. uMm sumtimes iTS reaLLi hArd fOr me.. LIke LAtelii i sed i was Gonna BE mA seLF not iMpressin ne oNe.. anD jAY adviSed me mAybe not to hUG dem coZ deii doN deserve iT.. anD weN we tok abT dem we usuALLi tok aBt eXcLudinG Patty anD weiCHian.. buT u noe i duN hug da peopLEs i don feeL LIke anD i do dA ones i feeL lIke.. aND i wasnT goNNa hUg mostt oF em aND i didnt buT in facT.. i tHInk Patty mAdE me feeL worse aFTa huGGinG hiM.. i aLwAizZ thoT he was ONe of da BEttA oNes..buT i thINK he iZsh eXcluDed fRom da aBLe huGGing PEopLezZ... Like i duN wan hIm tO respOnd to mA hugS if hEz forcINg hiMSeLF.. LIke iMMa jUS gonNa hUG ivaN n wei.. cOZ yeah dErE dA onLi peoPLesS daT dON reaLLi care.. Like ivaN i noTiceD he neVEr reaLLi puLLS awaii oR ne tHIng... oR aCts LIke heS mAjorLiii GrosSEd oUt.. aND i resPect daT.. bY da waii i wAz beinG mA seLF todaiZz.. so if iT seeM a LIttLe fLirty To u.. i canT heLp iT iT was Da nOrmeLest as i cUD get.. mAYbe a LiL girLyy aND faKE.. bUT NO iTS jUS me.. i duN care if deii sEe me or stUFfeD uP.. buT datS jUS hu i aM.. iM noT pretenDing or nE thinG.... iM tryINg mA beSt

aND You NOe suMtimes dere aRe thinGS i waNNa saY buT i donT wanT tO.. LIke ITs gUD to gEt oFf ma cHEst bUT iTS jUS goNNA coMe biTe ME in da Ass LAter.. i hATe dEse.. iM suCH a duM duM.. LikE i duNNo suMtimes i hAte wantING thinGs.. LIke y canT i aLreadii hAv it.. soOo yeaH anD obseSinG abT iT.. iS gonNa mAKe iT biTe u IN da ASss TEN TIMES MORE.. sO yeah>... i duNnO waT to dO.. wuD i bE aBle to teLl u gUrLZ wiThoUT iT EVER EVER EVER beinG LeaKEd.. coZ i nOe oNe of UZz canT resisT anD wiLL enD uP teLLinG suMone.. whiCh wiLl enD uP biting mE in da aSs.. LikE i thiNK foR me.. iTS imPOssiBLe foR me tO haV a cLose GUY FrienD wiTHouT hiM pHysicaLLi uNaTTRactIve anD puTTinG off.. coZ u noe suMtimeS u NOe suMone so weLL.. daT ur jUS groSSed ouT.. hAhaha LIke omG nevA go out wif u.. yeah LIke da onLI guYs i cuD be guD frienDs wiF aRe da gUYs daT phySicaLLii tuRn me oFf.. or dA oNes daT hAte mE... oR lIke piss ME off daT Are suPer annoYing.. anD sOoOOo foR aLl da gUYs daT don fiT in tHese caTegorieS.. waT aM i to doo?.. iTs Like.. wHen yOu doN seE dEm.. Your finE wiF dem.. anD den u hANg ouT anD soME of doSe uNwanTed feeLinGS sTArt to bUbbLe up.. anD u duNNo waT to do wiF deM... anD i NOe daT iTS wronG anD STOOOOOOOOOOOOPID... Help mE u GuYzZ.. LikE i TrY heaPS to fiND thinGs to maKe me stAii awAIi anD noT tHInk tHE thOTs daT comE into mA head but iTZ reaL baD.. anD u NOe usuALlii theSe aRe da tImes whEre u becoMe uncoNFidenT anD douBt anD diss YourseLF.. LIke aPPearanCe anD aLL.. u Noe.. LiKE suMtimeSs aLL u waNNa do aLL daii iZ siT tHere anD stAre aT hIm.. aNd jUS siLentlii wonDer in Your mIND... waT so greaT abT hIm.. anD reaLLi ur noT dat sure buT jus stArIng at hiM.. wanTS to mAke u reaLLi meLt.. anD tinGLe aLL ovEr.. aNd u cuD jus siT dere fOr aGes anD AGEs .... hE tokS to u anD u heaR everY wOrd PerfeCt aND aLL u can heaR is HIS peacEfuL deeP voIce thatS tokIn to You.. anD You shuT oFf eVerythinG arouND u.. wHen u sTand neXT to hIm a warM rusH of souR tinGles rushEs ovEr.. aND den u feeL aLL fuNni anD sweeT.. aND wen You sPEaK anD hE siLentlii LauGHs.. You sEe daT kUte Lil smiLe dat aPPears on HIS LiPs.. aND den u reaLLi NOe dat heZ LIsteninG tO You.. aNd juS daT GLiMPse oF sMaLL smiLe daT aPPeaRS on hIS facE Iz da beST smiLe daT yOU haV evEr seeN ouT of eVEryONe daT u haV madE LauGh.. aND YOU LooK hiM iN da eYe.. anD hE LooKS aT You baCk iTS jUSt a nOrmaL convErsatIOn Yet u thiNk daT iTS da MOSt tiMe FREEZInG GLiMPse oF his Face.. omGoodEnzZz tHIs soUNds reaLLi coRnY bUT puT yOUrseLF in diS positioN iT haPPenS.. anD fROm aLL da wronG peoPLe...
i thiNk datZz abT aLL oN mA mINd
bA bAizZz~~

2004-07-09T07:33:00.000-07:00

suP ma seCksiZz..

jUS to saii da other bLog i was oNe anGry women buT iTs aLL kOoLzz.. lUv yA aLL bUbZz

bA bAIzZ

2004-07-08T04:04:00.000-07:00

hello there.....

i hAv jUS reAd jAyz bLoG anD mY bLOg tO iS similAr

oK firST oF all i thot since u guys are ma friends uD stand up for me
datZ usualli wat friends dO..
aND U esPeciAlLi DON FUKCIN START IT..
i FeeL iMMenSLii betrayed by Hannah... U shud Neva fuCkin toK abT me LIke dat
LIke im a dEspo TrampY hOe daT wuD diTch mA frieNDs For a sToOPid BOi
WELL NEWS FLASH U MAY DITCH US FOR UR LIL BOI TOY BUT I ACTUALLI RESPECT MA FRIENDS
i don bitch abt dem behind dere backs and act or friendlii on da outside...
iF yOU doN like mE SAY IT OUT ALOUD SO I CAN KCIK UR ASS..
don wimper abt and tok behind ma fucKin bACk..
aND foR da stOOpid LIL try hArds CHOK MING YEO.. ETc ETc u r aLL gAY
AND DON THINK SO HIGHLY OF YOURSELVES.. I DON LIKE ANY OF YOU
YOU ARE ALL GROSS ESPECIALLI MING HU DA FUK WANTS TO GO OUT WIF U..
ive alwaizz thot dat until my so called friend went out with him..
daT proved me SO WRONG..
iS it coZ u hav no LIves u musT tOK abT MIne..
OR mAYBe iTZ coZ YOUR LOVE LIFE AINT INTERESTING ENUF..
so u must joke abt mine?..
WELL HELLO?!?!?!? GO GET A FUCKIN LIFE..
aND asweLL if sumone wants to stand up for me..
hOw abT u LIsten dEn giV dem fUCkin shiT..
chok ming yeo jus bcoz u hav no life.. u must embarass sumone else for entertainment..
WELL HOW ABOUT YOU CONCENTRATE ON YOUR GIRL IN STEAD OF BUTTIN GUR NOSE INTO OTHER PPLZ..
wuD u LIke uS tO diSs YOur reLatioNShiP... LIke aLL da tIMe
Get iT thru yOUr head.. iM ONLI NIce tO u COZ I THOT U WERE GOIN OUT WIF MY SO CALLED FRIEND........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
buT i duNNo iTS uP to haNNah iSnt it.. iF she wanTS to BE MY FRIEND..
bCoz she oBviOUSlii mUSt tHINk shE mUSt diSs ME to IMPRESS HER CRAP OF A MAN..
weLL guess wat CHOK MING YEO IS NOT A MAN.. hEs a StooPId IMmatUre LIL BraT...

iM sorry iF this oFfeNDs ne one but this is a bLoG i eXpress ma feeLIngs.. aT da time yeah ma feeLings maY chanGe.. buT dIs iS hOW i feeL nOw..
WHY DA FUK U TOK ABT ME.. AND MA FRIENDS...
aND dis reaLLi shows hu da reaL friends are doesnt it..
some pplz jus mind dere own business and i respect dat.. sum jus laugh and think da person is a dickhead.. i respect dat evn more.. but sum people will be idiots tryin to impress... AND IMPRESS FOR WHAT?.. da friendship of a cock sucking pUUSSYYY duMfuCk.. yeah well dese are da people hu CONTRIBUTE TO DA LITTLE JOKE...

thIS is whY i saY .. daT i wanT More frienDzZ.. coZ im siCk n tIred oF diS shiTTy LIl ciRcLE we hAve.. cmON u gUYs we cUD do soO mUCh beTTa iF we jUS triEd.. i LOok arouND n aLL i sEe is IMpressinG iMPressiNG anD more iMpressinG.. weLL HU DA FUK FOR?.. i duN uNDerstANd How.. jUS bcoZ oNE memBA of da chiK is goin oUT wiF da gUY ciRcLE.. DOESNT MEAN NE ONE ELSE DOES.. jUS LIke jAY sayS,....

iM seriOUS iF dEre wAS jUS ONe LIttLe lInk daT cuD spread US ouT anD meeT New gUYZ.. daT wuD jUS mAKe eVertHIng sooooO mUCh beTTa anD MOre fuN den haVinG to pUt uP wIF dEse DICKHEADS........................... DonT taKE frienDs fOR GRanTeD.. oR u wonT fuCKIN END uP wiF ANY............. anD hOW abT we aLL thINK abT whY we Are imPressiNG aND WHO WE ARE IMPRESING.. bCozZ reaLLi u shUDn be tryING to imPress uNLEss u wanT suMFin... jUsT be oUrseLVes... esp chok... he shud be himself coz dis r n b cocky act mite get him in a loT of deeP shiT...

tOdayy ivaN asKEd me wAT i meanT by da gUYs.. aND i was gOnnA saY da gUYs eXcept patty n wei chian.. anD den i THot weLL dere aRnet manY tHEre.,. sO reaLLiii... i jUSt tHot i duN reaLLi hav mANIii ouTSide skoOL frienDsSs... I WONDER WHY... i jUS had a tOtaL bLAnk wen iT camE to naMIng deM.. coZ dere da ONli oNEs i NOe.. i M seriOUS.. dEii reaLLi dun NOe hOW to treaT girLSs... aND fRankLii i D ratHer be resPected LIke a gUY friEnd Than a gIRL.. coZ 1 dei treat giRls lIke craP 2. i wUD LIke to be a BUDdi oF theres u noe LIke fuN n roUGh n STuff...

jUS a few weeks jAY heLped me noTice dat.. Yeah like am i actualli try to impress dem?.. for wat i don evn like ne of em.. Like i waNNa pIctUred daT wiF ma gUY frieNDs i cuD go aroUNd gIvin deM nookIzZ.. anD jUMp aND hit em sTUff.. aND deii wuD see iT as fuN nOT seXuaLLI weird... wtF????.. u gUYS do iT aLL da tIMe y canT i?.. caN i nOt haV ne GUy friEnDs.. LIke at SkooL i aM heLL cLOse wiF ma gUY frienDs i ThiNK i LIke tO sPenD more tiME wiF ma gUY frieNDs dEn wiF mA chiX.. cOZ wiF da gUYs iTS more abT fuN.. anD wiF da chiX iTS aLL shopPIng anD gOSsip .,. yeah doN get me wronG i LIke aLL buT suMtimes u jUS don wANNa hear gOSs anD u jUS waNNa hAng ouT..

i thINk daTZ aLL.. anD i hOpe everyONe taKEs thiSS into thoT.. cOZ i aM deePlii oFfeNdeD anD fraNKlii iF thiS is da perceptiON u gEt oF me i doN waNNa be hU i aM.. iF u sEe diS LIttLE doG deSpo traMp.. hu foLLows LOw lIfe gAY gUYs arouND coZ i canT get NE... dEn u shuD teLL me.. sO i can tHInk abT wat iM doiN.. anD y u tink oF dat oF me.. woRds oF wiSDOm todaIii... = THINK ABT IT.. jUS teLL me fAcE to faCe doN be a cOWarD.. iF u tiNK yOU are betTA tHan ME.. anD daT u cAN dO bettA.. dEn cmON teLLit to mA facE.. coZ fraNkLIii iF u arenT bettA dEN me.. dEN u shuDnt reaLLi saY ne tHIng.. iF u tHInk uR a poPulAr giRL wif a bF n aLl anD hEr LIfe iS perfeCt anD daT YOU THINK DAT I AM YOUR FRIEND.. noT dat u are my friEnd dEn coME anD toK to mA facE biTCh.. anD we can toK abT iT.. a boi frienD iSnt evErything in da woRLD.. yOUr guy frienDs aRent evErythiNG in da woRLD.. anD tryING to IMrpess pEOple foR there accEptenCe oR comPany iSnT da worLD eiTher... i aM deeplii deepli dissapointed.... that u think dat i am BEneath You.. coZ datZ basicaLLii wat yOur sayIN buT lOOK aT yoUR own LIfe...

bA bAIzZz~~~~~`

2004-07-03T07:00:00.000-07:00

hEi hei mA seCKsii dOO daZz~~

weLL urmm... i sLept ovA jhA mAz housE..
iT wAz cHekZ b daIIi..
Yez iT wAS funNn...vaL wAS dEre...
Me, JhA mA, vaL weRe siTTing lAughInG at aLL da weIrD thiNgs i saY.. hAUHuiAHIUA
i wAz oN a mAjoR hiGH eH.,....XD hUAIHIAUHA
umMMMmMMMMMM.. yeaH soOo muCH food dErE... sooO yumMMeh hEHhe i wANt sOMe MOre..!!
hAHah caMe baCk froM cItY dat wAz KOoL..
aNd deN to mAke jHa mAz MoTher haPPi we aTe agEn hAUIhAIUha..
i wAz soOOo fuLL bA da enD Eh...XD AhyhuIhIUAHiuaHa
uMm iN da ciTY we sPenT aGes tryIN to PIck OUt dIanZ PreZiie
hAhah anD deN we werE plANNing to eAt..
BUT WE GOT DESTRACTED LIKE biLLioNs oF timE LMAO
haha we were LIke goNNa eat NOw LEts go o wAIt lOok at dis shOp AHUIhaIuha
ne wAIzZ yeah we finaLLi foUnd da diVa shOP anD i bOt a bRaKalEt hehe iT perttii
i Got JHa mAzZ aPProVal hAUIhAIUhIAUH.. nAw iT roX..
oMgooDneZz i sAw mA siS meLviN n mA cUZ todaii emBarassinG..>_<
YeaH diS weeKenD wAz KOOOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
JUs da ChikaBeeZ chiLLin wiF da daii..
i hAD a kOoL wEekenD*thuMBs uP*

P.S jHa mA da DeeP fryIng wAS GAY!! gAGgaGaGag JKz jKZz...=P iT wAS LovelIi
cyA~~~~~~~~~~~

2004-06-29T02:41:00.000-07:00

sUp mA seCKsiZzz~~~

weLL leTs sEe i HAVE DA MOST WEIRDESTCRAP OF ALIFE TIME... FUCKIN BULLSHAT yAH... *cLears ThroAt* fOR aLL doSe mUDa FukA of A "friends" i hAv.. meANINg da GUys riTe.. I THOT THEY WERE MA FRIENDS.. meaning.. DEY WUD RESPECT ME AND MA CHIX... daT aLso iNcLudeS HUgs n sHIt wiTHouT thINkIN deii soOo greaT.. oMFG DEY ARE SO IMMATURE.. esP mINg.. mAN Like uD eXpect if u wan HUg deii HUg u baK as a Fare weLL or GreEtIng.. BUt wAT da hell deii tinkin... EwWww iMMa gonNNa get KoOtIZz... ewwWw i duN wAnnA haV a hUG.. iM MIte geT gUrL GerMz.. oR if i HUg sumoNe elSe.. AhahAHhah u LIke hIM... OMFG SO IMMATURe... LIKE HELLOO PEOPLE DO HUG AS GREETINGS.. sO as a chiLd u HUg Your parenTS ewWww U LovEdem.. u GoT mAn or woMen KOoTiZz... iM not yOUr frienD ne more... OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG PATHETIC I TELL YOU.. GET A LIFE... deii are so shELtered Deii ProbaBlii hAvnt eVen i DUnNo.. deii cant evn hug or cuddle or snuggle or make out or wateva shit.. IMMATURE BASTARDS... farkIN... I AM FARKIN 100% SERIOUS WEN I SAY DIS NO LAUGHSS... >=| I NEED TO MEET MATURE FUN GUYS TO HANG OUT WITH COZ MA "SO CALLED FRIENDS" ARE FUCKIN IMMATURE BASTARD WEIRDOZzZZz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! can i express it any more?????.. i am shouting inside with ALL MY MIGHT!!! ..... i am 100% serious deii tink deii are all 100% gUD shiT anD dat deii think deii are playing hard to get.. BUT HU WANTS DEM?!?!?!?!?! *LoOkZ AroUND* WELL I CERTAINLY DONT.. SO iF ne oF uZz aRe readINg gO teLL yOUr bUddiZ daT NO oNe wANts deM.. aNd dAt.. deii aRe Low.. aND disGUstING.. IMMATURE!! can i express immature any better?????.. NOOOOOOOOOOO... it iz true girLs aRe more MAture deN guys...

I dUnnO abT da resT of da Chix.. BUT I SERIOUSLII want more guy friends.. actualli i jus want guy friends since i don hav ne.. there all girLZz... LIke i duNNo i NeeD FinD a LInK suMwheRe CMoN.. WHERE ARE YOU DECENT GUYS OUT DERE??... dere has to be sumone sumone noeZzz... dIS iZsh sooO HOpeLesSs....-________________________-"""

ne wAIzZ skooL IS preTii OkaYs.. hHah mA MATURE GUY FRIENDS... tink iM a LAggeR anD deii alwAizZ POke me N hiT me.. buT i donT reaLLi laG i jUS cant bE boTherEd to anSweR deM.. hahaha but iTZ fuNNi.. todaiZz LIke JOsh n saM chAsin mE arouND da skooL.. hAha anD dei PIcKEd ME uP anD tRied To PUt ME iNSide DA BIN!!!... bUT yeaH i scReaMed soo badLIi deii pUt me dowN hAhahahA.... sEe deii aRE fUn.. anD deii gIv ME HUgs ALL da tiME.. omg dID i TeLL u aArOn s bAnd iS pLanniNg to plAIi da anGeL theme soNg.. foRgoT wAT iT was calLEd.. buT it iZ kOoL.. hehHWhwh yeAh mA bAnd goT canCeLled n sOo i wAIted fOR aaroNs roCk bAnd to FInish coZ i alWaiiZz wALK hOme wiF hiM.. anD yeah da fuNiest tHAngs hAPPen.. haHAha yeah wellL datZ aBt aLL..

P.S ANyOne nOE aNY mATUre fuN gUYz daT we hAvnT aLreadI MEt CONTACT ME NOW!!.. hAHah
Luv yAz.. SeCksiZz~~

2004-06-26T05:01:00.000-07:00

suP mA seCKSIZzZz..~~

weLL let see its da week end and jay came over to sleep ova yah.. it waz kooL ate a shit lOad of fOod daYm.. tinKin iM heavier alreadii lOlzZ.. ne wAIzZ yerr.. umm todaiZz we wenT to gArbbo LooK arouND i bOt lIP glOSs.. anD we meT pAtty jAson anD BINGY HAUahuaH... fuNNy mAn yerr anD den we wenT bALL... chiLLed dEre

OK HERE COMES DA THOTS... weLL aT diS rATe mA resPect LeveL mING hAS goNE WAY WAY WAY WAY WAY WAY WAY WAY WAY doWn.. noT that iT wAs hiGh anY waIzz.. i meAN iT soO far dOWn daT i resPect MIchAeL mOre den hIm... FArkNIn FARK arSe!!

ne wAIzZ uRmm diFfereNt thoT... LEt sEee GUys gUYs gUYs.. weLL i thiNK diS iS a bIG suBjeCT oN mA minD.. i DUnNO wAt iT iZz.. buT iM hAviN a bIt oF coNcern Wif da waii IM thiNKin it OF.. coZ i Think oTher pPlz are PErcEiving it iN a diffErenT wAIi... i duNNo i jUs get a vIbe daT mAybe Guys... ASIAN GUYS THAT I NOE... may tHInk daT i cant get NE oR suMfiN.. anD thiNK i neEd to get AS mUCh as i cAN.. Like iM desPO oR suMFin.. wen i WUDNT IN FARKIN HELL LIKE ANY OF EM.. exxcept yerr.. but u noe i say dat i wudnt like anyone at ma skool or any one in ma group.. and anyone from appex.. but hellooo hu aM i suPPosed to hAng Around anD mIx wiTH...?.. LIke serisoUlii aT dis rate i dON thiNK i wiLL eVer Like anOTher gUY AGaIN.. bEsideS hAvin an OPinion oN huz hOt n hUz noT.. bY da wAii iM oNLIii huggIN da worThyy PeopLezZ... daT basicALli jUS Leaves chi mU mY mei pHAUaHu anD anDy da DY CUP.. heheheh yeah he roXx.. uMm let see yerr LikE i duNNo i reaLLi doN LIke hAnginG wiF mA skooL frienDs anD i GUess i LuUvV to hAng wiF mA aZn OUtside skooL frienDzZ.. bUT iTs tAkIN me NO whEre.. LIke i reaLLi shuD thiNK hArd oN HU i cuD hAng wif heii.. Like iM not ditcHin ma beSTest bUddiZz.. i jUS wANnA get to NOe mOre PPLz.. Pref ASiAn.. YerR LikE skOoLzZ aLrite.. n aLL mA fWenDss IZ aLl rite n aLL.. buT i wANNA CHange SUMFIN NEW....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG WHERE ARE ALL DA PPLZ...O.O >=(............... bAsiCaLLi iM bOreD.. yeRr Like iTz Like i hAng wiF mA beSTest buDdiZz yerr kooL.. but even every guy i hang wiF feeLz Like mA beST bUddiZz.. sooo yeahh iTz alL fuN hAvin GUys as best bUddiZ toOo.. bUT doN u need doSe everynow and den hoT gUyz.. u jUs sToP anD thinK aboUt LIke everyTHanG arouDN u stopS or is LIke on MUtE... anD da MOsT chiNG a LiciOUs thanG JUs wAlks pASt.. I HAVNT HAD DA FEELING IN FARKIN AGES... doeS daT SIGNALL ANYTHANG?... *sigh* yeah i tink datzz abt all
bA bAIzZ~~

2004-06-20T04:16:00.000-07:00

suP mA seCksiZz~~

weLL weLL da weKenD iz OVER!! ='(
i wenT shoOpAng wiF jAY pertii KOoL..
mAtt bOt ME a NEckLAce =D=D..
ne wAIzZz WENT BBALL anD gOt to sEe mA seCcKsiiFuLL FwenDzZ..AHHHH
dEii Are aLL sooO adorABle yAH?.. yeAh i lUrvV eM aLL..
heheheh... mAn pAtty craCked ME uP.. hAHhaa
urmm i wenT to eDz hOUse.. hAvnt beEn dErE in AGES!!.. yErRr
fuN sTUffz yeAh.. i ALso wAtcheD shreK2 soOOoo farniii!!

oK weLL as USUAL .. I DONT LIKE NE ONE.. =D=D
sooO verii ProuD..
aLthO i can saii i hAvnt reALli seeN nE hoT stuFf aROunds..
hhahah CHi chI mU mU iS fArnii.. i didnT get to tOK to hIm mUch thO..=(
o ANd i ASkEd a questioN at eDz hOuse i AskeD iF yOu HAD to Go OUt wiF ne ONe iN our grouP huwuD it BE?!?!!?...
yeAH anD nOoNE wuD AnswEr anD i wAz aCtuAlli tinkIn aBt mA seLF hu wuD i chOose?..
anD i wAz aCtuallii thinKin abT it.. Like MOSt pplz WuD juS eXpeCT me tO saii ivan ..
bUt i wAz aCtuLli thiNKin abT u NOe..
hu wuD i hAv dA besT fuN wiTH.. anD dA beST hUGS~~
anD crAP LIke dat... i wAz amAzed anD
i thiNK ive rouNDed it dOWn to 2 or 3 peoPLe..
But Like dEse chOIces are LIke iF ivE aLreADi hAd mA firSt BF.. rite?!?!.. yAH
bUT EwWwwWwwW pLEEzZzz.. i WUdnT go OUt wiF ne oF oUr lIL gROuP fwenDz..
eVen iVAn.. yEAH EvEn if ivAN aSkEd i thiNK i wuD aCtuALLi saY nO.. i duNNo..

U noe i hAVnt reALLi bEen IntO guyS lAtelii..
Like i Think The more seLf conSciOUs i gET dA MOre i foRget abT gUyz..
daTz a GUd thANg bY da wAii.. iTS fuN..=D=D

nE wAizZ i cant reaLLi thiNk oF ne thANg to saIiii soOo..
bA bAizZz mA seCKsiZzz~~

2004-06-17T02:10:00.000-07:00

suP mA seCKSIZz~~

weLLi tink iM gettiNG siCk ... feCk=.= urGH!!.. ne wAizZ buT i wiLL get betTAz..=D=D weLl nuthin much happens realli i havnt seen ma azn fwenZz In AGES!!!!!.. haah weLL it feeLs lIke AGes.. urmm oNLI 21 daiZz left of skooL COUNTING DOWN!!.. DAyM CANT WAIt TO get oUtta sKoOLiz eh... mAN im reaL tireD.. ne wAIzZ

weLL haha as yesterdaii i waZ teLLin ivAN.. U noe doSe dancErs LIke da two gUYs oN da KelIS fiLM cliP to triCk me.. hAHah i wAz sayIN liKE doSe gUYs are jUS daYM kUUte HAhaha.. n YerRr tokIN abT stuFfzz... OMG.. chINgy hauAHUauhau i wAs teLLin ivAN how bball kInda giVes a gUY a seCksii trade.. n CHINGY.. heLooOo hE doeS bbaLL daYm seCksii he IZ... =D~~ ... back to realityy mite i remind u dat tokin to ivan has no effect on me wat so ever.. Auahuaha.. LIke yErr i NOe hEz hOt n aLL.. buT i wonT faLL for eVerytimE i hav guD conVo wiF hiM.. iTZ aLL kOoLZz.. =D=D mAn whY cant mA skooL haV ne aZns.. anD eVen if apPEx hAD aZn FUCK NO!!!.. i aINt goiN neAr doSe shALlow bAD asseD gUYz.. haha alTho aLOT OF DEM Are mA fwendZz deii Are PUSsyS eh.. LoLZz... but yehh i lUv eM ma fwendZz lOlzZ... i wANna nOe somEone TOTALLIII NEW.. LIke nOt evn mA appeX fwenDzZ Noe.. hah yerr.. weLLi tink dats all
ba baizZ~~~

2004-06-15T01:37:00.000-07:00

sUp seCksii~~

wELL todaiZz wAz KInda drAmtIC anD aDrenALIne puMPing.. weLL zOe aS yOU nOe.. has bEen gOIn OUt wiF mIchAel fOr wAt 2 anD a hAlf yrSs.. aND den latelii he was ignoring her.. aND sOo shE askEd if i wuD tok to HIm anD i thOT iT wAz suMfin stooPId lIke aLwAiz.. *emotionAL zoE* anD yerr i wenT to tok... n Den he saYS.. weLL sam kInda says dat MicHAel doEsn LIke Zoe ne MOre anD daT shEz annOYing anD CLIngY.. i wAz jUs LIke omG i LIterlii cuDNttt CLose mA moUth... iT JusT droPPed.. anD den deii aLL wenT to whAck mA chIN soOo haha yeaH ne wAizZ .. mIchael SeD He wANteD o hAV a siNGle LIfe aGen i donT bLAMe hiM lIke hALf da guYs are isnGLe anD deii Love hiT coZ dei flIrt wiF hu evEr yEr?.. and dEN yeRr i diDnt thiNk deIii weRe gonNA breAKanYtime soOn.. anD deN at lUncH mE n tAryn wenT to mIchAel n sam n joSH b4 deii caME anD we WErE liKe suP shiT heADs anD samS lIke we Re goiN now anD i wAz lIke WAT?!?!?!.. anD deN me n saM shoOeD evEry oNE awAIii anD iT HAppeNEd aLL came doWn liKE A BOMb sheLL mIChaeL sEd hE waNted tO breAK uP wiF zOE.. anD she wAz abOUt to fAInt.. sHE LiterAlli scReAm crieD.. BALLED HER EYES OUT.. lIke heR fAce wAz aLL reD n wHOA ivE nevEr seEn hEr sooOoo EmotioNAL b4 eH?.. buT den agEn diS is a pretii bIG thiNg anD to mAKe it woRse jUS b4 danieLLe wAz re ASsuring dAt he lOves her aND wudnt breAK uP wiF her bOI wAz shE wronG.. anD zoE haD seD daT miChaeL is eVeryThing to HEr... n yeRr iT waz hELL weiRd.. n Den iT spreAD acROss dA whOLE neiGHbourhOod... i feeL sooo sorii foR her.. bUt den aGen iT wAsnT mIcheALs fAULt.. hE cANt go oUt wiF suMOne hE doeSNt LIke ne mroe.. anD eVen saM seD he hATed zoE iM LIke whOA~~.. u NOe

mAkeS u tinK heii i meAN i NOE dAt i DOn reALLii wANnA bF riTe NOw.. yErR??.. ITz LIke iM hAvin fuN da wAIi i AM.. aND yeAH i reALl i reALLi LIke mA lIfe yeAH?.. N LIkee yeAh i NOe zOE wiLL go THrougH daT moPing tiME bUT afTA she wiLL be sooO mAD.. daT she wiLL be stronGer den evEr.. yEr?.. weLL i noe iF i eVEr breAk uP wiF a bf wenevAr dat mAY be.. i wiLL try mAke iT da beST i cAn lIke.. hAHha yeAH i undErstANd datzZ zkooL kInda wAii yeAH?.. iLL try reaL hArd.. i meAN LIke i mAii lIke bein siNglE n all yeAh?.. bUT iTS alwAIzz to eXperienCe hAvin bF,... bUt im saaYin i don reALli caRe if i do noT a biG issue yeH?.. hrmm wellLL datZz abT alLLzz
ba bAizZz~~~

2004-06-11T08:09:00.000-07:00

suP seCKSII~~

weLL lets see... i hav recentlii notice i can be a fake ssumtimes to fit in da environment around me.. yah?.. totalii sooo i eVen experimented wif it i waz normal a couple of daizz all hell broke lose wif ma fwendZz n all im nice n all la di da my FAKE SELF... and we are all happi havin fun.. daYm im GUd.. hUAIhiaHiua ne waizz sumfin interestin....

i hav come fond of ma hair... hahah yeah its not as bad as i thot ,... i don hav much to saii agen i realli realli wanna see ma fwendZz.. anD mISsinG ivan alot heii i don no Why.. not in dat waii i mean in a fwend waii.. like i tok to him rite on da net and its realli kool coz like i can tell him alot.. and den i tink dat i look forward to seeing him and den wen i do PFTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT gAy letS wALk awAIi now weird asZz.... hAHha nAw but heZz reAL kOoL to tok to soOO.. iMma gonnA try eXTra eXTra hArd tO tok to HImzz..=D=D=D wiKIdooO neZz.. ritee hrmm cant think ne more
ba bAizZz

2004-06-10T02:59:00.000-07:00

sUp seCKSIFieDzZ~~~

weLL uRmm mA skoOL fWenDzz aRE driVing mE uP da wALL.. deii tink Deii hoT shit but realli compared to other peoples i meet DEII ARE LIL DORKZ HU STAII HOME ALL DA TIME FARKIN GIANT TARTS.. FaRKin HELL OK sooO dat stReeSs reLIeF is doNE nOW oNto sOMe bettEr thiNGZz..

urmMM lAteLi i wANnA sEee aLL mA fWenDzzZz..='( reALli i nEed haV mA dosE of reAL dOWn to eArth frieNDzz ARGH!!!!!!.. Ok so Rite NOW i wuD thiNK if i cuD movE to aPPex i wuD LIke totALii u gEt MEhzZ.. anD actUAlii i kInda thiNK dat iM crAzii to thiNK dat i wuDnt b4 shaME on YOu rebeCCa SHAME ON YOUz!!!

GUyz gUYZ gUZY gUZY gUYZ GUYz gUZY gUYZ .. welL da pLAn wiF guYZ i stiLL doN officiALii oBSeSsivelii LIke ne 1 anD im daYm proU D dAYM it.. altHO dErE aRe peoPle aROund dAT are quIte sEcksiFieDLii bOotilICious.. ahAHah daYm lAteliii beEn tinKIn mAN ivAN reAL reAL bOo-tAy-Li-cIOUs *rAR*.. hAHAHAHHAHAHAAH buT yerRr dATz alL...=D=D im in one of dose i dont need to hav a bf like i don mind.. buT hEii iF mA seCKsii roMeo cOMEs bY nO hArm riTe?.. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHH daYm nE wAIzz yErR datZz abT aLL
bA bAizZz

2004-06-05T18:55:00.000-07:00

sUp seCksii~~

weLL lets see todaiI i suNDaii morniNtg hAD tO wAKe eArlii to ask ma mommi if i cud go to da movie marathon wifout ma eVil sisTAz inTeruPtINg meHZz.. nE wiAzz urrmm nUthIn nEw,... buT feeLs LIke i hAvnt sEen jAY n DAT fOR ageS eh.. u noe it feels like ive onli been writing blogs for a couple of weeks but ive been bloggin ever since march scarii stuFzz.. oNce agEn nUthiN new but cANt wAIt tiLL tonIght.. =D=D goNNA bE heLLa fuUUn... hehehe aND yerr iM bAk iN ma hAPpi mOod nUTHINZ Been ReALLi woRryiNg ME dat MUcH.. datZz aLL

bA bAIzZ~~

2004-05-30T05:08:00.000-07:00

sUp~~~~~~~~

weLL lETZz sEe A borinG suNDaiiiiiiiiiiiii.. hehe i wAz sooO wiPEd oUT i slEpt foR ageS ppLz.. hEHeh n ewAIzzZ urmZz.. goIN skoOL toMMOroZz kooLIz... urmm gOnNNa bE coLd yAH?.. heheh goTTa PIk uP mA unIfORmZz tooOZ.. hOPefuLLi i cAN go SHoppINg anD bUY diFfErEnt ONEzz eH?... umMMM nuthiN InterstIng reALLI i hAD reAL chiLLout daii todAIzZ iMMa gonNa slEep eArlii mE soOo tiRed ... huAuIAHuiauaH gO sLEeP lATerZz..
oOKizZ peAce oUT~~...

2004-05-29T07:46:00.000-07:00

i gOttA mAKE A new GreetIng iT wiLL be

hEi dErE buMAssEs~~ hUIAHiuaHiuaa

weLL letZz anOther goOd weeKEdn hiuAHuiiuaiuaH sPEnt wiF mA aZn bUDdiZ hiuAHiuaU.. *aZN Pride* PAHUAHAUHAUHAUAHUA *couGH*.. nE wAIzZz yerr slept ova jay house n all went ct chopping wen to heaps of shops must take mother dere hIUAHIUAhuia.. urmZz ne wAIzZ im tyPIng reAL slOw coZ iM siNgINg AT da saME tiMe.. LIstenINg to simPLe plAn - perfEct OMGoodNEZz suCH a clASsiC.. heheh oLD schoOL o yeRr.. u NOE i NOticEd i diDnt sEe elYSia AliNa ireNE aND ADNy alL diS weeKEnd LIke wHOA.. mhUIAHIAUHAIU bBaLL wAz MEgA fuN i duNNo i jUS lUv dA fEeL oF aLL da tokIN n hiAHuia yerrr All iZ gUD gDU.. hAD mANii tokZ wiF jHA mAma.. alSO thiNgZz abT whALe spErmSs.. dAt IZsh fOR anothEr time tHO.. lOlzZ bY da wAiii JAY THINKS WHALES WANK THEMSELVES. hUAHIUAhuia fuNNi ASs stuFfZzz ne wAIzZ mANi goTTa get A new vocABulAryyy MIne iZ soOOooOO oLD n ordiNAry HUAIhuia i goTTa spEAK diffErEntliii.. spEAKin oF speAKin lOLzZ.. i wAz tokIN to jAY ABt hOW i thINk LOOKING Ey woRd lOOKin wHIch inclUdeS druELIng ovA n tryIN tO snAG deprEssiVeneZz iZ URGH!!.. U HEAR DEM URGH!!.... hUAhiaau me n jAY sayIN how UrgH souNds frenCH hAUIhiuAhuia URGH!!... ne wIAzZ yerrr i jUS feeL da whOLE bF thiNG iZ URGH..., bUT i meAn i LIke beinG siNgLe.. i meAN yerr iF i hAPpeN to LIke A gUY mOre den othErS hu cAreZz.. jUS BE da saME anD if hE hAPpeNZ to LIke mE bAk den yErr mAYbe i wuD mAke n eFfort to ORgAnise suMFin rite?.. mAKin sPArks FLy n SHiZ lA dat.. BUT yerr A RELATIONSHIP IS NOT A ONE PERSON THANG... iF yA noE wAT i meAN PARTICIPATION OF BOTH TWO PEOPLE!!.. hAhaUIahU =D=D soO i dON giV a fuK personALiii... i LIke dA flIRtinG anD dA thRiLLS aND da slAppIN ASs AlL dat stUFf HEhehE... iTZ aLL fuUNnNN~` ALL SINGLE..?!?! hIAUHIUAhau i meAN yeAH i cNA stiLL saii heii dAt gUYZ hot or A bABe oR wATeva buT iT shuDnt bE suCH a bIG deAL lIKe i hAte dA fAct hOW sUtmiMEs i kInda oVer reACt AB thoW hOt sUmoNE iZ LIke oMG i hAv to hAv dEM noW.. lIke hElLOoOO u cNA dooO soO mUCh betA withOUt.. anD yerr perSOnALii siNGle LIfe iZ dayM fuUuuUuunNnnN.. alL da flIRtinG anD jOKin hehe iZz aLL guD... weLL i tiNK datZ abT iTZz heii??...

bA bAIzZz

2004-05-27T04:37:00.000-07:00

hei hei dere seCKsiZzzZ~~

weLL hRmM lAtelii mA blOG abt skooL soOo mE try n ADd sum StuFf aT dA enD oOKiz?.. weLL skooL fiRst.. shAne pULLed joSH B fRoM dA aLEgS anD joSH bROkE hiS arM.. eEkk>.< ne wAizZ... i waz better todaizz u noe i waz tryin to hav fun n aLL.. heheh urMmm welL i guess alot came out todaizz.. and da begining of taking sides has begun onlii now its either danieLLez side or mine.. and well todaizz i got da assurance of steph zoe.. which kind ameans michael aswell and den matt.. n aaron.. u noe and da res tof da group doesnt realli matter.. hehe strong pplz but ne waiz datz not da point.. i found out dat danielle likez josh.. and i dont wanna be a bitch or ne thing like i mean da things steph tellzz me abt wat she says.. sounds serious n like sum wat scarii.. but like long story short.. steph tells me to jus go for it.. coz danielle has no chance.. zoe says dat danielle realli like shim but datz all.. aaron says jus let her go for him.. and if u dont want dat den im goin to tok to josh and make him settle it.. except da thing iz i noe he doesnt like BOTH of us.. and i don wanna take da risk of telling him u noe dat we both actualli hav feelings for him.. altho he noes danielle does... ne wwaizz at da end of da daii me and josh are fine.. but danielle iz sum wat pissed at sumfin and ignoring me.. so yeah fit da pieces togetha?... ne waizz off dis boring subject

OK weLL.. in mY opiNIOn i aCTualli tHINk auSsie gUYZ are LEss shALlow dEN aZN guyS.. i thiNK azn gUYd are dA moST shALlow shALoow.. spAzticATed gUYZ oN da plANet i meAN yeRr deii AR emAJor hOT n seCKsii.. buT deii persoNALiityy Are jUS meAn!! aZz... omG pErSOnalii i gET treAted wAiiiii wAIi wAIi bettEr LIke hePs betA bY AUssiE guYS.. deii treAT u reALLi guD.. aND alwAizZz gIVing u coMPLimenTS and dEii r reALLIi sweEt.. anD ok from ExpEriEnce whErE AccoRdinG to dA aZn poPUlAtion IM not dAt pretii... OOk aND frANklii i thiNK i gET alot of crAP fOR noT beiNG pretii fRom yerr... buT auSsie gUYS deii jUS givE u comPLimenTSs lIKe ur hAIr iS soO soFT anD ur eyEs are pretii n.. stuFf LIKe dAT anD LIke pEopLe cALlIng u Pretii.. i meAN LIk wtH?... hOW can u be treAteD soOOoo diFfErEntliii bY othEr pEOpLezZ?.. frANklii i thiNK iT jUS givZ dOSe jUdGEmENtaL peoPLes a bAD NAmE~~

yOU noe i havnt evn had a boifwend... but from da experiences i hav in dis skoOL.. i kinda hav a different thinking... like sumtimes ithink i wud rather like to be single.. coZ like u canjus flirt around wif ne 1.. and like yerr it seems so much more fun and easier heii?.. iduNNo coZ like sam sed hed rather be singel and so did aarona and it jus got me thinkin u noe.. it iz quite fun being single.. and also i like josh i dont realli wanna go out wif him.. do i realli not want to get a bf ne more?.. i quite getting convinsed dat i think dat waii ne waizz.. but den agen dere are sum thingz u miss out on not havin boifwendZz i guess... i mean yerrr... i duNnoz.. urmm i think..
bA bAIzZ~~

2004-05-26T01:25:00.000-07:00

hei hei dErE seCKSIZzz~~

weLL letSs seE todaiZz stRted OFf reAL weLL.. i ignOred i wAz fiNE itzZ alL kooLZz.. anD deN i wAz iN LOTE.. JOSh camE to oUR tABle anD he wAz PLayIN wiF our stuFf anD he tOOK mA peN.. sO dEN at dA enD of dA LEssOn i asKE dfoR mA peN he sEd it wAz oN mA tABle i CUdnt fIND it.. sO weN we WeNt bAck tO oUR clASs I asKEd fOR it anD seD i cuDnt fiND it.. anD deN he juS buMPed Me whiLE he wALked pASs anD seD weLL daTZ yOur proBLem dEn.. LIke WTF?.. ONe mINute heZ fiNe anD dA neXt heZ aLL pissEd at Me?.. AnD dEN LIke we WeRE a LItttLE iNtO dA leSson anD dEn hE coMEsS anD duMPS mA peN on dA tABle wiFout tokIn to ME.. noT onE freAKin worD....sooO deN i wAz IN a crAPpI mOoD... aND yerr jUS b4 i toLD zoE aLL ABt it.. aND deN aftEr skooL hiM n saM werE ridINg pASs.. anD saM cAMe aND tAppeD ME firSt anD smiLed bYe.. buT i wASnt iN a greAT MoOD.. so i JUS wAved aND dEn jOSh cAMe anD tAPpeD mE.. anD he wAz smiLing AS iF we werE aLL fWeNDz aGen .. IM LIke WTF?... weRent U jUS ignOrinG me?.. I DONT UNDERSTAND HIM.... I REALII DONT.. uRGh aND zOe sAys dAt sHE recKon daniELLe LIkes hIM agEn.. aND i AM 100% sure daT ITz coZ heZ flirtIng wiF her AGen.. anD dA thINg iZ zOE ASks Me iF i actuAlii hAv fEelIngs fOR him.. anD i duNNo hOW to eXPlaiN it.. i meAN i dONt actuALii wANt to GO oUt wiTh hIm.. i dONt wANnA go ouT wiTH ne 1.. buT i cAre enUF daT if he iGNoreS me dAt i wiLL gEt uPSet... i reALLy doNt undErstANd wAt hEz thiNKing.. thIS mornINg we HAd enGLISh aND we cAMe LAte coZ we wenT to dA wronG roOM.. aND mA grouP had to seperAte anD zOe saT wiF joHS n aAron.. buT obVIOUslii i diDnt wAnnA siT dErE cOZ i NOE jOSh iS iGnorinG mE.. sOOo doEsnt dAT kInda meAN hE doeSnt wANna toK to ME?... aND so I Sat wiF mAtt terry anD dANe.. buT i MOved lAter tO stepH asH n dEm coZ we cuD movE ne where...

i aLSo hAd da bEeP teSt todAIi it wASnt bAD stoOPId fuKIn roBYn anD sTAcey diDnt wAnna do it so deii saT OUr lIKE wtF?.. u WUdnt eVN do Bad bUT deii stiLL duN wANnA.. aND i goT.. 4.6 buT mE anD dANIeLLe aND zOE hAD to droP OUt coZ da coLD aiR wAz pIercINg mA throAt.. i aLMosT lOSt mA voicE.. lIke iT wen reAL quiet n croAKii buT itZz ok nOw.. weLL i thiNK datZz abT it foR mA crAPpi craPPi LIfe?

bA bAizZz~~

2004-05-25T00:53:00.000-07:00

hei hei dErE sEckSIzZ~~

aNother HORRIBLE HORRIBLE HORRIBLE dAiii... weLL u See i cANt sEem tO nOe wAt tO saii.. i dONt nOe hOW tO eXplaiN it.. urMZZz... welL OK.. weLL jOsh hAS BEen iGnoriNG mE rite.. aND yeaH i GUeSs yesterdaii it wAz mY fAULt cOZ i IGnoreD hIM fiRst.. buT iN my oPinIOn i stiLL thiNKS he thINkz iM alL ovEr hIM or Sumfin... anD HE cant tOK t ME uNleSs iM not eVn sure NE more.. wen I trY to tOK to hiM.. heZ seriOUS nOt fuN anD yerr coLD... anD dEn weN iM uPSet cOZ of daT deN h chOosEs da weiRdest tImeZz tO tok To mE anD da MOst stOopIdeSt thiNGzZ to saIii... iTZ iMmeNSLii stooPId.. anD yerr i trIEd toOo asK him y n aLL.. n yerr jus turns out shit.. EVERYTHINGZZ WRONG... iM tryiNg sooO harD not tO LIke hiM u NOe.. aND aLL dIS giVZ me dA crAp idEA dAt mAyb ei dO.. anD dAtz y iTZ suCH a hUGe deAl buT it aiNt.. anD pLUs i tHInk dA thiNg dAt pISseS mE ofF more.. iZ iF i doN flIRt wiF hIm.. hE alwAizZ comes uP to dAnieLLe anD flIRts wiF her IN mY facE.. anD deN he tRieS to tOK to ME as iF.. nUthin iZ wronG.. mAyBe heZ tryIn to mAKe mE jeALous or suMFin lIke teaChing mE a leSsoN noT to iGnore hIM or suMFin.. n ewAIz dA OnlIii gUY i flIRt wiF now iZ saM broWn... hEz a ckUUtie soOo nicE to ME.. heheh funiii lil feLLa... buT ne wAIzZ yerR i wAz diStrACted dA whoLE daii bCoz oF dis anD itZ juS at dA bAck oF mA heAD floAting..

TOMOROO I HAV DA BEEP TEST ARGH.. wAT dO i dO?.......>.< nAh itZz ok aS lOng AS suM 1 droPS oUt wiTH mEe.... rite?.. i hOPe zOE ruNS aND droPS ouT agEN mAYbe dEN i cAN droP out wiF her?... weLL deii sed deii onli got up to 3.6 cOZ oF her knee u NOe i thiNK i cuD go dAt fAR?.. hOPefuLLi.. n yerr nuthiN to woRriZz abT i jUS gottA thiNK diffeRenntt

i goTtA ApoLOgisE oR jUS act NOrmAL oR usMFIn arOUNd jOSH tomoRo.. heii cANt wAit tiLL dA beeP teSt iZ ovEr... n yerr hOpe fOR da beST daT iM not iN SUcH a shitty MOoD...

2004-05-24T03:57:00.000-07:00

hei hei dere secKSiiZz~~

weLL leTS seEe.. todaiZzZz wAz ONe of thOSe unhAppi mUCky wAT AM i uPSet ABt dAizZ... hehe onlI lIke wAT mA seCOnd thiRd oNE?.. yerRr weLL i duNno todAIzZ i fELt LiKE i wAz uPSet ABt suMFin buT i wASnt quITe suRe abT wAt?... aND sOoOo i wAz kInda quiEt da whOle daIii... aND u nOe mA fWenDzZ aSk mE wATz wronG n StuFf i diDnt NOe eXactlii wAT to saii sO i sEd uNOE nuThin evErythINgz Fine... yeAH weLL i NOe nOW i gUesS...

OKkKkk soOoOo... eVeryONe noEsZZ daT u NOe me n JOsh u NOe... wE aRe bUDdi uPeD Like aLL the tiME.. eVeryONe nOEs dAT we KIdna hAV thiNgy.. foR eAch othEr rite?.. n i kInda thiNG mAybe im an atTentioN SeEkeR?.. cOZ lIke suDdenLiii todAizZ.. dAnIeLLe kInda... i duNno whErE evEr i GO sheZ deRe.. anD yeRr LIke mAYbe invAdiNg mY perSOnAl spAcE?.. Or terriTory?.. noT tO soUnd LIkE a abiTch oR netHIng buT i KInda fELt shE kINda toOk suMFin OUt oF mY daii.. LiKE aT art iM hanging wiF joSh sHE coMEZz asweLL soO da whoLe timE i enDed uP toking wiF saM.P hehe(funNi he wAz LIke bitIng mY juMper LIke a dOG enDed uP slAGgINg on iT hehe wAz LIek wooPzZ).. ne wAIz yEr anD dEn i wAz U nOE kindA foOLin aroUNd wiF saM.B (by da wAIi i kInda thinG i sPEnd ALOT Of tim EwiF saM.B hehEH) weLL LIke heS ticKlINg ME n aLL dat StufFzz.. n den dANiEllE coMes alONg anD stARts tiCkliNg hiM.. anD i fElT LIke shE intrudEd kInda anD soO i wALked oFf.. aND LIke 10 seCs lATer sAm.B cAMe ruNNinG aFTa mEh... yeRr sWeEt i NOe.. buT stiLL da whOle daii i diDnt nOE waT wAz bOtherINg mEe...

anD PLus da whOLE daii i wAz tryINg to iGnore jOSh.. cOZ i duNno yeRrR.. mAYbe hE kinda thiNKz dAT iM da oNE daT alwAIz flIRtsS wiF him fIRst oR coMEs to hiM fIRst.. buT yerR i wAz iGnorinG hiM da whOLe dAii.. n stuFfZz n hE triEd to Tok tO me bUT i ignoreD HIM anD jUS tALked to d otHEr gUY neXT to ME.. aND dA dA reST of da dAii i wAz jUS feeLing POoPY-bAD-mOOd anD deN iN oUR lasT periOD it wAz ANother OF ouR freE oNesZ.. anD i dIdnt fEeL LIke doIng ne thINg soO i sAT wiF meEshA n mAtt wiF daniEllE ON dErE siDE of dA roOm.. aND deN a few tABles tO tHE bAck OF the roOm wAz joSH n i duNno raMItASs n daNe.. n i asKEd daniEllE id shE wANted tO go tok to dANe... anD so we WeNT bASicALii dA whoLe tiMe i SAw hEr flIRtinG wiF jOSh i wAz tokIn tO daNE n jaMEs n raMitASs.. n eVeRy nOw aND dEn joSh triEd to tOK to ME n i iGnoreD.. anD i toOk jAmes hAT.. anD woRe it.. anD dEn we werE pAckINg uP anD i wenT to gO giv bAck dA hAt.. n JOSh cAMe up to ME n u noe triEd To toK to ME... n SeE wAt wAz wronG n i dIdnt fEeL lIke doIn oR sayIN ne thiNG to hIm.. aND he wAz LiKE hOldinG mA armS bEhiND me.. fOR LIke fuN.. n sAYinG hOW weAK i aM.. bUT dEn i wASnt goNNA tok To hIM soO dEn hE leT goOo.. n aFtEr skooL i wAz wALkIN n aaRon hAD hIS roCk bAnd n sO hE diDnt wAlk wiF... buT JOsh.B wAz stiLL dErE hEz aLwAIzz dEre.. anD i wAz wALKIN reAL sloWlii n i wAz lOokIn bAk evEry nOW n thEn to sEe iF joSh(josh.C) wAS wAlkIN but i cuDnt See hIM.. anD dEn hAlf wAii to dA rouND abT hE tApPed ME on mA bAk n smILEd.. bUT hE wAz ridiNg hOMe.. sO He wenT wiF sAM n triShen...*siGH* n diS iZ aLL A LOad oF buLshiT... iM suCh a bRAt.. gEttiNG aLL pooPI n upsEt ABt nuthiN.. uRGh attEntioN seEkIng brAt... weLL yeRr dATzz hOW i fEeL todaiZz.. bUT NOt toO Worrii toMOrO i proB bE mAS eLF AGainSszZ~~
bA bAIzZZ~~

2004-05-23T04:34:00.000-07:00

hei hei dere seCKsiZz~~

OMFG... hOW fuKKed uP cAN aduLts gEt?.. mA dAD iZ suCH a FUKIN RETARD... i fEeL soOo daYm sorri fOR ma moMmii.. iF i wAz hEr i fuKin whAck hiMin dA heaD dEN mAybe hE WOULD LEARN TO FUCKIN APPRECIATE ME MOM... FukIN heLL hEZ soo gAY.. hE ruiNZz eVerythiNg.. aND he tiNKS heZ soO biG n mArCho weLL heZ a fuKIn lOSeR... neEds tO gEt hIS aCt togEtha AN DMYABE THINK ABOUT OTHER PEOPLEZ FEELINGZZ.. BEFORE HE OPENS HIS FARKIN MOUTH... bLOoDii heLL.. y cNA the jUS shUTuP anD bE normAL... OMFG... pISs da fuK out oF mEe

ne wAIzzZ oN suM betta NewZ HEZ LEAVING BY DA WAII ON TUESDAII WHOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!... weLLL urMZz i gOt skOoL tomoRo.. aND urmMm yerr.. aRt heheh yerr.. iT shud be quITe fuN tomoORo?.. rite?.. aND ummM weLL nuthiN muCh happEneD... i sEem tO be eXtremEmlii hAPpi lAteliii... LIKE wAIi toOo weiRdlliii hAPpi hEhehE.. wHy iZ daT i meAN i fEeL LIke iM hAVIN more FUn nOW deN i haVe iN primary skOoL.. anD LIke i Think hiGhskooL wUd be dA beST momEnt oF mA LIfe HEhehHE yerRr... aND yOU nOE wAt dA beSt tHIng iZz... i meaN usuALii i wuD hAV suMFin oN da bAck oF ma mINd.. dEre iZ nuthiN.. i meAN skooL IZ pIss eASy nO StreSs wAT so eVEr oF liKE handinG thiNGZ in OR beiNG slAk.. aND nO GUY pRobleMZz wAT so eVEr... eVeryTHang iZ kOoL.. iM not lOOkiNg iM noT broWsiNg iM noT iNtereStEd IN a pArticuLAr thiNG eiTher.. iTZ aLL kOoL wATevA coMEZ bUY coMEs bUY.. aND yeRr weLL beSideS da LIl thiNGz iN mA fAMiLii.. weLL u NOe ivE alwAizz hAted ma siSterS n mA dAD.. n dA wIi mA mommii coMPLains suMfin I CANNOT CHANGE.. uNfortunAtelii anD so I leAve it BE.. LiKE i hAv thiS LIl thiNg LIke tiME to mA seLF. thiNg reALii reALIi heLPZ iTZ jus LIke mAYbe n hoUr IN mA roOom.. jUS doIng wAT i fEeL LIke doing lIke lISteninG tO mUSic.. stRetCHes.. wArm uPS.. lAYINg oN ma beD...danciNg LIke a mANiaC.. tryIng on LCOTHEs lOLzZ... eXperimENtiNg wif diFfErEnt mAke uPS huiAHiuAHUIhaUIa.. yeRr aLL lOtsa fuN anD reAL reLAxiNg toOo.. aLthO i MAY sOOUnr LIke a RetArd aLL reALiii guD foR mA heALth nO boDii tO interuPt... i lUv mA stereo anD mA roOom.. heheheh weLL datZ aLll
bA bAizZz~~

2004-05-21T21:11:00.000-07:00

hei hei derE seCKsizZ~~

weLL iTZ sat anD i decIDed to stAii hOMeZz.. sinCe mA dadiii iZ heRE.. urmZzz... i chANged mA blog sKin.. i mIXed uP StuFzz eXcept i cAntget rid oF daT stooPID boX at da tOP...>.< heheh buT pretii nE wAizZz.. urmMZz yesterdaii i sLEpt aT like 5 anD wokE up aT 8 heheeh wAhh~~ around abt 15 hours of sleeP eh?.. UHaIUhiuaHiuaiauhiuaha farNIii YErr i wAz mAjour tiReD... lAtelii skoOL tiriNg mE outZz yAh?... urmAzz hehe i spenT LIke 20 mINS jUS paiNTiNg ma thuMB nAIls HAIHAUIHAUIA... pertyyyyy cOZ i wAS tRyiNg to wriTe on Dem... i wiLL dO da rEst wen mA dADii leAves huiaHiuAhiua *siGH* i lUuRvv mA hOme.. hHEheHEhehe iMma gonNa bUM out todaiZz... hEhehe ne wAIzzz

urMMmZzz u NOe i wAz LISteniNg to aLL deSe saD sonGZz.. anD i wAz u NOe jUS in da mood foR aLL da sad sTufFzzZ rite?.. buT nuthiN hAppeNEd liKE i wASnt fEelIng alL daT depRessIve.. oR ANYTHING.. LikE i doN hav ne thANg to BE in a sad mOod in nE more?.. i LIke lISten To sad MUsIC alLL da tiME anD nO eFFecT WAT SO EVER?!?!?!.. LIke wAt EHehhe soOO nOw i liSteN to bOppY soNGzZ.... coZ i meAN iTZz niCe suMtimEs to LISten tO saddIii soNGz anD iF ur depReSseD hav a LIl biT of A cry n StuFfZ rite?.. buT yerr i cNAt DO DAT?!?!?!... hHEhe iM weRid.. u noe i kINda nOTicEd daT iM aloT inTo briTney lOlzZ... lIke her NEw soNGz b4 i thoT she wAz jUS weiRd.. buT i kInda LIke da diFFeRnet tuNEs n StuFzZ hheheh wiCKed.,..

ErMmzmZz wAT elSe to saAiii... oOooOOo TOTALIII ovEr aLL gUYZzz... InCludinG ivAn joSH wATevA... u nAme iT goNE POoF...i doNT carE n emOre.. iTZ alL juS foR fuN.. anD i doN reALLi cArE iF i hAve a BoifWenDzzZ OR NOT... coZ iM onlIii 14... i thiNK da reASon y i wAz so iNto coZ lIke dA peoPLeZz aRound mE n aLL... but latelii yErRr.,.. mA fWenDzZZ saii doN reALii cAre beSideS soMe hehHEhe... buT yerRr i doN cAre.. iF i doOO den bONus.. buT yerr iM aiGHTzz..=D=D=D..

bY da wAIi i hAv a shiT lOad oF hw to doZz.. aCtualii iT ainT dat bIG buTi juS canT be ScRewEd soOO dats y iT souNDzz lIke sooo mUCh.. hUIAhiuhua... aLSo U noe i nOticEd b4.. i useD to wANnA seE mA fWenDzz eVery Wk enD lIke iT wAz a bIG deAl to ME i hAD to hAv lIKe a reguLAr thANg goiN.. buT u nOE i doN get dAT uPSeT weN i doNT see dEM.. LIke iM fiNE deRe iz aLwAIzz neXt weeK lOlzZ.... hEHhehehe urmm i tinK daTZ abT iTZ foR mE
bA bAizZz~~

2004-05-21T01:01:00.000-07:00

hei hei dere seCKsiZz~~

weLL letZz see.. i waz supposed to blog yesterdaii but i waz reaL slEePi.. soOo urmMm yesterdaii wAz da cRappIest daIIi oF skoOL... i wAz LIke gonNA go CRAZY!! like i wAz immNEslii bOreD... aND urGH i dIDnt feeL at ALll weLL.. u noe doSe timEs.. weN u jUS stARt oF grumPy anD AnnOId.. anD deN Argh u JUs feeL lIke sCreAMiNg.. yeAH.. anD da daii wAz aLL cLOudy anD rainY... anD eVerYone waz ALL feeLing shAted n aLL bAD mooDi.. anD sTepH n tARyn n lIanNa went hOMe.. yeah wasnt verii gud.. and jOsh wAsnt dErE eiTher.. anD dANieLLe sEd daT i wAz proBAbLiii not hAvin fuUn coZ jOSh wASnt derE... hrmM n u nOe i kIInda thiNK sheZz ritein suM wAii.. i nOe i doNt liKE joSH n aLL bUT stiLL... i tHinK da onLI thinG froM sayIN i actuAlii LIke hiM iZz.. daT da fAct i ProbABlii nOe hE doeSnt Like mE.. anD riTE nOW hE proB thinKZ daTi LikE hiM siNCe aLL guYZ are Like dAt.. mAN u jUS flIrt aROund anD deii ThiNK u hAV da hOTZz foR eM.. huGeeee lOAd of bULLshiT...

buT todAIzz wAz diFf.. he cAMe to skooL n aLL aND i caME fRom voCaLZ.. we caME a bit eArlii anD soO we hAD lIke 20 mINs leFt tiLL luNcH timE.. anD yeAH asH zoE mIChaeL amY sAm n jOSh.. weRe alL At OUr tABle.. anD sO i jUS haNged oUt dere nO pOint doin nEthiNg.. anD deN i tooK oFf mA jAckeT anD i pUt mA fONe dErE asweLL anD deN... jOSh tooOK it.. anD he wuDnt giv iT bAck.. sooOo sAm jOSh n michAel werE aLL puLLing mA fone apArt anD hidiNg iT fROm mE... aND jOSh triEd to giV da foNE to saM bEHiND me... anD hE wAz jUS sTandinG dErE wIF hIS armS arouND me.. anD he wuDnt let Go dEN stooPId miChAel wAz lIKE bLAh blAH bLah... hHHehehHEh so hE let GoOO... anD dEn afTA a whiLe i got mA fonE bak slowLiii IN PIECES... hHEhe joSh gAVe mE mA bAckINg cASe bAk lASt... heheehhe dat wAz fuN thO.. hHEheHEHe... hEhehEh todaii skooL roCked aS usUaL... oK mAybe i do kINda hAv thiNgy foR jOSh buT i wUDnt gO out wiF hIm... iTLL jUS be weiRd.,... i jUS liKE to flIRt a LIttLE in skOOL... =DXD hehehe... o aND jOSh wAS siTTing on DA tAble anD saM wAs neXt tO hiM.. aND i sAt neXt to jOSh.. anD deN mIchAel wAz LIke.. joSh u wAnna gO out wiF beCKy don U.. jOSh diDnt saY ne tHInG so I wAz jUS lIke noo.. and deN miChael wAz lIke n beCky u wANnA g out wIF joSh don U.. anD i wAz lIKe no.. anD deN michAEl wAz lIke greAT iTs a dATe deN LOlZ... hehHEhe farnii feLLa.. buT yerrrrrrr....

BY DA WAII MR. QUINN IS A FARKIN SLEEZE PETEFILE RETARDED FUk ASS RETARD... uRgh hE pissEs da FUk oUttA me.. HE ISNT EVN OUR TEaCHER.. fuKin .P.E teACher anD hE coMEzz anD hang wif out neighbouhood like all da time and i cant stand to go to da other side of da room cOZ he wiLL say SUm stooPID oLD farkIN remArk hEz suCH a FUK HEAD... lASt TIme i wAs riGHt IN froNT of mR. beANlAnd anD he diDnt cAre i wAz in hIS clASs.. anD den mR quiNN coMEs aLong anD toLD me to Go to mA clAsS areA.... FUKIN RETARD!!!... Urgh

ne wAIzz yerRr.. i haD mUsiC todAIzz hehehe iMMa goOod at DrumZz..miuAHiuhaiua... heheh datZ aLL ...
bA bAIzZz~~~

2004-05-18T05:06:00.000-07:00

hEi heI dErE seCKsiZzz~~

weLL urmZz leT sEe SUMFIN I HAVE NOTICED... ANd i Am trULy proud of... AhhHHH mA fingErs Are soOO sOre.. stoOPid enGLisH hw...=.="" huAHuAHU datz not it uRmZz yeah i ve noticed latelii dat... I DONT ACTUALLI LIKE NE 1... i realli doNt.. liKe u sEe i notiCed weN.. todaiZz aPPArAntlii sTepH CHuckeD a SpaZ teLLing me N jOSh to hUrry uP n gO ouT alreADii rite?... yeAH weLL den i wAz tokIN to dANiEllE anD deN i jUS hAD enUf anD heR... I DONT WANT TOG OUT WIF HIM AND I DONT LIKE ANYONE... anD sHE seD reALlii u doNt liKE hiM da lEaSt bit aND i wAz LIke NO!.... LIke i ADmitt A teeny tenny tenny bIT but dAT wAz B4.. anD i hAv coMe tomA seNSeS aND i JUS couLDnt bE scrEweD... sooo nOw i oFficiALli doN like anYone anD im proUD of iT.. anD yeaH heIiii tAKe it slOw IM oNLiii 14 rite?.. hehHEeh alL iZ gUD guDzZZz.... anD helLo IM NOT DAT TYPE TO GO OUT WIF HIM RITE?.. im da stereotypical chik.. dat goes for da tall hansome ASIAN night in shining armour on horse rite?... hu jus happens to plaii bball or soccer... rite?.. i duN go fOR aUSsie guyZz.. anD i wAz jUSs tinKIn abt wat it wuD be lIke if i ActuALlii went out wif jOSh yeAH diDnt liKE it dAT mUChZz.. i tink?.. iTD be jUS soOO dayM weiRd.. yeah weLL dis whOlE thiNg wiF stePh hAppenEd coZ i wAz sooO bored ON da oThersidE of dA roOm stuCk wIF zoE n michAel dA tWo love bIRdsS lOlzZ,... coZ danIeLL leFt me>< hehe soO i went to visit steph and i didnt evn notice josh dere... anD deN i cAMe i wAz lIke eEekZz u guyz im sooO bored.... anD deN i saW hiM i stood in bettweeN anD den he put his arms out to giv me a hug so i went to giv him hug and den he like swivelled me so i wAz enDeD up sitting on hiS lAp wif ma arms around him.. anD yeah and den stEpH went to zoe and michael and den danielle ran afta her.. and den wen me n josh came bak danielle toLD me ABt wAt stePh seD.... i mean jOSh iZ cuTe n AlL n mAjor pOpUlAr n shiZz... but idoN thiNK heZz ma type.. i duNNozz...*siGH*.. welL i tinK datZz alLZz
bA bAizZz~~

2004-05-17T07:40:00.000-07:00

hei hei dere seCksiZz~~

OK REAL EYE OPENER... i hAV jus reALizeD suMFin... IM NOT FOLLOWING BY MA RULES.. iM toOo iNto agen... da whOle fLirtiN And tokIN to guYZ oN purpOSe.. anD thiNKin iN dosE obseSsive wAizz... ALL WRONG.. diS iz alL tNX to ANONYMOUS..*couGH*.. shOWed mE reAL eyE openEr.. oK hu givEs a fuK abt ivAN?.. Y dO i toK abt hIM SoO MuCh.. i shUD jus shuT da fuK up... aNd alSo y dO i pretenD to BE suMFin iM not arouND cErtAIn guyZz?... LIkE i eND uP lOokInZz lIke xtRA tArt.. anD iTZ gettin to dAT poInt wheRe sOme of mA fWenDzz are sAYIN.. sTuff daT i seD to amY... CALL ME HYPACRIT?... oMgoodneZzz i jUS gottA keeP remiNdinG mA selF ovA n ovA ageNZz.. heiii I DONT LIKE NE 1... ABSOLUTELII NO 1.. iZ aLlL gud gUDzzZz... nOboDii datZz riGHT i doN lIke ne gUYZz... aND pLUs iM stARtin to gEt siCK OF KEEp oN tAKin inTerEst iN da sAMe guYZ?... LIke i wAnnA mEet New pPLZz i soo waNnnA mEet nEW PPLZ lIKe iN diff skOoLZz... >_< uRgh!! iM siCK OF ALL da saME guYZz.. anD urGH yeAH wAz toKInto dEe abT treATinG alL dA gUYZ jUS lIKE oUR normAL fWenDz.. anD daT we doN lIke dEM in dAT wAIi to PUt deM in frONt of OUr fWenDzzZ.. anD thiNin aBt itZz yeAH i thiNK i wuD stiLL chOOse mA gfWenDzz b4 mA gUY fweNZz heii.. I DONT LIKE ANYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.... weLL datZz aLL~~ bAK to mA hArdcOre meE~~ i think ma style has changed a bti toOo bit more hardcoreY wAii individual... like da thingZ im interested in.. i dunNO suMtimes i feeL reALli clASsy ONe moment anD den cuTe anothEr anD den i feeL lIke beiNG inDIviduAL i duNNOz itZz all weiRd...
bA bAizZz~~

2004-05-16T03:49:00.000-07:00

hei hei dere seCKsiZz~~

urMM let see suNdaii wen to church i wasnt in a verii gud mood todaizz.. =.= urmm 3 words I HATE SITERS?... fArkIN heLL y do deii hav to be soOo opinionated and NOSY!!.. y cant deii jus leave me da fuk alone?.. izzit dat hard NOT TO TOK TO ME?.. do deii hav to stik to me dat much deii absolutelii neeed to diSs.. me EVERYDAII?... datzz wat stopping ma life from being jus dat lil bit more urmm BETTER?.. omfg deii shud jus leave me da fuk alone............WHY?!?!?... iZzit seriouslii dat hard to KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT?... fuKin big mouthZzz... URGH!!!!... datz wat puts me in bad moodzz.. my GAY GAY GAY FAMILIII... i guess itzz da huge age gaps heii.. i get treated like frkiN shit jus coz im da youngest... and trust me i am not spoilt ... if i am WELL IT MAKES UP FOR DA SHITI GET FROM FAMILY... so reallii ITZ BALANCED... so im not spoilt huh..=P

weLL ne waizz ok dis denial method of mine... WORKING LIKE A CHARM!.. heheh all iz gud gudZz... eXcept da fact dat it makes me wanna like ivan evn more than b4... not gud>.< heheh but o weLLzz and oOO u noe i jus noticed... heheh i think im pretii jealous of jay don u think?... hehehe cOz she can jus go about not liking guys... and be fine.. and plus she major major gud buddiZz wif da guyz... sumtimess makes me feel like a tart.. i mean do i actualli try to impress these pplz?.. like wen i jus look at ma self sumtimes i think im not ma self around dem ne waiz.. like am i trying to actualii be a tart.. cOZ dat jus OOO wrong.. i mean we r tokin abt ma guy fwendZz here.. i mean u dont need to impress dem... and do izzit jus me or u get da feeling im xtra xtra girliii.. and ditzy?.. maybe im turning into a drama queen?... i dunno but i hell think i aM.. and itZ scarii i mean... i look at all those chix and dis dem.. wen i axtualliii cud be A HYPACRIT.. coz im jus like dem... like wtf?.. yeah well dis is my questionaire for da week well maybe for a while..... scarii stuff asweLL heii.. ne waizz yah... theme for da weekkk.......................BE YOURSELF?....................

urmMm.. oOKizz more interesting stufZzzzZzzz... wellL urmZz let me sEeEe tink tink tink u noe u all wann ahear abt guyz???.. haiuhuiaiuahiuahihiuhauia... urmm weLLzz dere isnt much dere... to saii abt guyzz.. except da fact dat im in denial... rite?.. hehehehehe i luv dat word fixes all ma problemZzz... mhuahiauhiuahuiaa... ok between me and u blog.. soOoooOO intooOO ivan itZzz not funni... ok soOo not funnii.. actualli itzz quite funiii.. heeheeheeheeheehee~~ KEKEKEKEKE lOlzZ... hahahha ne waizz yerrrr..<-- love dat word.. yerrrrr soundss kooL hehehe.. ne waizzz yeah... realli realli into him.. but rememba im in "denial".. lOlzZ.. huahiuahuia it realli works u noe im perfectliinormal around him... and i tok to himlike normall it roxXx!!.. i am soOO dayM smArt.. but u noe da funni thing.. i go to skooL and i forget all abt him.. until wen i notice dat im flirting immenslii.. and den i realise heii memba u like.. ivan so don take it soo far wif dis guy?!?!?!.. yerrr~~.... welll datzz all~~
bA bAizZzzZzzZz~~

2004-05-15T00:00:00.000-07:00

hei hei dere seCksiizZ~~

weLL letss se todaizz iz saturdaii and yesterdaii i had pupil free daii so two daizz of guD olD rest at home... stpeh and dem ask me to go watch a movie but nah... didnt feel like it... and plus gotta lay low.. hehehehe.. otherwise ma mommi scunt me agenZz>< ne waizz urmmZz.. oMooDneZz i hav ma flute eistedfod... >.< daYm iTzzZ o weLL if i stuFf uP hu careZz rite?.. >.< ne wAIzz yeah gotta practice LotSs... ne waizZz

weLL i understand da whole situations wif ma fwendZz noW... and itzz kind ain da position where nuthin can be done unless... jus one jus one person takes da chance i mean... da whole thing of apologizz and acceptance rite?... yeah well since one side has apologised,.... maybe itss time for da other side to accept and make up be fwendzz rite?.. weLL datzz da thing da thing dat worriz me iz dat da choice where she can either leave us.. or she accepts our apology... ... man fuk dis... yeah i feel a lil awkward using names but hu givs rite?.. yall noe hu im tokin abtZz... and imma gonna apologise rite here and now... actualli too all da pplz... toe eD, dee , han, chri, anDy, eTC etC etC... Imma soRrii abt maybe sumtimes i havnt.... realli understood wat u guyzz doin rite?.. and maybe i sound like me taking sides or maybe blaming u sumtimes?.. and maybe sumtimes i dsound like im saying ur evil bitches.. or dat your mean and stuffs rite?... yeah me sorriZzz didnt mean toOo.. LUV yOu aLL...oOKoiz.. and tO urMZz dunno if dese pplz read it but juZ incase.. urmm eLYsia mayBE?... i duNo maybe suM finGZ sliP oUt of ma mOUth... hehe notii notii me.. anD lastliii irene my lil i pie ni ni ni ni... urmMZz sorrii for da weirdneszz?.. urmm maybe havnt been tokin to ya much eh? or maybe u tink we bitchin abt yaz and etC.. ... hehe lil irene soOo quiet.. sorrii mateZz but i try reaL hard toOo tok to yAz... soOrriIi if it seeM like me ignoring ya or sumfin... cOZ not lUB yOU.. hehehe aND soRRii to aLL da ppLZ dat hav to liSten to mA stoOPId shiT rambLing on anD on.. ok since i hav apologised .... itd be realli nice if all of ma fwenDzZ accept ma apologiZz..?.. oOKIzz bcoZ luV yoU aLLZz...

oK now i noE.. diS LIl ICE COLD WALL... IZ a pAIn in da Ass fOR evEryONe.. soOo cmoN You guYZz..=D=D tNX for trying ya beST iM mAJor pROud.. oF yOU aLL.. letSs jUS wAItt anD see wAT hAppeNS heiii?... atLEast diD iZ da beST yOU ve trieD anD datZz gUD gUDzZ=D...

OTHER THAN DAT... i tiNK im in a verii happi happi mOod moOd?... yAH?.. hehehe mA lIfe iZ gUD gUdZz... eXcept da weIRdneZz wiF yOU gUYzz.. lIke gIanT bRiCk wAll stAb iN too mehZz?... yAh?... soOoo pAInfuLLLLLLLLL~~~~~~~~~~~~~~>.< welL lUv yAz aLLZz..=D-D wAIt wAIt dere iZ more..

aBTz da gUYS n aLL dat shiT,... eDLyN showeD me REAL EYE OPENER SAME WIF IVAN... yerrr... like deii both like stiLL yOUng wAtss hurrY.. rite?.. and i was tinkin yeah,... maybe jusin it for da fact to saii hav bf?... but nah trust me not dat... dere are actual reasons except soOO embArassingg LolzZz... leT me jUS saii ivAN mAjor kUutIiII lOlzZ>...=P

buA buaiZzZ~~

2004-05-13T04:47:00.000-07:00

hAl;oOOooOoo~~ ma seCKSIZzz~~~

oMgoodneZz i hav jus been tokin to edLYN.. and I HAV EXPRESSED MA FEELINGS IN ACTUAL WORDS.... u noe da whole i actualli do like ivan but am in denial thang... well imma gonna tell u

first of all in my opinion i think dat I still like ivan and since i told ming dat i dont.. i think i like him even more!!!!!!!!... but i sed it coz im putting ma self in fdenial.. bcoz u see.. if im in denial den i wud act maself.. bcoz ifi saii i like him den i wud tryto impress him and not be ma self and be awkward... and den not speak to him and den get awkward... u see and pluss evn if i waz to like another guy.. i flirt wif like bloodii 50 billion of dem soo it cud be ne 1 of dem.....
another bit
OK AND A BIT OF DA CONVO WIF ED...
`•._.•´¯¤"¤ -=v3R5uS_1601=- ¤"¤¯`•._.•´ eVeRtImE i trY tO fLY..i fALL wIthOuT my wingS..i GUeSs i nEeD yOu... says:
why dun u wanna like ivan tho?
`•._.•´¯¤"¤ -=v3R5uS_1601=- ¤"¤¯`•._.•´ eVeRtImE i trY tO fLY..i fALL wIthOuT my wingS..i GUeSs i nEeD yOu... says:
ivanz funNy
+*+ =[bOi YoU LoOk sO sEcKsiii]= +*+ `•._.•´¯¤"¤ -=v3R5uS_7143=- ¤"¤¯`•._.•´ says:
bCoz.... yOu now how degrading it iz jus waiting there for him?
+*+ =[bOi YoU LoOk sO sEcKsiii]= +*+ `•._.•´¯¤"¤ -=v3R5uS_7143=- ¤"¤¯`•._.•´ says:
and itz not like hez eva gonna like me bak..
+*+ =[bOi YoU LoOk sO sEcKsiii]= +*+ `•._.•´¯¤"¤ -=v3R5uS_7143=- ¤"¤¯`•._.•´ says:
and so i will try to be da best i can and den not actualli be ma self..
+*+ =[bOi YoU LoOk sO sEcKsiii]= +*+ `•._.•´¯¤"¤ -=v3R5uS_7143=- ¤"¤¯`•._.•´ says:
and den i get awkward and den i don tok to him as much den i get put off
+*+ =[bOi YoU LoOk sO sEcKsiii]= +*+ `•._.•´¯¤"¤ -=v3R5uS_7143=- ¤"¤¯`•._.•´ says:
SO I AM ALWAIZ GONNA BE IN DENIAL .. so i can be normal around all guyzz... yes yes

dat explains it self dont it??

another
+*+ =[bOi YoU LoOk sO sEcKsiii]= +*+ `•._.•´¯¤"¤ -=v3R5uS_7143=- ¤"¤¯`•._.•´ says:
and plus... wen i do saii dat i do... den like da ppl around u tease you and saii heii hez looking at u and maybe he likes u and... heii u neva noe he mite like u i think u hav a chance
+*+ =[bOi YoU LoOk sO sEcKsiii]= +*+ `•._.•´¯¤"¤ -=v3R5uS_7143=- ¤"¤¯`•._.•´ says:
and den da more u tink heii maybe he likes me or i hav a chance and den da more dissapointed u will become

ok well their u go my lil words of wisdom!!!..... for da sake of liking sum1.. and not becomming upset... i mean yeah sumtimes maybe its fun... to get teased n stuff.. but for me i think id prefer it if i waz in DENIAL!!!!... so think wat u want.. but im alwaizz gonna be in denial and im alwaizz gonna not like ne 1.. instead keep ma options open and jus think heii he wud be a nice guy to go out wif or.. hez a hunky hunky guy.. and if he happens to like me bakk.. DEN I WILL confront everyone and reveal ma feelings n saii dat ilike da guy..=D=D=DXDXDXD... oOok

ok and alsoo... all da chix in da house hu get flattered wen a guy likes dem... raise ya HAND!!!... *raises hand*.. of course unless its sum mutated retard hu iz absolute losa rite?.. but normalii evn if u don like da guy u still get flattered dat deii like u.. well for me ne waizz wen i guy likes me i think datzz real kutte.. although dere wud be no chance for him at all for me to go out wif him unless i liked him enuf.. bcOz like yeah i don go out wif jus random guyzz.. man if i did.. i wud hav gone out wif sum realli bad pplz...>< NE WAIZZZZ!!!!!!!... yeah but i askd around n stuff.. but apparantlii guys arent flattered... deii dont care... like hellloo WTF?.. do da chic feelingzz realli dont count that much unless deii r liked by da guy or extremeliii hot!!?.. now to me dat jus sounds like guyzARE FAGS!!!!!!!!!!!>.. and trust me wen i get a bf he will definatleii be a S.N.A.G!...(sensitive new age guy)...

also another feeling at skool wif da guyzz i feel like waiii up dere.. and den i tok wif ma other guy fwendZz.. and i jus feel like shit!!!!... URGH!!!.. wat retards... deii piss me off!!!!..... datzz y i WILLL TRY EXTREMELII HARD WIF ALL DA POWER INVESTED IN ME..<-- lOlzZ funnii.. to not lik anyone from applecross coz i will be immenslii dissapointed.. and depressed.. man y cant ne asian guyz come ot ma skool ... well decent ones.. ne waizz URGH!! datzz abt all ... LUV YOU ALL
ba baizZz~~

2004-05-12T06:50:00.000-07:00

hei hei seCKsiZz~~

OMFG!!!... lIke i thoT u PeoPLz ALREADIII HAV D WRONG IDEA OF MA BLOG...farkIN heLL.. i dont mean dat you all fukked in da head LITERALLI... did u not se eme laugh?.. heLLO?!?!? wat im trying to saii iz i don evn noe watz goin on ne more... datz how hectic da situation iz.. i cant follow where everyone iz goin and y?.. yeah maybe i wrote ma last blog a lil weird but those words jus came out so i wrote it down.. jeese and alreadiii PEOPLE THINK IM TAKING SIDES!?!?!?!.. how manii farkin timezz do i hav to tell u im noton sides.. AND IM NOT CRITICISING NE 1 EITHER... COZ IM JUST AS BAD AS DEM.. IM NO HYPACRIT!!!!!!!!!! yes well now datz sorted.. don farkin think dat im on ne 1 sides or calling you guys bad names or ne thing.. bcoz wateva ur doing im doin jus da same... so if da situation is screwed... DEN IM SCREWED TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO... OK?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?.... *siGH*.. man i need to go to ma skoOL.. tokto yaz laterzz=.="""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
ba baiZzz~~

2004-05-12T02:41:00.000-07:00

suP mA seCKSIIZz~~

weLL lets see nuthin much realli happens in ma life.. i mean da usual go to skool laugh like wacko half the time muck aroun walk around gossip makes jOKes n stuFfZz.. and tok abt a whOLe lOt of FLIRTANG?!?!... hauihaiuihua fUN aZ~~... ne waizz well i kinda been thinkin abt dat rite.. and i waz thot u noe dat saying it doesnt matta howmuch money u hav u can be happi rite?.. and no matta how rich you are u can stiLL be miserable and all dat shit i used to be major against dat.. u noe like i mean in dis world cmon BULLSHIT... if u had a shit load of money people will come suk up tO ur ass like a PERMANANT HICKEY!!.. (by da waii ma teacher had a hickey on her neck todaizz LOL we gave her soo much shit huihaihuia) ne waizz bak to da subject.. yeah well as i sed i hav a different waii of thinkin i guess... i mean if i waz majorlii rich like bill gates.. but da whole azn population haed me i wud be IMMENSLIII DEPRESSED... yeah and like i guess if ma fwendzz hated me.. i guess i wud be prettii upset to.. and u wudnt be able to trust da new fwendzz u get bcoz maybe deii usin u or sumfin but i don think no iz dat eviL.. but newaizz yeah i mean i guess u cud be upset evn if u were a daym fuarkin rich cunt!!.. ahiuahiuahiuuhai

i also realise how LUCKY?!?!?! i am maybe?.. coZ like i mean here i am in ma owN lil world awaii from ma other fwendZz... wif ma skoOL fwendZz jus enjoiinG ma lIfe.. cOZ i mean i lUuurvVv tO see ma fwendZz at skoOL.. i hav da beST dayM farkIN fun Time.. and i think da best thing abt it iZ like different pplz different experience rite?.. and plus itz a whole different place that i can jus chill wid?.. anD PLus.. popularity as everyonenoeZz can make you rlife an immense bit bETTER!!.... ahuiahiuuiahu aNd im jus like whack half da time.. and den u come homeand hear about how ma fwendZz jus hav da shittiest time at skoool.. u wud think dat bcoz deii wud hav more fun but deii jus hate each other evn more?.. and itzz evn less fuUnn.. i mean like WTF?.. r u pplz doiNZz.. i mean if i had da option of staying in an isolated skool like wbc or goin appex wif ma closest buddizz.. i wud try hav da bestest time eva.. and cherish every moment dat i can spend wif ma fwendZz.. iTz dat iMPOrtant.. and if ne of ma close fwendZz were to turn dere bakZz on me i wud be hiGHLy FUKKED UP IN DA HEAD.... huaihau weLL BY DA WAII MEMBA NO NAMESS.. well as i hear.. maybe sum of ma fwendZz takin irene thang a bit far?... i mean yeah can understand opinions rite?.. and u cant change da free will of what pplz think abt each other.. but yeah ma fwendZz also saii dat if it went to da extent dat she wud leave deii wud try immenslii to fix it?.. and den i ask dem all dere opinins of y deii dislike her or if shezz annoying BUT IT ALL DOESNT MAKE SENSE,,.. i mean yeah fun bitching abt it and all rite?.. but we are all doing it for da wrong reasons?.. maybe if deii had a real suitable reason.. and if it AFFECTED dem immmenslii mite be alrite.. but let me jus saii DIS IZ FUKKED AND Y ALL NOW IT... i mean i wanna be fwendZz wif all ma closest fwendZz SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE I CANT SHARE MA OPINION CO ZIT MITE SOUND LIKE IM TAKIN SIDES.. or dissing dem.. and den obviouslii dat wud cause a wall of ice rite?.. and DIS IZ DIRECTED TO ALL MA FWENDzZ.. YEAH U PPLZ READING IT.... i LOVE MA FWENDZZZ ALL .. yeah datzz rite wif da letteres L-O-V-E... dayM straighT.. and i wudnt take sides and i wudnt wanna hav fights wif ne 1.. BUT if i seem like i am ITZ ONLI COZ I STILL WANNA BE FWENDzZ WIF ALL OF YOU.. not just a few... yeah bitching iZ ok rite?.. but jus pushing it sooo far iz not... id saii... YOUR ALL FUKKED IN DA HEAD.. hahaiuhaiuhauhaihaiuhaiuaiuiuauiaiuahiuahuiahiuauahiuhauhiau.. (im not crazii) trust me yaLL shud see it from ma point of view.. yall running around like chickens wifout heads.. DAYM FUKIN CRAZIII?.. and i am saying everyone of ma fwendZz.. not jus a few or dat person EVERYONEZ!!... man dis shit neeDs to be fixed.. yeah i noe i saii some nastii shit tooZz sumtimes.. all for da fun of it.. and i maii DIS dat person EG. da msgS.. hehe yeah but datzz coz i actualli hate dat.. dat annoying lil cute thang yeah dat i hate it datz y i diss it.. doesnt exacltii mean i am dissing da person.. jus da waii she speaks huiahuaihua.. but yeah LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!... and figure dis shit out plZ?... or else y all FUKKED!!.. memba bec LUVA YA!!
ba baiZzzZ~~

2004-05-10T07:24:00.000-07:00

hALoO~~

weLL dere are a few thingz i hav to clear up abt ma last blog.. ok first of all i may not like ivan in dat waii but he iz still a TOTAL BABE!!!.. heheheh yeah hottie.. and i think immakin to much out of dis whole josh thing lets forget it.. and jus stik to flirting and havin fun.. ookiz?.. heheh gUD guDzz
bA bAiZz

2004-05-10T01:22:00.000-07:00

hei hei dere seCksiizZ~~

weLL u seE yesterdaii i wrote all ma thots an dboth got deleted hehe fresh new start den...=D=D

weLL todaizz waz mondaiii wen to skooL.. had heaps of fun... man ma skool likeprimary skooL hehehe..,. ne waizz urmm sam tryin to hook me and joSH up =.=""... he keeps asking us wen we togethaz... and den yeah.. man deii make such big fuSs... i waZ cuddling wif joSh in his art class.. and sam asked us y don u jus go out alreadi?.. and den we both jus like speeechleZz.. and den his art teacher came in so i left.. to go to my artclass jus next door... (sam and josh cuZ and sam michael and josh like DA BOMB..most popular of ma skoOL).. anD so zOe saM anD micHaeL.. kepT toOKkINg to mE alLL daii askin if i wud actualli go out wif him.. and if i liekd him n dat stuFzz.. anD i wAz speeChleZz aND i thOT to ma seLF.. hOw com i cant say ne thing?.. coZ like itZ not technicalii dat i like him or nething... jus havin sum fun rite?=D..

ne waizz yesterdaii i waz sayin dat dere waz a guy in ma head.. and i waz tinkin abt him quite alot... and i thot heii weird as.. but den i thot abt "DA CYCLE" u sEe i alwaizz go through a cycle.1 u notice dem 2 u think"I LIKE HIM" 3. u cant be ureself bcoz of da stoopid fact u like him (must impress?).. and den 4. u get bored bcoz u don tok as much.. and den 5. u stop liking him.. and so since like i waz onli noticing him.. i HAVE TO stop maself from liking him so dat i wont go weird around him.. and dat i can jus hav sum fun?.. heheh yeah... anD yeah dere waz dat guy.. todaii i wasnt realli thinking abt him.. prob bcoz i waz at skool and yeah.. having lotsa fuN;P.. if ya noe wat i mean?.. man and jordan and aaron had dere.. rocK band practice soOo i walked hOme wIF da others till da round about and den walk ba ma selfZz><.. huiahiuahuai. and urmMMZz wat else well i cant realli memba wat i wrote yesterdaii ne mroeZz.. daYm..
BY DA WAII NO MORE METAPHORICAL NAMES EVERYTHING GETS REVEALED.. not like ne thing ot see

thE htinG iZ everything iZ muCkyy.,,, u seee i don like ivan n emore and itZ bcoz itz soo awkward coz me n ivan don realii tok ne mroe.. and on mingzz bdaii he otkked to me a few timess i was shokked coz he was actualli tokkking to me like normal.. and i jus thot dis aint gonna work if i feel awkward tokking to him.. i mean usualli wen i flirt wif pplz we tok for ages n ages.. and we hav heaps of fun.. buti cant even hav a stoopid converstion wif himZz.. so yeahi don.. and yeahi don think i like ne 1 at dis point itz jus dat i flirt alot... wif alot of pplzz.. and yeah i hav fun.. no harm done.. well i tink datzz abt all...WAIT MINGZ BDAII WAAS DA BEST I HAD DA BEST TIME MAN.. HELLA FARKIN FUNIII ... we wills see how tomro goEs.~~~
bA bAizzZz

2004-05-05T07:17:00.000-07:00

hAlooO~~
weLLi noticed latelii dat pplz don realli write in dere blogz ne more i guess dat since we start skool not much happens.. but well i willl try ma best to make dis interesting yah?... oOok weLLzz

LAST NIGHT!!.. i hAd DA WORST dream well not da worst but.. no actualli it was prettii bad.. it waz daYm riTe fArKin weird.,.. ok so heZ da story.. u noe how itz mingz bdaii well it waz my bdaii instead and we were alll going to edlyns house... we were jus gonna meet dere and go sumwhere... but it wasnt edz exact house like it was totalii different and it waz surrounded by a brown brik wall and it had a white fence and i was walking towards the white fence to enter da house wen edlyn standing outside behind me sed WATCH OUT HERE DEII COME DA YR 11z.. and den like pendy and henry came jumping out and deii were all dressed in like skater guYZ clothingg.. and den like deii had heaps of fwendzz dere aswell dat ive neva seen b4 but deii were prettii hot.. and i rememba one guy was aussie and another waz wearing all blak but ne waizz.. deii were all running down da street and den we were all running down da street to dis loval park where it had a plaii ground and a tennis/bball court kinda thang next to it but it also had like a wall inbetween wif windows on da top ne waizz.. we were all running dere... and we were all jus mukin aroun don da plaiiground n stuffzz.. and den i went up on da lil bridge thingy.. and *waLker* wAz comming up dose lil chain ladder thingyz rite.. and we ended up meeting at da same place.. and den i ended up starting to tok to him.. and we started holding hands.. u noe and touching each others hands n dat touchy feellii stuff rites.. and den i asked him a question i forget wat it waz.. but den he started saying.. dat he cant be with me.. and den i asked y.. and he sed dat me and him dont make sense but him.. and he sed for example dis chik CALLED KRYSTAL?.. (hu da fuk iz dat).. but ne waizz hez like u see me n krystall make sense we match.. but u and me jus cant be togetha.. and den he let go of ma hands and went to ming at da bball courts... i was IMMENSLIII.. upset.. and dat just ruined it all.. ok.. and den we all went on da bball courts to plaii sum game like dodge ball or sumfin and dere were all dese huge HOT!! yr 11 guyZ.. and den out lil group.. and while deii were running around playing.. i waz still realli upset so i jus sat and leaned against da greent netting of da courts and i started to cry..... and jamie walks up to me and says heii bec wats wrong y u so upset rite.. and den i told her n all she did was like ooo.. o weLL cheer up and she wen on wif da game.. (itz ma bdaii and no 1 givs a fuk?).. and den dis guyz dressed in skater stuffz.. comez up to me an dgives me da ball.. and den i through it and it got stuk inbetween da window.. and it popped.. and den everyone realised how upset i was and walked to me but *waLker* knew and jus walked awaii.... and i just watched him.. FUK MAN AND DEN I WOKE UP... dayM farkIn scariii... soOo maybe i take it as a signe to bal off maybe or.. dat mite be true..? welll datzz all
bA bAIzZz~~

2004-05-03T01:40:00.000-07:00

hAliOooOo~~
weLL letss see i havnt blogged in a while coz lik eyeah not much happenz or is on ma mind... weLL ive been goin to skool da first week jus flew buy... and on sat went to winthrop hang wif ma fwendzz..=D=D

newaizz skooL iZ kooL i mean da skooL worK iz piss easii and all i do ne waizz iz walk around tok to ma fwendZz.. hehe ma fwend terry he sed to me todaii beckIii i NEva see yOU do ne woRk hUIAhiUAha soOo tru MAn.. hehehehe.. yeah skooL prettii gUD foR me..hehehe mAN ivE got dAncing toMoro yAy..=D hehe we started jazz dancing dis term.. mAUIHIUAHiua aND netball.. jOrdAn iZ soOo dayM kooL hAUIAHuA ne wAIzz

sAt wAz dayM riite kOoL hAD lUnch wiF meL stAyed AT bbALL for aGEs.. OMGOODneZZ u hAv no idEA hOw guD it wAz toOO sEe *wALkeR* hE iZ soOo dayM adOraBLe.. haUIhiiuah anD yeAH i got to sEe all mA chikKa bEezZ.. heheh MA lOvElliii gFzZ oMgoodNEzz i wANna sEe *wALker*.. hEheh n i saw ray siNce a LonG lOng tiMe.. cant belIEve hE remembEreD mE..XD hehe kuUtiE.. ne wAizz iTz chOKz bdaii soOn huAIhiUA mAN woNDer hOW tHAt LL turN outZ.. OMGOODNEzZ i hAv no idEa wAt to weAr...>.< heh welL i cant think of ne thang else to write..

i duNNo wHY pplZ don lIke skoOl i MeAn i doN lovE it buT i tiNk pretti fuN..=D=D hAv fuN fun Fun..=D wiF all mA fwendZz.. hEhehehheh
bA bAizZz

2004-04-30T07:25:00.000-07:00

HEi hEi dErEZz~~~
weLL letss see nuthin excitin realli todaii fridaii.. hUIAhiuauiahua weLL weeKenD so goin back to winthROp.. to viSi dA ppLZ.. urmMZ weLL i wAz jUS lAYiNg doWN oN mA beD.. listEniNg to mOosiC.. anD ne wAIz dA thot of mA fWenDzz cAMe uP da diffEreNcE betweeN dEm.. anD yeAh...

weLL aNd.. i thot abt it and i actualli don mind goin CVC weLL to ME i thiNK dAt MA skoOL fWenDz r pretti kOoL bcOz i meAN... anD by da wAii im toKIn abt shALLownEzz n stufF oOKiz abT da gUYZz.. hHheheh i NOE i doNt noe mA APpeX guYZ vErii weLL buT heii yeah.. but still dEii reALLI fuNNIz.. i meAN mA skoOL guy fWenDz... eVen if iTZ me.. riite LikE i thiNK i gET noticEd more AT mA skoOL aS a giRL.. iF u noE wAT i meAN.. like obviouslii im a girl but like appex guyZz treat me like urMmm ewwww kindA wAii?.. u jUS get dAt feeLinG.. but ma skool da guyz treat u realli sweet and iTZ funNi n kUUte... and i can tell u da guyz at ma skool r super super super SUPER UNSHALLOW... where as da appex dudes jus URGH... anoy u doesnt it.. urGH i doNt noe hOW to pUt it IN mA blOG eXcEPt dAt.. yeAH not aLL guyZ r shALLLooW n hArdcOre.. yoU cNA ActuALLIi fiND thOSe reALLI swEet oNEZz.. an Du jUS gottA noe wHErE to lOok.. anD suMtimeZ i goTTA thiNK aM i shALLow?.. aM i not goiN out wiF ppLZ jus BcoZ deii arenT AzN.. or tALL .. or tHAt tyPIcAL hANsoME aZn u wANt yOUr bF to be?.. weird diZ.. thiNk abT iTzz
bA bIAzZz~~

2004-04-29T06:39:00.000-07:00

hei hei~~
weLL cuDNt tok FoR a few daiiZz.. coZ lIke yeah pPLz usE da comP or stUffZz.. ne wAIzz i aM siCk..=.="" hehehe but i am guD giRL an itz gettin betTaZ... hhuAIhiuAhuia.. anD yeah oN dat goOTTa go piK uP mA fonE fRom dEe.. hEehEe~~ ne wAIzz..

skOoL wAz oOkiz.. i mAdE a bEt wiF mAtt dAt fAt bAStARd ... lOLZzZ heeheh iM boUnd to gEt mOney... o yeAH..=P ne wAizz u nOE ive noticEd sincE i hAvNt sEen mA fWenDZz aT apPeX i hAv lEsS to wriTe hHEhe mAYbe coZ dA tHinGZ at skoOL not iMPortANt.. AUIhIAUhiuahiua...

weLL mA dAD hAS goNe bAk to woRk so lIke hEZ not heRe... soO i GueSs pretII lAid bAk.. skoOLzZ annoYing.. soOoOo eArliii.. uRmZz miSsiN mA fWeNDZz aLreADii>.<

u NOe mE reALli in A jAY choU mood..*sigH* hEZ soOo kooLZ.. soOo hehe no wordZz to dEscriBE hIS chArISma... o bY da wAIi mAtt n stEph n shAne kEPt mAKin chiNKi jkZ aLL daii mAn mAtt lOok lIke A dayM retRd... but heii deii still dissin ma Azn chiNKiz.. man..!! maN i wANnA sEe mA azn buddiZ.. i aLso kInda wANnA get to noe other azn buddiz to.. u noe ones dat ma fwendZz don alreadii noe.. heii?.. *sigh* weLL i tinK datZz a bout all i mean life aint dat exciting rite now wif skooL n evErythiNg.. so yeah
bA bAiZz~~

2004-04-27T01:53:00.000-07:00

hAlLiOoOoooO~~
weLL letss see i started ma verii first daii of term todaizz...=D=D u noe seeing ma fwendz n all waz great.. but da skool work waz daym riite stoopid and boring.. i also tink i cud be getting sik>.< agenZz. hehehe.. u noe as usual go around hugging ma fwendZz all daizz.. hehehe ma guy fwendZz soOo kuUte lOlzZ.. and taryin brang in dis new girl her fwendzz from chorpus christi.. and yeah.. i heard realli cwap newz from steph todaizz abt wat zoe sed.. abt da groups n all daym im pissed at dat.. but o wellzz..

uRmMmzzZ thoTZ thoTZ thoTzz.... lEtZz.. sEe not manii todaizz i guess.. MISS MA FWENDzZ IN APPEX ALREADII...='( urmMZz.. toLd eDlyN suM stuFFzz dAT i foRgot Abt fOR ages.. heii weirdd dat.. i didnt tell ne 1.. i shud hav been real flattered rite?... weird old me.. ne waizz.. hRmMm woW not mani thotZz todaiZz i guess u noe spent ma time at skoOl.. heehhe maybe blog laterZz~~
bA bAiZZz~~

2004-04-25T21:05:00.000-07:00

hALooOo~~...

daYm iT y evErythAng hav to be soOo dayM hArd.. OK suMtiMEz i thiNK i doNt wANt thoSe nAmes their but yeahtheii hav to be dere.. but since some pplz hav ideaz of hu theii r u noe itz real hard but i guess keepingit secrets doesnt realli make ppLz sure hu it iz and hu it cud be... rite?.. i Jus read sumfin REAL EYE OPENER.. i noe i sed at dastart dat itz da thingz AROUND!! *bLadE* dat make me... fUStrAted.. oK fROm reADing thiNGZ.. iVe put ThiNgZz togethA sortA.... anD i thiNk.. URGH!! i duNNO.. i kiNda wAnnA hAv aN oPen toK.. u NOe LIKE EVERYONE except da guyz.. and jus saii to hueva everything we wanna saii.. anD i NOE i saii Alot of StuFfZ aBT *bLAdE* dat maKE it SeeM LiKE i hATe *bLadE* but LIKe i sEd THINNGS AROUND... aND yeAH i doN reALLi LiKE it weN ppLZ r sAd or.. LEft out... cOZ i meAN i NOe i wuDnt wANNA be dA oNE to BE lAEft oUt or to BE hAted by soME 1.. i cAN tell yA dAtTZ... i tinK datZz alL i cAN saii wiThoUt reveALIng to MUch rite?
bA bAIzZz~~

2004-04-25T20:04:00.000-07:00

hAloOOo~~..
OK FOR DA SAKE OF EDLYN.. da bit abt *waLker* n *bLadE*.. i wrote dat bit jUZ to saii dat.. u see ma waii of thinkin b4 waz wateva *waLker* diD wif other PpLZ.. didnt matta as long as *waLker* stiLL tokked to me da same as *waLker* alwAizZz diD.. which *wALker* doEZz... rite?.. buTtt iM sayINg for sum reason dat time wen i heard dat situation i got sooo daym annoid and fustrated.. like BAM!! in da back of ma head it hit.. and obviouslii wen u get hit buy a BASKETBALL in da back of da head u get annoid..

weLL lets see mondaii morning lots to do.. cHeh like im gonna do ne thang.. oMgoodNEZz im so screwed... i hav soo much work due for skool daym it... some due like last term?... i hope deii hav a gud reaction..eh? den agen dere are worst pplz den me rite.. mHAuiAHIUa

NEWAIZZ ENUF ABT SKOOL!! ooKIz.. weLL itZ a mondaii morning.. i woke up to the awful AWFUL ear aching sound of gayd gayd SIS-TA(hopefulli adopted) hehehe JKZ.. urmmzz i slept late last night i waz in one of those moods for an all nighter camp out?.. aND soOo u Noe.. did ne think i cud find n stuffzz... also wen i REALLI REALLI had nuthin to dooo.. i jus laid dere listening to moOosic.. and thinking abt... STUFF!! weLL i cant rememba all dat stuff to wellZz..

O ONE THING.. dis morning wen i woke up.. i hAD a dream and dat "SUM1" waz in it agen... soOo diS like wat da 3rd time?... so if irenez theory iz true man den... im screwed as.. lOlzZz but like i didnt noe dat in da first place... *siGH*...

o and yesterdaii i waz thinking.. abT Y soMe guyZ reAct to pHysicAl actioNz diffferent to otherz.. rite?.. and to me like ma "guy" fwendzz deii act all tryhard P.I.M.P and koOL.. and hiP hOP r&b stuffz rite.. if deii so P.I.M.P y deii sooOo shy?... welL not shy as in.. like speaking wise.. and contributing to da group .. but i mean if deii get hugged... oR iF u accIdentlii touCh their hAnd?.. oR suMfinZz.. i meann yeah deii can tok abt their DICK SIZES!! freelliii.. but as a fact deii daym shy straight out... wat weirdozz heii.. i mean deii got sumfin to think abtzz.. deii tok abt hot girlz n shit riite?.. yeah well if one of those girlzz actualli came up to them and started to hold hands n touchy feely stuffz riite?.. will deii actualli be thinking.. wholey mutha fukka imma get luki?.. (as their reputation goes).. or will theii truthfulli be thinking shit wat do i do?.wat do i do?.. kinda thang?... i mean... wen i give hugzz.. deii get realli awkward and deii alwaizz end up pulling awaii first.. i dunno mayb itz juz coz itz me.. and maybe if it waz.. *bLade*.. theii wud be clinging on to her like a giant KOALA!!.. or if *bLadE* did giv out free hugzz.. wud deii tink shit.. wtf ARGH!! wah~~ wat she doin(bu tinkin i must look kool?).. iTZ hard to tell ... but i can tell ya practice makes perfect.. lOlzZz~~ hehe juS for da record MinG.. givEs da best hUuGzzZ lOlzZz~~.. da otherZ aint dat proOo~~ compared to him eh? eh? huAhiUAhiua.... maybe dis has all got to do wif maturity perhaps?.. hehehe i duNNoz... but im tellin ya itz weirD.. hOW can soMe guyZ be soOO kOoL wif it.. bothErZ r jUS dayM stiFf iScLEs...?.. eveN Mr.. weEee chIn da 1 person hu i thot wud be ok wif it.. heheh obviouslii i waz wrong coz i can tell ya.. wen dat lil panik light comes on in his head.. he pULLz awaii lOlzZ.. aND plUz maybe coz those dudeZ make suCh a fuSs ovA LiL thiNgzz... like wat girls n guyz arent allowed to hav private conversations?... i mean for all theii noe i cud be tokin abt maybe ANOTHER GUY?.. helOoOOo.. heheheh dat jus reminds me of LiL roLand hidiNg bEhind da BUSh.... whiSperinG to cHErAn.. wAt weIrdoZ.. thEii obviOusLii noT dat mAture...>.< LoLZzZ~~.. deii LIKE LiL giRlZ( hEehEe LoOK deiii Are tokin tO eAch othEr oOoOOooOOoo~~).. LoLZzZ~~..

YoU nOE i thinK da MOre i heAr abT *bLadE* frOm *wALker* da MOre i wUDnt LIkE *bLadE*.. but AtleASt dA more i wuDnt Like ivAN eithEr.. soOOo hrMmm wAtz betA? iZziT beta.. toOo not like either of dem... and den end up likeing *bLadE* aGen OR.. jUS foRget ABt it.. buT hav daT suMitimEs *bLadE* iZ ok suMtiMEs*bLAdE* iZ annoYiNg?.. feELinG aLso LIKing a gUY dat wuDnt eVA LIKE me bAk.. whiCh wuD tAke mE throUgh da dEpreSsivE pHAse agEn?.. woW deii bOtH seEm prettIbAD hUh?.. DAYM thOSe to Are trickY~~~~.. o weLLzzZ mAyBE or hOPefuLLi suMFin wiLL chANge riite?.. bCoZ both those decidionz look pretti eEekkiii to Me... weLL i tinK datz abT aLLzz
bA bAIZZZZ~~~

2004-04-25T04:39:00.000-07:00

hALooOO~~
weLL lEtZ stARt wiF summArii of dAIi?.. wenT to CHuRCh.. cMA ebAk hOme.. stAii iN mA roOm.. wATcHEd dA soccEr MAN U LOST... pOor pOOr jAmiE.. anD dEn wEnt oN Da NEt...ne waizz.. mE fEelINg kIndA uPbeATss todAIzz..=D=D=D

mY tHOtZz.. u noe todAIzZz i hAD a reAL stRongnEZz thoT abT pAtiEncE.. wEn u tiNK abT iT iM reAl iMPAtiEnt lOlZz.. weLL ne wAIzz dAt boRiNg soOo leTZ skIP dAt...

weLL iM alreADii miSsinG mA fWeNDdzZz....=(

wOw i reALLi duNNo wAT to sAIi ... sO i M gonNA siT heRe fOR a reAL lOng tiME........*15 miNZ lAter*

oOokz wAt cAMe to mA mINd aLot.. wAz~~ weLL diS reAL personAL ooOKIz ppLZ?.. weLL ne wAIzz mY pErSOnaL apPeArANcE.. weLL i NOE dAt AppEarAncE aint evErythAng rite.. aS soOo pPLZ saii.. i meAn yeAH yOu sEe.. noT dAt greAT lOoKinG ppLZ wiF bOI fWenDzZ aND deii r hAPpi n shIt.. buT reALLi dA uglii ppLZ hU saII deii r hAppi wiF.. weLL nE thiNG reALli cUD be weiGHt.. eyEs.. fAcE.. boDii ne thANg iZ a Load oF cwApzzZz.. dA pPlz daT r uglIi proBAbLii nOE dEii r.. anD deII fEeL reAllI bAD inSIdE.. buT wAnnA bE stRong anD doN wAN pPLZ to diS dEm.. soOo deii sAii dEii r hAPpi as thEIi r... i meAN yeAH dErE r dA rAre PPLz.. hU r actuAlii hAPpi.. riite.. buti noe dat i get reAL coNcErnEd abOut mA apPearANcE.. weLL noT conCerNEd LiKE uRmMmm.. seLf conSciOUS.. i DUNNO suMfin La dAtz nEwAIzz.. sumtiMEZ i DOnT reALiZe.. hOw cAreLEZz i Am.. u Noe wAT i meAN.. LiKe hOW stoOpiD cAN u gEt tO fORgEt AbouT uR appeArANcE?.... newAIzz off diS suBjeCt.. wait wait.. alSo weN iM wiF mA oUTsidE skoOL fWeNDZz i alwAIzz fEeL noT soO greAT ABt mA sELf.. i duNno LiKE i hAV greAT tiME n aLL buT i doN fEeL greAT Abt mA seLF phYSicAlli?.. i duNNo.. anD dEn weN i aM in skooL.. i fEeL greAT i meAN mA fWenDzz at SkoOL.. i doN thiNK dEii undErSTand but i hav pplz GivinG me compLImenTZ alL da tiME.. anD dEii r realli fwendlii buT DAYM ouTTA dErE own mINdZz...*sigh*

ne waiZz i tHInk iM hAvIN sEcoNd thoTZ abT da WhoLE *wALkeR* anD *earrINgZz* idEA... mAybE *smooTHie* wAz riite weLL ne wAIz...

oOk i jUS rememBerEd suMfin i wANted to saii lAsT NIghT.. weLL i wAz tokIn riite.. tO *waLker*.. aND yeah i Noe i sEd iT doN mAttA.. buuUttTT.. i wAz tokIn nE wAIzZz anD i asKEd wAT *waLkeR* doiN... aNd dAt vErriiii spEc oF a mOMenT.. weN thOSe 4!! woRDzz cAMe toPPLiNg doWn anD craShiNg iNto mA skY breAKiNg thuNdEr... i fELt pISsEd.. dAYM riite.. thoSe three woRdsZz " * BLaDe* IZ HELPING ME...." dAt fELt LiKE suM1 jUS hIT mE at dA bAK of mA heAD wiF a giAnt BASKETBALL!!... sEe mA moOd wenT fRom DAYM HAPIII ... toOo FUKIN GAYD.. AND ALL HELL BROKE LOSE(u nOE weN u breAThe reAlli heAVilii Like iF da perSoN wAz dErE yOUd actuALii bASh dA fuK outtA em?) ... i NOE i NoE i kEeP teLLing mA sElf dAt iT doEsnT mAttA anD daT iTZ nUthiN.. BUT U CANT HELP IT... i mean seriouslii y izzit.. dat *BLADE* iZ alwAiZz dA oNE dAt gETZ mEntioNeD anD i geT annOId from IT?.. HEII?!?! aND y iZziT dAT.. weN *BLADE* iZ dErE.. jUS mAKeZ yA fEeL LIKE A GHOST?.. nO oNe cAN sEe yOu.. HEII?!?!... Y IzZIt Dat WEn *BLADE* IZ dErE.. MA SKY ALWAIZZ TURNZ FROM PRETTI SKY BLUE WIF NO CLOUDS... TO DARK N GLOOMY THUNDER CRASHING LIGHTNING FLASHING PIECE OF FUKIN CRAP?.... I SERIOUSLIII DONT GET IT... aND foR dA fAcT iTZ noT coZ dAt oNE incidENt hAPpEnEd.. itZ dA fACT oF ALWAIZZZZZ~~ buT tHIs tiME no oNE cAN sAIiii jUZ BCOZ... weneva i think sumfin bad... dere iz alwaizz a JUZ BCOZ... dat makes me think agen and think OTHERWISE... im telling u ... dis time dere iz no JUZ BCOZ... OR NOT DERE FAULT... weLL newaiZz oFf dAT subJect~~

Oo anOTher thinG dat wAz oN mA mINd yeSTerdaii.. u nOE dA whOLe *SmooThie* thANg.. anD da *gReEn leAf* i meAN noo offenCe to *smooThie* buT yeAH noT dat greAtz.. aND soOo suMTiMEZz i thiNK appeArANcE hAS a bIG pArT of gettiNg a guYZ attEntion I MEAN DUH!! riite?.. buT i meAN suMTImEZ i thiNK moSt guRLz dAt r jUSt sLim.... cuD gEt ne 1 deii wANted riteZz?.. i meAn deii doN evN hAV to hAV pretTi fAcE or hAV guD boDii.. iM sayiN diS froM OBSERVATION PPLZ...!!

weLL aLso i dont reALii miNd noT hAvin an ArchivE coZ i meAN diS iZ alll jUS to eXpreSs wat im thiNkin to othERZ riite?.. yeAH don neEd reCoRD jUZ make mE MAD!!... HehEH

AND U NOE WAT?... iM feeLing kInda MAD!!! mAD at *wALker*.. mAn dAT ARGH!! i donT NOe... *wALKer* jUS annoYiNg me lAtelii.. i thiNK i neEd to ActuALii sEe *wALkeR*.. mAybE dAT wuD mAKe ME noT soOo mAd... coZ uNOE a remIndEr oR suMFinZz... ne wAIzz tinK datZ abt AllZ todaiZz..
bA bAIzZZzzZzzZz~~

2004-04-24T08:30:00.000-07:00

hALoOOoo~~
weLL todAIzz i hAd a wATerbOMb fiGHt wiF mA fwEndZz aT dA priMARy skooL.. fIrst wenT to gO gEt bbT anD dEN weN wE weNT to gO to dA skOoL.. ivAN mINg anDy an DroLAnd hAD alreAdii stARted toOo mAKe wATerbOMbz aND chuK dEm...>.< aND so dEn iT toOK a whiLE to gEt stArted buT we Den hAD dA fiGHt.. u nOE iT wAz fuN n stuFz.. aND dEn.. we StoPPed foR a lIl breAK i GUesSs u nOE to dRy uP.. buT dEN weEchiN aND saM cAMe.. aND dEN we stARteD to fiGht AGen.. weLL chrI irEne eD n MEL dEe jUS saT dErE in A lIL hUddLE.. whiLe mE jAY n hAn.. hAD anothEr wAterfiGHt wiD chOK ivAN roLAnd chi sAm.. aND o yeH elYsiA... BY DA WAII NEW NAMES!!

soO funni thoUGh.. weN * wheelchair * cAMe.. da white thinG wAz uP.. anD aNDy wAz LIke wAH~~ dA KKK.. LoLXx.. anD dA gUYz weRe aLL LIke aWww mAN... soOo ANnoYiNg y dA fuK.. bLAh bLAh bLAH.. i GUeSs i dONt eXcEptioNalli hAte * wheelchair*... i meAN doN hanG ouT wiF * wheelchair* aLL dAT LOtZz.. soOo don reALii cAre.. buT on DA suBjeCT of diSliKing..

OK uRmMM...* LighTninG* weLL i gUESs.. *lightning* kInda bRoke dA hAPpIneZz oUt of StuFfZz.. i meAn * mIcRowavE* wAnt vErri gUD bY dA enD.. i thOT iT miGHt hAV bEen cOZ shE thOt we ditCheD *micRowAve* buT iT wAsNT... iT wAz coZ *lightning* iZ jUS daii *lighTniNg* iZ.. whOA .. yeAH anD stuFfZz..

alSo oN dA suBjeCt *wALkeR*... weLL uRmMZz let ME jUS saiii.. dAt todAiiZ waz kiNdA iNtErEstiNG to sEe i meAN yeSterdAIi obviOUSli i kIndA goT dA imPreSsiON dAt *wALker* kIndA hAD a thiNG foR a mYSteriOUs LiL oNe.. aT dA wATerfiGHt i thoT u nOE mAYbE itZ.. * EarRiNGz* buT dEn * sMOOthIE* thOt u NOE mAyBE iTZ *liGhtnINg*.. weLL u NOe i acTuaLLi diDnt reALLI cAre i guEsS.. buT u cAnt heLp thiNK.. evErytiME * wALkeR* menTioNz.. *LiGhtnINg*.. u NoE.. suMfIN suSpiciOUS.. anD i NOE i sAii i doN reALLi cAre... whiCh i doNt aS lOng AS * wALkeR iZ da sAme... dEn a u nOE uRgh i duNO.. i duN eVn nO)E wAt iM fuSsin AbtZzz...

i jUS feEL lIke tellINg evErythiNG i NOE to evEryONE jUS eXPLodE... totALiii ... mA mIND iZ fiLLed wiF sOOOo mUCh daymIt....>.< wTF iZ wronG wif MEzZz...

uRgH a bLog UR suPPOsed tO wriTe eVErythiNG oN ur mINd.. hOW Am i SupPOsed to WRite evErythiNG iZ evEryONe dAt iZnt suPPOseD to NOe cAN nOe..?.. ARGH!!.. ok im gonnA try MA beSt to coNceAl evErytHINg..

mA thotZz hRmMZz.. mA thotZz todAIzz.. whAt i hAte AND liKE abt guyZ?.. dAt a pretti guD topiC foR all dOSe pPLz drOOlIng At mA blOg foR iNTerEstinG inFo.. welL letS sEe mA opIniONz.. letZ stARt ofF wiF dA bAD thiNGZ anD enD wif dA guD shALL we?.. guYs cAN reALLi hURt chiX wiFOut eVn noticiInG riite?.. yeaH i totALii nOE.. i mEAn u jUS fEeL LIke sLAppINg dEm anD wALkiNg ofF?.. weLL dAtZ hOW i fEeL ne wAIz.. suMtiMEz i meAn.. diS isNt evn Abt a guy DAt i mIght LIke diS iZ jUS aLL guyZ to stARt oFf wiTh.. i dun gEt it.. we chiX toK abt hOT guyZ in fORNt og otHEr guyZ.. wat do thoSe guYS thiNK?.. do thEIi fEeL un coMfortABle or wAt?.. i meAN i nOE weN mA guy fWenDzz toK abt chiX.. dEPendiNg on hU it iZ.. i gEt reALLi annOiD.. i duNNO not jeALous or nE htiNG buT i juS wANnA scrEAm anD ruN out of dA rooM?.. oR wherEevA.. oR i fEeL LiKE sLappINg dErE heADs.. i dUNNo iT weird.. i meaN if itZ wei chiAn sAYiNG hu hE tinKZ iZ kUUte i jUS lAUgH n bE koOL wiD it.. mAYbe coZ iM soO clOSe to HIm.. u NOe..i teLL hiM thingZ anD he cAN tell ME situAtioN?.. new Aizz nEw subJecT..

wEn guYZ flIRt wiF a chiK rite.. iN fORnt oF u.. suMtiMEZz itZ reAL kUute dAt dA gUY iZ tryIN to mAKe AN effORt wiF a chik DEPENDING ON HOW DEII FLIRT.. suMtiMEZz dEIi jUS lOOk soOOo dAYM sLeEzEy dAt u wAnnA slAp hiM oN dA heAD.. whiPe dA drooL commINg oFf hIS chiN wiF hiS aSs.. aND beAt hIm to thE grouND?.. coZ dATsZz hoW sickEning i fiND it... i reALli dOOO.. i meAN.. suM guyz r reALLi goOd At dA whOLe flIRtiNG thiNG riiTe... anD u jUS tiNK oOoO hEhehe chEekI riite?.. anD deN othErZ u jUS gEt soOo groSseD out thAt u wannA beAt dA crAP ouT of Em... LIkE wAt dA?.. dO guYZ actuAlli NOe hOW groSs dEii cAn bE?. oR do deii seriouslii doNt nOe wAT dEi r doiNg wrong?.. i meAN dIS iZ fORm dA peRspEctivE oF wATchin anOTher guy flIRt wiF another chiK.. weLL letss see from da perspective of da guy flirting wif me?.. weLL usuALii moSt oF dA guyZ dAT doOo.. actuAlii nOE dAT deii r flirting wif me... anD iTZ jUS foR suM fuN.. aND dEii actuAlii NOE HOW TO FLIRT... iN a kUuTe wAiii.. hAvnt eXperiEncEd a stooPID cUnt.. HU caNt fliRt wiF meE... lOlzZz.. o ANd i duNNO abt dA othEr chix.. buT sEeiNG a guy dribbLE anD beG at A chiX feEt iSnt a vErii iMPressivE siGHT... LiKE to oTher pPLZ.. iTZ jUS soOo anNoyIng u wANnA slAP ALl of dEm.. aND wiPE dErE fAcEs wiF a giANt tiSsue.. sO hUge iT cNA suX uP aLL dErE dRoOL.. anD froM dA poSitioN whErE guyZ r dRooLing i GUESs.. dA chIk mAy enjOIi.. sOMe of dA attEntioN.. buT dEn aGEn wuDnt i BE smRt enUF to sEe foRM othEr pPLZ perSpectivEs.. or cAN chiX actuALli bE dAt mUCh of A drAMA queeN?.. iZzzit All ABt ouR selVeZ?... hAHAH a gAMe of survivAL.. oF hu hAS dA highEst rANk.. oF slUttyNEZz?.. i meAN to chiX i pErsonALii thiNK if suM1 cALLed u A slUt usuALli meNAz oF hiGH rANk.. i meAN yeAH cNA be offEnsivE buT u sEe alot of sKankS drAMA queEns slUtS iN hiGH poSitioNS.. oF pOpulRity.. by dA wAIi dA i tHInK dA kEy to poPUlArity Are ActuALii THROUGH thOSe soOo cALLed skAnks slUtS.. anD drAMA quEenS. doNt u thiNk.. alSO wiF attitudE..

ne wAIzz bAck on dA subJEct thingZz dAt guyZ piSs ME ofF abtZz.. yeS THE ACT!!.. evEryONe heARd of tHe acT?.. weLL evEryONe nOEZz to BE a rEAl kOoL guY u NOe dEii goTTa plAii suM rouGh spoRt.,... hav A pretII guD boDdiii .. eiTher go with da realli realli r&b hip hop style or da skater boi look riite... or ur jus a lil noboddi geek face... datz how i think guys define dem selves.. ok now im gonna divide dis into groups of AZN GUYZ ESPECIALII.. well u either hav da real azn pride chinkiz... with all their overseas thingz.. usuall style are da baggy jeans da slippers and da shirtzZ.... oR u hAv thE kUuTe LiL skAter boiZz.. hU hAv beEn brouGHt uP reAl AussiE.. n StuffZ whICh iZ quite rare and kuute.. anD dEn u hAv dA r&B chIggAz... whole hip hop style.. yes well eavh of these groups r mega hard core.. i meAN iTZ kOOL dAt guyZ chOOse tHEsE diffErEnt idEntitiEz oN dA ouTSidE.. bUT y do Deii hAV to kIndA LiE anD hidE tO proVe thEmselVEs... LIKE hARdcoRe ABt tHEir idEntity.. i meAN suMtiMEs iTZ koOL anD gUDd to bE INDIVIDUAL?.. peRhAPs mAyBE choOse A chAnge.. i meAN i guEss to me.. it realli impresses me if guyz can be demselves... rite.. but also in front of his fwendzz *HINT HINT * to da guyz out dere.. i mean i no eof sum examples if guyz hu do dis.. in fornt of their fwendzz deii hav to look kool and like da best.. but in front of da chik her every wish iz ur commanDd~~.. dudezz make up ur mind and stik wif whicheva one... i dunno but datz jus wat i see i mean i noe all guyz arnt like dis u cud find dose realli rare perfect guyz.. lOlxZzz HU ALREADI NOE DIS PERHAPS?...

wow u noe dis is a real stress reliever...~~~ verri soothing for the mind. n ewaizz.. lets try to skip da rest of da bad thingzz and move on to wats best of da guyz and y us chix want demm..;P;P

weLL guD thinGZ... i gueSs to A teEnage gurL.. a bOIfWeNdzZ iZ aN uLtimAte prioRity kIndA thANg?.. i meAN iTz lIke.. wAt teEn guRl wudNt wAN a bOIfWenDz riiite?.. dATz moStlii whErE dA upSIdEs coME from aBT a guy.. well i mean if u see a guy of ur interest riite.. and u will either think A)omgooDneZz hEzz kUUte... or b)hEz a 100% huNK-o-LiciOUS.. c)heZ dayM seXiiii n dont forget HOT!!... d) hEz soO hAnsoM anD mAnlii wiF chAriSmA e) hE iZ soOo dayM KOOOL..(mostlii da top popular guyZ).. or f) ALL OF THE ABOVE!!... not likelii to happen~~ oK diS biT reAL persONal stuFfZ r commINg ouTZz.,. weLL to me gUYZ r actualli quite important i mean.. u hav ur fwendzz u noe u can tell dem everything and yeah u hav fun.. but a gf/bf iZ suMfin realli sHPeciAl like so special u can get tingles all ova.. and jus like get a warm fuzzi feeling wen u tok to dem or hear dere name?.. yeah may sound corny BUT IT ACTUALLI HAPPENS!! aND Like i guess most chix want dat loved feeling?.. also derez all dat touchy touchy stuffz..;P u noe u chix like dat.. lOlzzZ.. i mean realli kUute how couPleZz hOld hANds n HUgZz. n kISseS. aLL thAt stufF.. i mean i noe.. wen i realli realli realli realli absolutelii like pplz.. like 1 time wif sum1 *cough*.. ma handz can get reallitingling and nervous and tense up.. u noe and i thot dat waz realli kuUute... LIke u think hez dat aDorABle toO tinGle ovA.. lOlzZz~~.. now u noe how shpecial u guyz r eh? eh? eh? hehehe.. and another time wen i liked dis guy.. hehe u get warm fuzzy feeling jus tinkin abt dem.. lOlzZz oncE agen CORNY!!.. buT iT hAPpeNZ i teLL yA.... and datz realli koOL..

i mean end result no matter how mannii bad thingzz u can saii abt guyz.. u alwaizz like dem twice as much.. and i dont evn noe y i like dem in da first place ... LMAO... in dat whole paragraph in writing gud thingzz deii werent actualli thingzz dat deii dOoO.. owait i guess some guyz can actualli treat u welLL n stuFfzz. but heii datZz ur bF.. anD perSonallii to sAIi.. i don thiNK iM in dA poSitiON..to sAIi fORm dat perSpectivE.. iZnt dat funni.. Like i wrote all those bad thingzz.. i cant evn put y guyz r gud in one sentence.. but u still end up liking demlike heLLa.. toK abt wAT da?... oUr miNdzz r weirdDzZzz~~ weLL i tinK datzz enuF abt mA heAD thoTZzz.. hehe mAYbe suM othEr timEZz..
bA bAiziziZzzZz~~

2004-04-22T22:36:00.000-07:00

hALoOO~~
weLL todAIi anD last nIght wASnt dAt greAt iTZ LIke... "PreciOUs diAMoNd drOoLerZ aTTenTIOnzZ cATcHEr " iZ LIke a gUSt OF wiND cAMe ANd bLew AwAii aLL hAPpiNeZz.. bRinGinG me fORm soOo hIgh dOWn tO thE coLD heArtEd truTh of reALity woRld.. yeS heArt breAking-________________-""" LeT mE jUS saIII i mYSelf adOre "PreciOUs diAMoNd drOoLerZ aTTenTIOnzZ cATchEr " buT aLSo hAs tO fAcE thE tRuTH abOUt "PreciOUs diAMoNd drOoLerZ aTTenTIOnzZ" I dOnt reALli wANnnA tok ABtZ.. sincE yeAH soOo clOSe tO "PreciOUs diAMoNd drOoLerZ aTTenTIOnzZ" iTZ nOt LIke i hATe "PreciOUs diAMoNd drOoLerZ aTTenTIOnzZ cATcHer " oR dEspisE "PreciOUs diAMoNd drOoLerZ aTTenTIOnzZ" oR evN jeAlouSy ADdEd iN.. buT iTZ thE thINgz arouND"PreciOUs diAMoNd drOoLerZ aTTenTIOnzZ cATchEr " tHAT mAKe mE weiRdEd ouT anD dEpreSseNT abOUt thE fAcT of "PreciOUs diAMoNd drOoLerZ aTTenTIOnzZ cATchEr " ...... i kIndA fEeL sympAthY towArdZ "PreciOUs diAMoNd drOoLerZ aTTenTIOnzZ catCHer" cOZ i meAN.,.. "PreciOUs diAMoNd drOoLerZ aTTenTIOnzZ catCHer" pRoB enJoizZ heR lIfE alOt anD cAnT heLp tHE tHIngZ arouND iT.. soOo alLL tHEsE fEelINgZ are buiLDinG uP aGAInst "PreciOUs diAMoNd drOoLerZ aTTenTIOnzZ catCHer" wEn iT wASnT evn "PreciOUs diAMoNd drOoLerZ aTTenTIOnzZ catCHer" iNTentioNZ... hOPe u cAN get to wAt iM sayINg?.. i hATe diS siTUatioN briNGZ dOWn aLL ma jOY weN "PreciOUs diAMoNd drOoLerZ aTTenTIOnzZ catCHer" iZ arouND aND it jUZ ruINz dA atmOSphErE fORm dA stARt weN i cuD actuAlii jUS enJoii dA comPanii "PreciOUs diAMoNd drOoLerZ aTTenTIOnzZ catCHer" bRinGZz.. i bLAMe iT aLL on tHE ppPLZ arouNd.. eSPeciALii "PT" URGHZ!! i WiLL basH dAt fAggoT~~ 4 wordzZ... hAv a nicE daii? pFfTTttt BS~~
bA bAiZzZ

2004-04-22T07:05:00.000-07:00

hAliOOo~~
welLL dA bloG i jUS wrote wenT poof well wat i was sayin is dat dis is ma fourth blog todaizz man lots of thingz on ma mind.. newaizz i waz tokin to ed.. and yeah well she thinks dat maybe da end bit of jayz blog may be some advie to me... weLL yeah i guess it cud be.. but let me jus saii.. dat i noe guyz will say stuffz like dat and tink another... anD u noe dis advice may be to saii becareful of wat ivan says n stufzz.. and not to get to excited abt it.. but i noe dat ivan will say thingz and it might look like i get heapz excited ova it but i dont.. its a sign of relief.. dat he doesnt feel dat awkward not to jk abt dese thingz... and i noe dat ivan will never like me.. and not saying dis to seek attention and want everyone to saii .. der der u neva noe ur realli koOOL n blah blah blah~~~.. i noe itz a shyte.. i mean it zusualli da same wif all guys riite?.. deiw ill neva end up liking me bak ne waizz anD like ed says da nest thing to do iz to try not not like a guy in da first place.. and yeah i wud but i cant it jus happens.. so instead i jus leave ma self and i noe i will enD up chuking a sad fitty abt da guy... but u noe itzz happened b4 newaizz.. jus leave it.. doN neEd warningzz coz i nOe alreadii.. bUT u alwaizz jus gotta think "O WELL" shiT happenS anD yeah you cant do much abt it... u cant make a perosn like u bak.. da best u can do iz let dem noe da waii u feell i guess?... soOO realli ivan iz no biggi and if i do hav a sad fitty moment.. jus noe dat... i noe dat it waz comming.. aND Luv yOU tO all mA fwenDzz hu hAV to pUt uP wif mA sad fiTTiz..;P LUv yALL
bA bAiiIZzZZz~~~

2004-04-22T03:27:00.000-07:00

hALoOOoooOO~~
=D=D=D..... im fEelIng greaT aLthOUgh i thiNK iM gettINg siK... iM fEelINg greAt bCoz i NOE mA fWenDzzz rOXxXxXx~~~~~~~~~~~` dEii r SeriOUslii dA koOLEst PPLz evAz... i serioUSlii hAte beiNg aoruND ma siStAz and u NOe i hAte iT hOW mA mommi compLAInz ... buT i lUrrRvv iT wen mA dAddiZ HeRe.. bCoz i coMplain to hIm anD he mAKeZ evErythINg betA=D=D i nOE i mAy soUnd spoIlt buT u nOe spoIlt in mA faMiLI iZ LiKE a sURvivAL advANtAge.. strONgest chIk wiNZ.. mUAHiuHAIUhaIhiauHAIU welL ne wAIzz iM listening to ALot of chiNki soNgZ.. i meAN im nOt depreSsed tiME agEn.. buT i lIke dem aND vErii soOthINg... i duNNO hEIii .. buT yeAH dA dEpressivE atmoSphEre IZ reALii gettinG to mE.. ne wAizz jUS Like to SAIi dAt mA fWneDzz r ALwAIzz on mA mindD... sAme AS"1H" ... i meAN i duNNo dAtz lIke where mA lIfE iZ bASed AroUnd.... u NOe mITe sEem a biT rANdoM buT i wiSh we ALl lIvEd in trAckIz LoL~~~... bCoz i duNNO juS felt LIke sayIN dAT.... huIAHiuAHIuahuia immMA crAzIiiii weLL lUv yAz
bA bAizZzzZzA~~~

2004-04-21T22:11:00.000-07:00

hALoOo~~
well itz saturdaii morning... i woke up around 12 havin a realii realii koOL dreAm about "1H" it waz koOOOLneZzZ ~ although i cant fulli rememba wat happen in like detail i knew it waz a guUUd dream!.. i also had another dream about ma fwendzz.. like da chix we went for bbt and yeah i decided to try strawberry n milk and me n ed sed it at da same time and chose da same jelly LOL .. lame but interesting..

ne waizz last night waz verri verii koOL... weLL last night "1H" waz online and u noe i started to tok to him as usual but dat night... we tokked jus like wen he waz ma bestest buddi u noe.. it waz kool i felt like i cud tell him about ne of ma problems and ma opinionzZ dayM koOlz.. ne waizz well i waz asking for his opinion on sumifinZz riite.. and den we got on the subject of hu i liked.. and well i thought he knew.. and datz wat i sed and he sed dat like stuff about how da otherz sed stuff but he wasntsure... and yeah i finalii had da courage to tell him ma self.. n it waz no biggii like he was jus normal i guess.. but since it waz ova da net im not so sure wat he tinks of it.. but he sed he waz jus makin 100% sure.. but den like yeah he didnt evn saii baii n left.. although he alwaizz does dat lOlXx~~ but u noe... unstable moment for me.. and i told "1H" abt ma mei lOlXx... chi chi mu mu = ma mei mei... LOL.. kOoLNeZzZ..

u nOE... i dunno some pplz mite not believe me but i think i like"1H".. well maybe not more than wen i liked chi chi mu mu in yr 7... but i mean to that extent... to the extent where ma hands juZ tense up and feel tinglii at jus the thot of "1H"... but this time itz not so much ma handZz.. its like ma bodii jas weird tinglizzz.. LOL hard to explain... =P i mean i do admitt i did like chi chi mu mu hELLa Lot.... aND U i dun realli wanna show ma obsessivenezz abt "1H" dis time it jus makes da gud thingzz abt him jus look.. leSs interesting and important if yOU keeP sayINg it... but sumtimezz itz jus too muCh gUD thIngZ abOUt hIM tO coNtaiN in mA LiL brain and i hav to end up saying it all.... yOU noE.. i duNNO itz weirD.. i JUZ wAnt 1 LOoOooOoOoOonNnnGGgGGgg~~ hUuUuUuG... frOM "1H"... yeAH weLL tO otherZ he MAy bE eEek... buT i Like iThEZ diffErENt n spEciAL.. anD weN ppLZ reAD diS.. iT mAY sEem LIke iM obSeSsed aND dAT iTZ jUZ a pHASe bUT... buT eVn if i did end up notliking "1H" ne more i wud still admitt dat hez special and kUuute.. n aLL the thiNGz i saiiii... Jus LikE i cAN admiTT nE thanG that i sed.... realli u name it and i can admitt...=D=D=D *thuMBzzZ uP*... newaizz dis gettin a bit longZzz
ba bAiZZzZZz~~

2004-04-21T05:46:00.000-07:00

hALooO~~
weLL inTErEstINg on moNdaiZz i went to sleep ova jayz house it waz pretti kool got to get out of da house.. dat reminds me yeah ma familii sux sumtimezz heii.. sooooo gai~~ riite now iz a time where home iz where i dun wanna realii be..

ne waizz it waz kool i jus chilled at her house.. n she made a blog n everyhting dat reminds me i hav decided i make metaphorical names jus like jay mhuahiauhuai smart smart.. ne waizz well u can figure dem out on da waii.. well dat daii me n jay went to bball riite.and... well we jus got totalii like ignored.. omgoodnezz esp "PT1" anD "1U" <----hehehe i like dat one ne waizz urm yeah "CK" wAz beiNG a reAl biTch of An ass bLooodii helll stoopid faggot yeah and den chi chi mu mu cAMe a biT lAte.. buT i tokKed to hIM nE wAIzz. hEheh i toLD hiM abt hOw i fElt n shiT aBt "1H" n aLL dat lIl cwAPpA.. hEHeh uMmMZz..

oN tueSdaii we LiL chiKabeeZ.. anD daryL wenT to da skOoL ovAL to plai soccer and eat foODz... hEHe so we ATe aND pLAiIEd soOoocEr~~ fuN fun i wAz goALii.. HEheh iT wAz reALii kOoL anD dEn anDy cAMe.. and dEN we stRAted ouR wATerfiGHt iT wAz soO dAYM kooL thoUgh evEryONe wAz dRencHEd aT dA enD... anD soO afTA we stopPed wE jUS toKKed ABt StuFfZz.. anDy soOo dAYM koOL lIke we goSsiP hUAIhiUA n yeaH hE mE n jAY NEw oPPa hEh yeAH mA oPPa roXxXx mAn!!.. toTalii oO anD daT dAii i wAz alSO tryINg to iGnore.. "1H" .. but urmM lIKe chI cHI mU mU anD cherAN weRe d fiRst to coME anD i wAz tok to chi HCi mU mU.. anD dEN roLAnd caME anD dEN ivAN.. hahHAha dA gAl gALzz werE sAYiN dAT HE caME buT i diDnt beliEvE dEM buT he reALii wAz dErE LOL fuNni stUFZz nE wAizz... yeAH chI chI mU mU iZ mA MEi MEi huiAHiuAhuiA.. bCOz i tok to hIM lIke mA siS.. hE koOL so Me goNNA cALl hiM mei nOWZz LOL.. hhehe biT meAn buT kooL!! uMm aND dAT deii wAz soOo fuN i oWe bIG spEciAl tNX tNX to mA oPPa coZ HE wAzdErE wiF uZ.. alSO gAvE ME bOO bOO on mA kNee>.< hHeh buT iT koOL maN i doN wANnA soUnd lIKe " cABbAgE pAt bAby pOt".. newAizz yeAH soO dAT deii wAz dAYM koOL heAPs oF fuN anD i diDnt say A sinGle worD to " 1H" dIDnt evN hUg.. iM vErii pROuD..=D=D coZ i nOE dAT i cAN ignOre if i wAnT.. buT yeAH "1H" soOo irResiStABle.. hAUhAUiAHUia ..

todAIz wen bbt aND we plAiied bbAll dA pplZ werENt dere todAizz buT bbALL betweeN jus dA gALz wAz soOo fuN althoUgh.., i SuX hehEHe u NoE iT wAs soO fuN wen guYZ dEr so iNtimIdAtiNG,... >.<

welL todaiZz im reALli reALii reALLi hAPii coZ.. "1H" and ME u NOe todAIzz i reALii fEeL lIKe we toK jUS lIKE b4 whErE i cAN saii abT ne tAHng whiCh iZ dAYM koOL.. meANing im bEcommiNg more coMfortAble AOrund "1H" i tinK.. yeAH we wiLL sEe... hEHehHEhe..

heii iM iNto dA whoLE jAP mOoOsic AgeN.. hEHe fouND a stAck of fiLE on iT kOOLneZz.... hEhehE mAN aLL diS jAP mOosiC anD hOW hAppi i Am feeLs hAHah vErii uPliftinG.. mEmBA LIke dA tiME i wAz tokIN to jAY abT dA woRld thIng shE sed iT liKE spiNS anD wen suM ppLZ r uP dErE fEelIng reAl guD abt demsElvEs othErS r feeLing reALli bAD.. yeAH anD i wAz at dA tOP anD i thOt i dA worLD wuD spiN riTE bAck doWn on me agEn LIke wiTh aLL dA fAMIlii shiT dAtZ beEn hAPpEnINg ... buT hEii i cliMbeD bak Up....=D=D=D LUv aLL mA fWEnDdZzZ dA koOLESt!!!
bA baiZzZz~~~

2004-04-18T04:46:00.000-07:00

hAloOOo~~
weLL i hAVnt wriTTeni in AGes i kiNDA forgoTzZ...>.< huAhiuAihu welL ne wAIzz im IN dA holiDAIzz riTE nOWwZz.. haVin loTSA fuN dA fiRst fOUR dAiZz i wenT on a cAmp wiF hANnAh iT wAz okIZ hAd suM fuN ATimESs n ALL.. anD den i slEpt ovA hAnz hOUSe whiCh meANt i wenTT bbALL twiCE AsweLL.. bONus..=D=D nEwAiz bbALL wAz kOoL i gAV dA guYS mA usuAL BIG BIG huGzZz~~ hiUAHiuaHuiA.. cuTe liL felLAz ne wAiZz.. urMM i wenT shoppIN on fridAiZz.. we also WAtcHEd dAT moviE conFessioNs of A teEnAGe drAMA queEn ... mM yeAH.. weLL i don Think i wiLL be ALlOWed ouT mUCh wen i stARt skoOL.. iM tryINg to gEt oUT of diS hOUSe AS mUCh AS poSsibLe u NOe.. chiLL wif mA fweNDzZ n ALll.... urmM wAT elSe to sAiii.. mA mommI Sed suM oNE cAMe to mA hOUSe to giv ME a bdAIi cArd.. buT i duNNO hu iT wAz.. *weiRd lOok* hEHeh ASk ArouND at skoOL suMTime.. ne wAIzz uRmm ivE beEn goiN BbALl ALotSs.. n iM goiN JAmie hOUSe tomORo yAY to slEep ovA anD dEN dEe hOUSe dEe goT a nEw doG iTZ dA sAME AS mINe eXcEPt HErS is blAck n whiTe.. soOo cuTE n smAlll .. hiuAHiuAIUHA urmMM wAT elSe to sAIZz... mAn mA mommi gEtZ pISsEd AT ME aN awfuL ALot.. i tinK liKE ALOT OF PPLz saii ivE chANged ALot buT i don gEt it... mA apPPeArAncE hASnt chaNged dAT mUCh.. hAS iT?... weirDed out.. iF i AM chANing iZziT sluTTy oR mAture oR wAT?... >.< weLL mA momMi jUS doEnt undErSTANd me i meAN i Act toTAlii diffErnEt At HOme ANd shE doEsnt nOE hu i AM wIF mA fWeNDzz.. mA W kEy on dA keyboARd iZ soO scReWed,, nE wAizz bAk on dA subJEct.. uRmmMm wAT to sAIzzzZz.. i fouND out toNNes of stUFf lIKE.. otHEr pPLZ duN noE HEheh i fEel spEciAl..:D:D:D welL ne wAIzZ uRmMm.. i stiLL lIKe dA usuAL person... mMmMmMMm aND i doNno wAt to dOoOZzz.. n iTZ gaii soO iM ignOrinG hiM.. anD juS coNcEntrATe on oTHEr stUfFzZz...=D=D uRmmMMmmmmm wwAT elsE iTZ dAryLZ bdAIi sooN.. yeAH n irenE hAd hEr bdAIi buT i wAz AT cAMp.. n weee chiN fEeLL throuGh dA roOof.. i sAW dA hoLe buT iT lOoked lIKe fun..=D=D=D.. welLL i don thiNK ihAv nE thANg elSe to sAIzz... juS exciTEd to leAvE toMOR.,.=D=D
bUA BAUiiIZZZz~~~

2004-04-09T01:31:00.000-07:00

hALooO~~
weLL i hAvnT wriTTen iN a hELLa oF a LOng tiME.. uRmmZ weLL i JUS finISh skoOL yeSTERdAii.. anD uRmm yeAH iT wAz fun u NOe evERy oNe huGgiN anD muCkiN arouND it wAz kooL..o dA mOSt iMpoRTanT biT oF inFO iN dA worLD TOMORO ITZ MA BDAII woOoHoooO~~ mHIAHiuaHiua yeAH iM hellA eXciTed.. i tiNK i mIte gO gARbO dEN meEt dA pPLz aT dA bUSstoP.. hEHe yeAH dNE i cAN buY mA glASsES n stuFfZ i NEedD.. i LUrrv mA dAddii mAN hE toOK mA siDe aND hE jUS sEd to gIV mE $100 tO speND oN MA fWeNDzz mA siS wAz lIke wAT dA,.. anD MA mOMMi dIDnt sAY ne tHAng hiuAHiuaHIua... sO she wAz lIek OK OK ne wAizz uRmM yeAH toMOro goNNA be dA bOMb,,, hOPefuLLii i hopE nuThIN goEs wrONg anD if it DOes iM gonNA kILL hud A fuK it IZ LOL JKZ jKZ.. Heheh i tiNK aroUnd 16 oR 17 shuD be goiNz suM pPLZ hAd to pUll ouT bCoZ dEii weARenT alloUd.. MAn dAT jUS suXXX,, ne wAizz uRmm lEt See.. mAN dAnIeLLe yeSterdAIi pUt eYEliNEr oN me .. yeAh iT wAz aiGHt.. yeAH iT lOOkEd bEtA thOUgh.... aND uRm wAT elSe to sAIiii.. uRmm cANt tiNk atM welL i PRoB seE wiLSon dErE asWeLL.. i DuNNO ALl i nOE iZ iM gonNa hAv A hEllA lOT oF fuN..
bUA buAiIIZzz~~

2004-04-03T07:57:00.000-08:00

hALoO~~
lEtZ see i cudnt write blog yesterdaii cudnt be screwed well yesterdaii jus went to skool i had vocal lessons..:D:D dat waz kool i ALso cUT mA hAir i goTTa fRingE.. mA siS sEd i look like ma cuz afta she came bak from japan...>.< ne waizz i went to da church thingy todaizz wif hannah it waz ok im in hannahs group wif mi mi.. and yeah dis guy called james hez prettii hot actuallii.. also wif like harry and david ooo great ne waizz.. well dat finished late so we onli go tto bball at like almost 6 i cud onli stay for like a few mins.. and den hugged wei and ming twice and den ivan.. but like yeah stuffed happen wif da bball n all.. it waz kool though but actualli i tink ivan waz tryin to save himself lol.. naw itz fine thOUgh ... well ne waizz urmm i came to bball so late so like patty jay daryl n irene were gone i saw derry n pendy etc.. and da usual ming n IVAN n yeah weii etc.. and michael pulled awaii from hug twice gay shiat.. he sed it waz 10 bux ea hug riiiite like i wan dat shiat hug.. hUIAHiua well ne waizz i jus went bak to hans house n yeah.. tokked to ppl zon da net watched da soccer MANCHESTER ONE 1:0 against ARSENAL... WOOOOOT u saW criSTiaNo ronaldo alOtzz .. yeAH weLL iT wAz koOL.. well i tink datz abt it for todaizz..
bA bAUizz~~

2004-03-31T06:52:00.000-08:00

hALoOOo~~
weLL todAIzz wAz wednEZdAIi iT wAz ok.. jUS wenT to skooll da usual THanG u Noe.. urmMZz todIAzz wAz pretiI gudZ.. tARyN bOrroWed mA bANglEZz betA briNg dEM bAkz n toMOro iZ apriL foOlz dAIii woOoOt.. anD urMMZz mAN mA guy fWenDz aT SkoOL r LIke ME bIg broS.. weLL dNE AGen alL mA gUY fwEndZz r kINDA lA dAT eSP weii.. mAn he ReALliii kOoLZ.. uRmZz.. mAn iTz onLI beEn A weEk n i mISs ALl mA fWenDzz..>.< T.T iM tiNK iM goiN gARbO fOR.. ii preZziie.. dEN i hAv to go Wif hAN to dA chUrch cAMp thiNgo dEN mite go viSit bBAll... uMMm wAT To write.,.. weLL i tiNK ivE beEn sayIn too much ABt ivANss todAIzz soo nUthiN abt hiMz.. oOo wiLson sEd hE mITe breAK uP wif hIS gurl...T.T soOo sad.. bu i gUEss iF iTZ for da BEst... LET It BURN~~ HuiAHIUaHUi lUUrrRVvv dAT soNg.. ALso into vItAMin C.. mAN EAmon roX~~ hIS soNg soO mUch dAYUm sweARing LOL.. well i hAv nuthIN elSe tosAii reALiiz..
bAUi bUAIzXzZ~~

2004-03-30T01:02:00.000-08:00

hALoOo~~..
weLL i tinK i mite chAnge mY skIN foR a WhiLe coZ diS onE a bIt scReWeD.. ne wAizz i hAv A heADAcHE AGEN!!... dYAm it.. uRmM skOOl wAz pretII kOoLZ... dA usuAL mUcKin aroUND fuK mAN mA phOne goT coNfiscAted... coZ dANieL wAz tAkein pIcciZ oF pPLZ fuKIn hELL dAt tEAcHEr gAY... stooPid fAT coW... fuKin aPPLebY n ewAizz.. shE sed i HAd ATtItudE wen i wenT to gEt da pHOne.. chHE.. hUAihuAH i gUEss i diD hAV a biT of AttItUde cheh but heLLo dEAL wiTh iT i meAN it WASnT evEn skOOl tiME os yeAH shE cANt do NE tAHng ABt iTZz... weLL urMMZz i hAv heAdAcHE pAIn>.< urMM iMMa gonNA go WinthroP agEnZz suMtime dIS weEk to cLEAr evEryTHang wiF hANnAH n StuFfZ Abt cAMp.. n ewAIzz urmMZ i stIlLL goT dA mI proJect tO finISh aiYOOo... yeAH weLL gOt tiMe anD it daYm eASii n ewAIzz..... hRmM wAT elSe to sAizz.. dEMi wASnt AT skOoL todAIzz... SO DAYM KOOLLLLL./... huAHiua i Noe im EviL buT shEz soOoo dAYm annOyIng aND shE tinK i LIke hEr... fuCkIN hell ITZ her bdAIi diS saT... hrmMM i tInk iM goiN to gO gArbOO to buY iRneZ bdAii prezziie siT i Need soOo mUch moNey.. i need aroUNd $100.. for mA bdae... dEn i NeeD lIKe $20 fOr i BDAe AND $40 foR dA cAMp... fuK mAN sooO mUCh fuKIn mONeyy... >.< ne wAIzz doOo bA dooBidoo iM doiN mA mI iT iZ soOO dAYm KOoL... MUAHIAHuiA n EwAIzz urmm yeAH hOPe i sEe ivAN dIS weEk.. o YeAh gOtTA tok to hImz.. i MeAN i nOe i nevA enD uP tokIN t HIm... EeK.. mAN i Jus hOPe hELL tok to mE wiTHouT u NOe ignOreiNG me hALf..>.< maN stooOPid mIng.. i WIsH ivAN diDnT nOe.. oR suMfin jUs Let... ARGH!!... i wANt ivAN..T.T mAN hOW dEPressiNg liStenINg to LET IT BURN... wAT A greAT soNg to enCOurAGe me..-_________-""" hEh riIiITeee...ivA goT soOo mANi pImPLes lATelii mAN iTZ pISsin me OffFZz.. welL dATZz alLL BAtz i hAv to sAIi denzz~~~
bUA bbuAIzzz~~~

2004-03-29T05:27:00.000-08:00

hALoOO~~
weLL yeSterdAiiizz i cudnt use da interne bcoz of sum stoopid cookie thang well ne waiz zitz okiz nowz.. as u can see im not typing up and down annoys me nowz.. well ne waizz everiidaiii i like ivan more and more and MORE!! daym it..T.T buT i kInda hav da feeling ivan hates me well tinks im annoying or sumfin.. but edlyn says its jus self consciousness kinda thang well yeahi dunno ne morezz.. i tink imite tok to him on sat at bball... coz i hav to go0 hanz house ne waizz.. i decided im goin to da gook camp thang.. well cheh yeah.. newaizz urmm WILSON IS SOOO DAYM KOOL he goes for man u.. and yeah i tok to him alots lik ehe basicalii noes alot abt me n stuffs he roxx yeah ill prob see him soon on ma bdae at t fusion hopefullii.. hAUhiUAaiU .. urmm hEHe ne waizz.. watz dere to saii.. yesterdaii was sundaii i went to church came bak.. o and apparantlii my sis car tried to get broken into and da window got smashed so she ahs togo fix it... and urmm todaizz skool waz pretti daym kOOl me n taryn made dis april fools jk on danielle she seriousli believes it she gonna chuk a psych on april fools.. o and i wore ma arm socks todaiz i got sooo manii complimentss on how cool deii were yes mani from brock lisa kaine and sam.. yes yes verii koOlneszz indeed hehehe ne waizz uMmm.. i hAv heADAchEs maN i hav to hand inma mi project shiat i havnt don ene thang but im pretti confident i can finish it all 2moro ... umm yeah todaizz waz prettii kOoL matt n trishen walked home wif me... soo daym fun... and yeah i waz sitting aaron and dem and i tink shane hit him or sumfin and he pretended to get mad and he broke da stik in his hand but it was dis stoopid flat small thing it waz so daym funni den i sed to do da popstickand he cudnt do it LOL... i thot he waz jkin around but he realli cudnt lol den i ended up breakin it... he has such prettii eyes.. so we call him brown eyes or pretti eyes LOL.. DAYM KOoL uMm yeAH i tok to edlyn alotss abt ma problemss.. man i try to tok to sam bu the alwaizz ends up goin offline sooo fast.. i tried callin jay b4 but she was engaged so yeah.. yeah and ummm i hav a headache>.<... wei chian sooo roxxx!! he is sooo adorable.. lol eldyn thingzz im whack or screwed in da head coz i think ming nang and roland r quite hottnezz.. LOL daym funnii o welzz.. but i like ivan.. OMGGOODNEZZ.. dat jenny gurl started to tok to me and obviousli she noes i like ivan and she waz like sayin so do u noe wen his birthdaii iz and all dis crap like i had ot noe or sumfin.. dat annoiid me... so i asked ed LOL.. it iz da 5th of JuLy... but dude i dun wanna freak him out by memorising his life..=| jEeEsE.. new AIzz i seriouslii tink he doesnt like me>.< i think hE hATes me more since i stArted liking him... *siGH* mite aswell tok to him.. but i can neva tok to him without sum1 knowing wat imtokin abtzz.. daym itz.. i dunno wat to dooooo T.T.... yeAH well i tink datzz all about i hav to saii...
BUA bUAizzzz~~~

2004-03-27T07:26:00.000-08:00

hLAoOOoO~~
weLL iTz 11:30 and iM finAliii hAV peAcE to WRiTE mA bLOg weLL.. I HAD DA EBST WEEKEND EVA EVA EVA EVA EVA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!.. UrmMz ne wAIzz i wenT tO jAYz hOUS eon fridAizz aND deN wenT to dA bBalL dAT EVERYONE GOES TO!!.. IT WAZ SO DAYM FUN I SAW EVERYONE AND WE WERE LAUGHING AND JUS HAVIN SOOOO MUCH FUN AND WEICHIANN OMYGOODNEZZ HES CHANGED ALOT... AND IM TOKIN IN CAPSS BCOZ IT REPRESENTZ MA JOIIII... HEHEH WeLL ne wAizz fRidAizz wAz dayM kOOL jay GoT me bBt.. aND i spenT da daii wiF alL ma APPeX bUddiZ.. i hAD soOo mUch dAYm fuN ihUggEd weiI chIAn ALOT!!.. coZ lIke yeAh ... do U noe wAT i thInk wei cHIAn iZ lIke MA guD gUD mALe buDdiZ riIte sO siNce i Don haV a bF *couGH*-___________-"" tO Like SPeND timE wiF n crAP iM reAL clOSe to wei Chian aND LIke hUg hIm aloTzz n stuFfZz.. wATtA weiRd I aMZz.. i ALso meT alINa yeAH sheZ preTtII kOOLz.. aND dEn i wenT bAck tO jaYZ hOUSe to SLeEp ovA we spEnt dA nighT cALlIN pplZ.. DAYMM CHIH HAO MO ROX!!!.. it wAz soOO dAYm funNI oN dA pHOne lIKE evEn if We seD soME bAd thiNGz abT soME of dA pPLz hE noEZz we HAD lIke heApsZz oF fuN tokIN abT dEm.. anD yeAH CHIH HAO ROXXi toLD hIm aLL ABtzz nAtAshA ANd kEnnEth aND stEvEn aND joNatHOn ETC.,.. AND HOW TONY IZ A ROBO COP OR ROCKY DA MOOSE U NOE FROM ROCKY AND BULLWINKLE... daYM fuNNi weLL ne wAizz we caLLed hIM anD meL and EdZz ANd yeAH stUffZz.. dEn dA neXT dAU me n Jay dEciDed to gOo gArbO siNCE dErE iZ hUGe sAle dEN we ASk eD to INviTe ne 1 heii sHEZ pretII gud At dAT coZ sHE goT elYsiA ANd iRene... aND we Asked hANnAH siNcE she SmS me ASKIN if We go BBaLL or nOT we tHOt dAT todAi wAz gonnA rAin aND be heLLa bAd weAthEr buT iT wAz pretTi guD weAtHEr... yeAH aND so we ALL wenT gArbO aND wE meT elYSiA and iRenE derE meL and dEe cuDnt goOo we cuDnt exActliIi reACh chriIii.. aND newAizz dEre wAz bIg sAle At gArbO so We LoOk arouND aND we wenT to boDy n soUl whErE i foUNd reAl preTTi sKIrt buT iTZ 60 bUX dAYm iT welL ne wAIzz toDAizz i bought to sHIrtZ a bANgLE thiNGy aND HAND SOX!! MY HAND SOX ROX!! wAii betA dEN jAYzz=P hehEH ne wAIzz URmZz ... yeHA AftA we wenTT bbT anD met mIchAel ANd mINg DerE... dEn we wALked to bBAll irene wenT hOme.. bBAlLL wAz dAYm fuN todAIz toOo welL at FirSt iT wAz jus mING ivAn michAel aND lIEK a fEw yr 8Z... aND uZ.. weLL bASicALii dA mAin pplZ.. dEN wei chIAn cAMe lUki lASt... WEI CHIAN ROX!! he IZ reALlii ADorAbLE n kOoL BUT I DON LIKE HIM IN DAT WAII!1 buT u noe i THink hu eVA oR WENEVA.. hE gEtZz A GF shE iZ A miGhty lUkiiii bIAtCh hEHHE.. yeAH hE tAKeZz reAL gUD cAre oF gUrlIZz.. hE reAlLL swEet mAn.. ne wAiZz uRmM yeAh wenEva i Tok ABt wei ChiAn i LIek ivAN jUS dAT LIl biT mOre.. HUAHIUAHiua yeHA ivAN roXx buT b4 i tok aBt ivAN uRmM we MEt dErry aT bBAll to deN he wAz lIke he goiN hOme dEN i duNNO suMFin ABt penDy hOUSe do U wanNa coME aND dEn edlYn toLD me anD i wAz lIke heLLA yeAH.. so We wenT aND dErry KepT sayiN stUff AbT hOW heZ kiDnAppIng uS aND dAT we SHud pRAy so I prAYed dAT A cAr wUD kILL hIm whILst croSsiNg dA stEReet.. lol weLL yeAH i wAz jUS kIddiANg .. n ewaiZz so wenT to pEnDyz hOUSe AN i toT we WerE jUS gonNA sAY hi tO penDy buT we cuDnt See hIm throUgh dA dooR dEN oUt fORm dA wALl hE wAz wAviNg reALlii enErgEticALiii hEHeh fuNNI dEn we wenT iNSidE sAT ON dA couCh.. HE HAS A BED IN DA LIVING ROOM KOOLNEZZ.. URmZz aND yeHA we stAIied fOR a WHiLE i sEd hI to hENry ALot hE wAz fuNNi aND cuTe lol lIek lIttLE bOI bOI.. UHAiHAIU n ewAIzz weLL uRmMZ we LEft AftA a whiLe u nOE i cuDnt uNDErstAnd A worD doSe iNDo pPLZ saIi but yeAH we tHot We Shud go BAK ... so den we lEft dErry OffErEd US A driNK weN we weRe oUtSIdE dA doOR AND ndewAzziii wen we goT bAK AT bBall wei ChiAN cAMe and so DiD aNDY.. i cant be stuffed typing pretti ne mroe.. okizz ne waizz.. me n jay didnt plaii bball neither did ed.. we played hand ball AND ANDY STOOD IN DA CORNER LIKE A LONER.. den i waved in his face from behind and he waz tokin on da phone and he went AIYEeeehhhh.. hehe dat waz funni yeah and hannah waz like soo into da guyz lol... me n jay played hand ball lol.. yeah den we kinda jus stood in da middle of da court and dis small dude tried to attack me wif michael wongzz bike.. retard..-_________________-"" ahuahau umm.. den like near da end hannah and da guyzz were like jokin but like some feistyness waz dere.. hannah so evil to elysia ne waizz umm near da more end i kinda went in da middle to shoot a ocuple of timezss i got it in..:D yay and yeah ppl make a big fuss if ivan passes me da ball or not...-_________-"" wish deii didnt do dat coz seriousli in my opinion i don think ne thang will happen between me n ivan well not n e time soon ne waizz.. i dunno imjus not his type if u noe wat i mean.. not azny pretti thang.. im lOUd and not calm and well not dat great o0n da pretti scale either.. soo yeah no reason for him to like me newaizzz... yeah well wen we left i hugged wei chian teice and den i uhugged ming den i hugged ivan and everyone did dat whooo thang... lik eit waz soo ogud to hug ivan but like it waz uncomfortable for him, bcoz everyone u noe i dunnozz.. well ne waizz back abt ivan.. yeah... like to say HONESTLIII ivan is realli cute... and buff and u noe hez different from other guyzz.. and hez realli funnni bu tlike he neva toks to me face to face well i neva even get da chance realli.. but yeah and FROM WORD TO WORD OF WAT IM THINKIN IN MA HEAD- i realli want ivan coz hez so sweet and nice and yeah hezz everything hezz real kOoL buti noe dat well i hav a real big feeling dis one isnt gonna turn da waii i want it too.. hez jus not into me.. u noe... yeah well ivanzz a real great guy and u noe a realli realli realli REALLI REALLI REALLI!! REALLII!!! gud catch.. u noe EeEe hez like a big teddii bear.. soO hugGable.. buT yeah derez like a huge ica wall somewhere inbetween our communication skillz... i dunno verrii weird.. but all i can think of is ivan is a REAL REAL REAL REAL REALIII nice guyyy...:'( noOOOo fair.. by da waii itzz ma bdaii in 2 weekzz aorund abt NO WAIT ITZZ EXACLTII 2 WEEKZ NOW..:D:D yay weLL ne waizz i m hoping dat all da pplz will come to ma bdae hang out htingo even like patty n sam n ivan n wei n ming i mean dose guyz neva realli wanna hang out wen im eva dere.. soOo yeah don wanna pressure dem or ne thang like i don want dem to tink da whole world revolves aorund me or sumfin.. but itd be like da best bdae if deii actualli came... like i noe da gurlzz will come but not to sure if da guyzz will..-________-"" and if deii do den deii actualli hav to hang out wif uzz not break off into dere own conversation... by da waii i hUGged ivan did i jus saii dat?... yeah well hezz huggable... and realli realli realli nice datzz all DATZ GOIN THROUGH MA HEAD.. SO BASICALIII I HAD DA BEST WEEKEND EVA AND IVAN IS A REALLII REALLI REALLI REALLI REALLI NICE GUY!!!.. THANX U GUYZZ MA BESTEST BUDZZ FOR GIVING ME DA BEST WEEKEND EVER~~~~~~.....:'(*TEARS OF BOTH JOY AND SADNESS?*
bUA bUAiiIIiizz

2004-03-24T23:51:00.000-08:00

hALoOoooO~~
weLL i JUst cAM bAcK frOM sKoOL anD gUESs wAT NO FLUTE LESSONS~~ woOoOoT .. urmMZz weLL nE wAizz i wenT iN mY rOoM AND I STEPPED IN DOG SHIAT FUK.. DAT STOOPID DOG DAYM IT.. -______-"" mE dEfioNAteliIi pIsseD oFf weLL ne wAIzz.. uRmZz todIAzzz WAZ SO DAYM FUN.... i gOt buSteD fOr wLAKIN arouNd UHAUAHUAHA iT fElT dAyM kOoL aND tHEn i GoT mOvEd AgeN weLL i fiNAlli endEd uP at dA TABle wIF reiNAldo dANe rhYS eTC... uRmZz yeAH and i ToKkEd to JEn ALoTzz hEHHE we ReAL clOSe nOWzz anD urMmz oMgooDnEZz bEn is SoOoo dYAm ANnoYing... yeAH ANd i tOKKEd to bROCk aLoT anD sAm.. hAUhAUH BRocK soOo dAYm KoOL HEhEH yeah aND kANe iS dAYm KoOl toO hE gAVe ME hIgh FIvE iT wAz fuNNI kEPT stuFfiN it Up anD crApzz.. n ewAIzz urmZz todAIzz mAn shANe ANd AmY pISs ME ofF.. WeLL shANe sEd hE lIked hEr soRta aND i NOE FOR SURE AMY DOES!... mAN u See hEr stAriNG aNd lAUghIng AT hiM 24/7.. bY dA wAii mS hArRieS IZ A FUKIN BIATCH... yeAH shE buSTed EvEryOne lIke aLL dA tiME shEsz soO gAY aLL dA oTher teAchErS jUS doN givE a crAP maybE if iT goEs to fAr eII tell yA ofF buT usuALlii dEii doN cAre.. yeAH dEMi anD me wLAKed ArouND ALotzz weLL i dID ne awAizz yeAh hAD soO mcuH dAYm fuN anD jArrEd iSsoOSoO cuTe... HEHHE reiNALdo did hIS hAIr to dAyyy... Heh i AM A legEnd i stLed iT anD tolD hiM wAT coLOur ANd StuFfz hE iZ teN tiMEs bEtA.. HUIAHUiaHIuah weLL uRMMmZ.. i SHud cALL JAy todAiZz.. bUt nE wAIzz i wAz wAviNG tO rAMitASs lIke caLLinG hIS nAme dEN wAvIng ANd He doESnT usuALii wAVe bAK iT wAz soOoO dAYm kOoL dEn wen SAme wAz dErE he wAVed iT wAz soOoO fuNNi aNd kOoL yehA sAM roX!! ... HEHHE me chrIS anD brOCk Are dA winthroPEeZ oF oUr skOoL hEHHE.. weLL urmZz wAT elSe i hAD to KiK reINaldo Out oF mY toWer gROuP coZ demI felT uNcoMfortABle ANd shIAt soO yeAh ... hUAHiAHu evEryOne kepT blAMiNg me..>.< hHeeh buT dEii ALl nOe iTZ foR demiI.. *eviL gLAre* uRmMM wAt eLSe.. weLL i toKKed to LOtsa PPLz.. nE wAIzz soOo kOOL i NOe liKe everiI bOdi nOWz.. hEHhe evEn demI sed she wANteD to BE me bEcAuse i New soOo MAni pPLZ and iM ouT goiNg.. dAT soOo roxEd oOo aND i took tONNEs of pIcciZ todAIzz asweLL lIke of Zoe anD dA oTherZ anD LEWiS saM aLL 3etC.. .. LOL yEAh mA dAIi wAz hELLa kOoL!!! weLL tok to yA lATerZ denZ... o ANdhANnAH sed sHE pUt mA NAme iN foR da cAMp thiNGy ~~
bUa bUAiiiZzZz~~

2004-03-23T23:07:00.000-08:00

hALoOO~~
oMGoDNEzz i HAvNT wriITTeN iN AGes>.<.. shIAT weLL z hRmMZ cNAT remEmBA d AlAST tiMe i WroTE iN heRE... weLL oN saturdAIzz we alL wenT to dA cITy...=D dAYm fuN yeAH we JUS wALKed ArouND wenT to tiMEzONe T FUSION WAZ HELLA KEWL!! oOO bY dA wAIii dEmi iNtrodUcEd mE to HEr fWeND hIS nAMeZ wiLsoN aND hE asKEd iF We go T fuSion dEN he wAz lIKe i hAD to wAIt 2 Hrz for a lOvE gEttY LOL dAT wAz UZ iN dA bOOth tAKeiN soOo MANiI pHoTOZ LOL dAYmm FuNNI.. welL ne wAIzz hE Sed HE wuD cALL nEXt tiME hE iN dA ciTy... mAUHIAHihaU dAYM fuNNI weLL ne wAIzz ABt saturdAIzz yEAH iT roxEd i fiNAlli GOT to sEe AndREw.. hE lOOKs dA saME aS dA picci exCEpT oLDer i GUEss.. OMGOODNEZZ HE tokZ exActlii dA saME aS suM1 ElSe LIke dA voICE n EvEryTHing.. weLL nE wAizz yeAH HEz coOl n ALL.. urmMZ saWww heAPs of AZn gUYs At T FusIOn... alSO we MEt uP wiTh toN anD chiH hAO ETC... iT wAz dAYm fuN... i WorE bOOotZ tHOUGH mY fEet hAD hUrtEd.. hUAIhiUAhiuA o WELLZ dNE we WEre meANt tO go BBaLL to MeEt mEL aND ALINa cOZ elYSiA cAMe tO ciTy aT t fuSion.. uRmZz weLL we were At tiMeZoiNe anD lOSt trAck of tiME aNd dEN LIke bY dA tiME we gOt to bBaLL iT wAz LIke 6 anD eVeryone waNted tO go HOmeZz.. -_____________-"" and URMMZ i sAw ivAN..=D aNd chiANNy eTC... wAH~~ mIng iZ groWing ..... >.< soOn taLLer Den mEeZz.. ivAN hASnT chAnged dAT mUCh bUT lIke heS haD lIL touCh uPZ n stuffZ.. hEHEhHEhe;P welL urMMZ YeAH sAT wAz KewL anD dEe wALked bAk wiF jAY aNd ME ANd shE kINdA figUreD i hAD AN iNterEst IN ivAN aND i guESs shE tokKEd to Ed ANd Ed ASKEd ME aND siNci i HAv dAT whoLe wAii of tHINkiN i JUs toLD hEr flAT oUt yeAh.. aND dEN shE toLD iRenE oN guNBOunD anD shE diDnt nOtiCe mIng IN dA roOm aND so He foUNd ouT ANd ASKed ME... aND i jUS toLeD hIm yeAH aNd hE wuDnt beLieVe ME AT fiRSt.... bUt yEAH goT ThrouGH to HIS hEAd.. aND hE toLD hAnnHA ANd ANd i ThiNk he toLd weEiiIi... aLSo jAY tinKS dAT hE toLD dA resT oF ivANs fWenDzz aND so NOw evEryOne nOEZz nO bIggIIi bUT heii u noe o weLLZ hU cAreZ iF tHeii nOe iTz noT dAt bIg.. i Jus tAke ANd esEptionALii bIg lIKing in IvAn LOL .... i thOt u Noe i Wud BE tElLLiN him buT iN a wAii i tiNK iM glAD mIng toLD ivAn... coZ lLIke dEn i WuDNt bE pUt iN tHE spOt lIghT to teLL HiM or NEtHAngZz.. o WeLLz i toKEd to HiM lIke A few NIghTZ agO wen HE KNew ANd HE SeeMEd pretti NOrmALzz i gueSs yeAH usuAll tokZz.. i tHinK hE tHInkS i duN nOe dAT he nOEZz buT yeAH iTLL aLL get clEAred lAterZ... hAUiHIUaUI weLL n EwAizz uRmMMzz i tokEd to jAy oN dA phoNe yeTSerdAIz weLL yeAH evEryTHAng iZ pretii KoOlZz... uMM aNd dA pASt fEw dAIzz of SkOoL pretti Kewl SoOoO fuNNi stuffz.. anD todAIzz mIchAel hAD hIS hAir dONe im vErri iMpresEd soMe pPlz sEd deii diDnt LIke iT buT iTz waiii bETA dEn b4zzZz.. urMM anD iM reAl clOSe to rEiNALdo noWzz.. LIke yeAH toK to hIm ALotZz.. hE goT a NEw pHOne jUS lIke edlYnz.. uMm i saW A piCci of ONe oF hIS fWenDzz pretii hot.. buT uNfoRtunAtElii hIS yOungEr deN me soO yeAH.. OOO ANd dAT gUY chRis dA onE dAT i toT WEnT to wInthrop dAT i hAD A cruSh oN... yeAH dAT iZ him coZ asHLeiGH ASkEd hIM ANd hE Sed yeAH.. aNd dEn he cAMe to tok to ME.. anD yeAH we WerE jUS tokIN ABt STuFfZzZ.. iT wAz soOoO kOOolLLzz.. alSo diS gUY brocK hE wenT fOR yr 3 anD 4 broCk dA suPPOsedliii hoT oNE iT wAz soO kewL i jUS lIke stOOd dErE tokIN to dEmZz.. hEheh ANd sAm wAz dEre HE toOK mA MOby to tAKe A piccI oF bRock aNd hEwAz wAvINg retARdEdLIiii hEHeh iT wAz KoOlLnEzzZ... oOo mAN i wAz wALKIN uP dA stAIrs to cLAssS i gOt spANked oN dA ASs AGEN...-__________-"" dAYM buT diS tiMe iT wAs shAne... -_________-"" dAYm pPPLz.. oOo aND foUnd oUT dAT tAzZ yeAH he smOkeS APppArentliii wAttA fAg ASss uRgh... HEheh yeHA i tokEd to reiNAldo ANd dANe ALotZz todIAzZ.. oiOOo anD ME ANd dANiELLe wenT to dA mOOsiC teAchEr to AUdiTIOn fOR dA vocALs enSeMbLE soOo KOoL excEpt i WAs soOoOo nErvoUS i StUFfEd A fEw tiMEs.. buT heii We bOTh goT in YAY!! soOo nExt weEk wE aRe goIn fOr oUr voCAl enSemBLe prActISe... yAY=D welLL hRmzz newAizz.. nE tHng eLSe dAT hAPpeNEd..oOo aND hANnAH aLso aSkEd ME to go tO dA kOreAn chUrch cAMp thiNgo shE seD mAnii hOt AzN ppLZ goiNz.. sHE reAlliiiiiii wAnTs mE toooo goo buT like iwuDnt noE nE 1.. dErE coZ deii ALL KOreAN ANd shiT soOO yeAH.. buT heii iT CUD bE *couGH*fuN*couGh* LOL.. hEHEH AS LOng AS hANnAH stiKX wIF mUAzz.. -_____-'' uRmZz aLSo shANe chUcKed A spAcK to deii sOMe kINdA piCtUre mAtt gAy fAg thIngy anD hE criEd bUT hEz finE nOw wAttA weirdO.. -___________-"" spANk mA ASs dA fAggOt.. lol hHEhe ne wAIzz ooO on dA wAIi bAck fRom SkOoL i dRoPPed mA pHOne SHiAT oN dA cEMEnt jUS b4 wE wLAKed oN SAnd dAYm iT.. yeAHiT jus goT scRAtcHEd in A few PLAcEs soOO yeHA iTZ ok... o mAN i wAz aAT T fuSIon aND elYSiA kEpT diSsin mA pHOne liKE iT wAz dA enD of dA woRlD.. FUK ShE SHud jUS shuT her TRAp i nOE iTZ A gAY pHOne dTAz coZ iTZ cHEaP anD i goT a chEAP oNe so I cNAbuY bETA one neXt yeAr whIcH i Am.. aaND EvEn if i Wont A suBtItute nOW i wANt iT atLEASt to hAv A cAMerA n aLL u gEt mEeEzz.. i MEAN elYSiA kOOl n aLL buT dAT jUS piSseD me oFf totAliiizzzZ... -_______-"" yEAh weLL i thiNK i sEd ALl ABt mA weeK o ANd mA dADZ bAk.-____________________-"" hOw jOyOUs.,... greAt iLL hAV da bEST weeEk EvA..*sarcASm voICe* yeAH weLL dATz ALll cATch yA lATerZz
bAU BAUiZzzzZz~~

2004-03-20T06:17:00.000-08:00

hALoOoO~~
weLL todAIzz is sATurdAIzz iZ sATurdAIzz ANd i WEtn to dA ciTy wIf ed jAY ii chri eLysiA HAn i tinK dATz all.. well nE wAIzz ton CHiH hAO etC cAme..-_______________-"" wIF dErE lIL gROuP cHIh hAO roxX!1 bUt toNy bEiNg A lIL bIATch URGH i hATe hIm soOoOoo mUch dAYm iT.... weL n wAizz we WeNt tO dA pLAzA ANd weNt to cAriLLoN citY aND weNt tiMEzoNe gElAre And t FuSioN dAt rOcKEd... we SAw ANdReW jAyz uNcLE hEZz PretII keLZ i duNNo BUT heZ reAL kewlzz.. weLL uRMmM.... mAN we toOOk veEnus pHotoS ANd we WErE LIke tAKin ONe eAch SO iT tOOK AGes ANd dErE werE soOoOOo mANIII pPLA wAItinG oUtSIdE ALwAIzz ASkIN if We doONe or nOtzz ... hUAhiuHui fuNNi stuffZ urmM anD wAt ElSe i GueSs it WAz prettI fuN we ALl went fOR jAvA jUIcE.. hAUhIUAhiA urMM ANd dErE wAz dIS fReAKiii guY hU cAM euP to dA buS StoP ANd wrOte 10/10 ON dA clEAr gLAss thiNgiii aNd sAyin dAt jAy 10/10 aND hAd evil lAugh FREAKY mAn i gUeSs jAY dA moSt freAKed oUt ABtz it.. urMMz we WENt to tiMEzONe ANd we Were hAviN soO mcuH fuN dEN toN heAd ANd hIS lIL gANg shOwed Up toOK ovEr Our ddR mAchiNe... dAYm it stOOPid fuK heAd.. i pAYed LIke 10 bus AN d oNli pLAyEd A fEw gAmes shIT dATz riP off ANd i didNt evEN eNd uP bUYing a preZzie or DA mOBy AccESori shIT i AM soO pISseD oFf.. o WeLL iT wAz pretii fuNZ... urMMz n ewAIzz i gOt diS vNEus Photo dAT iM noT evEn iN... FUKK wATtA wASte of moNey weLL n EwAIz.. UrmMZ i DuNNO wAT to saii.. i saW diS reAL hOt gUY bUT evEryOne kEep sAYing iTz sTevEn buT IM 100% sure WeLL 99 % sure dAt iT wASnt hIm... kennEth IS a GAY moLe.. we sEd BAiII ANd hE stUk hIS rudE fiNGer UPz.. bIAtch .. weLL i gUeSs iM ovA "reTArdEd MAN" butt dErE wILL ALwIAz zBE suMfin vErii vErii verrii ANnoyIng wALl dErEzz... weLL i thiNk i LIke ivAN weLL noT yetZ Enuf bUT i WANt to LIke ivNA ne wAIzz u nOE wAT I meAN.. i nOe I will ANd i wANt tO buT suMfin iZ jUS noT riite?... yEHA suMfin La dATz.. weLL dTAzz ALl i cNA saii for riTe ABt nOWZ...
BuA bUAzz~~

2004-03-19T00:06:00.000-08:00

hAlOOOoOOoO~~~
weLL ITZ FRIDAIZZZZ WOOOHOOOO!!!! weLL oKIz.. UrmMZ i StiLL duNNOz If iM goNNA do Nee ThAng dIS weEkenD buMMer IF nOt..>.< uRmZz nE waizz YESATerdAII oMgoODneZzz wAz soOOo hILAriOUS ANd fuN~~ hUAiUAiUAHiuAiuh soOOOoooO SoOOO fuN.. cOz i sAT aT dEmiZ tABle Agen ANd danIelLe cAme ANd so diD mIAchAel dAYm fuNNii... dAT remiNdZ mE i hAV to gEt MIAcHAel A pReZzie HIS bdAiI NExt WeeK>.< hE bEtA givE mE oNE dAYM it... uRrMMm nE wAizz wAt tO sAii welL i hAd coOKing todAIzz It wAz OKIZ we MAdE sAusAgE roLLS AnD guAcamOLie LOL... moley moley moley well nEw Aizz LetS nOt SpeAK of dAT EvEr AGenZz uRMmm dAYm I bEtA do SUmfIn dIS sAT>.< SOO FUKIN BORED WeLL NEw Aizzz hRMMM iM gEttINg sLeepIIi vErII slOWlIii.. cANt thIN of Ne thANg ToOO sAiii... hUAHIUAHiAUH o YeAH i tok to jArrEd ALOtZ lOlzZz.. aLwAizz cALLin HIm cuTe ANd pInchIN hIS cHeeKZ LOL... jArRed rOX!! urMM nE wAizz.. i HAd Sport fuN bUT soOOOoOo dYAM hot~~>.< freAKin heLL i wAz mElTiNg...>.< newAiZzz hRmMZ i gOTTa dO ASsIgNmenT nEwAIzz alWAizz tiMe oN sUndAIzz.. hUIAHiHA weLL NEwAizz wAT to sAiii OMg nuThin to dAYm sAiii... well daTZ aLL dEn
bUA bUAiiiiiZzzZ~~~

2004-03-17T05:56:00.000-08:00

hALoOoO~~
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buA buAiIZiiz~~

2004-03-16T01:28:00.000-08:00

haLLLLLLoOOOooOOo~~
well hrmmm todAIzz iZ tUESdAii.... sKewL wAz OK bUt It wASnT dAT excItiNg todAIzz.. i HAd dANcE todAIzz dAT wAz pretiii gUDZ... urMMm hEhehEHh dANe ANd sHANe cAMe to SKewL todAIzz dANe dA fUnNNi mAn.. urmZ hUIAhiuA o And tAryN's fWeND iZ coMMin to OUr SkewL.. TAryN toOk mY phOne ANd She cALled AaRoN dEn i wAz tryIng to StoP him form pIckIng uP AnD dEn Like dEii WeRe 1 MEtRe AwAIi toKin On dA pHone oMgoOdnEz...LOL bUt fuNNi shiZzZ~~ hEhHE i DIdNt lOSe daT mUch ThoUgh... sO dATz oKIz.. ArGH i OnlI hAV $3.11 ArGH>.< i NeEd crediTz...>.< *siGh* o wELLz fEeL reLAli sorri for me mOommI thoUgh i USed soOO mUch moNey lATeliiii... yAHuHZ.. urmMM nE wAIzz i hAV ANoTher ASsIGnemNT due dIS weEk uRgh i wiLL jUs stRAT toMoroOW Errr dA teAcHEr HAD A piSsy fiT AT US AGen.. ANd She Sed dESe AssIGnmEnTS Are nT tHIgnZ u cNA coMPleTE ovA niGhT oR evEn 2 dAYzz.. bUT My lAsT ASsIgNmenT i dId IN 3 hOUrZ.. wTf? dEiii tInk diS iS hArd iM goNNA so AcE mY SkEwL diS yeAr... LOL foOOLzZ uRmM nE WaiZz ... iM gonNA hAV tO sPEnd quIte BAit of MOney dIS weEkEnd i wAz pLAnNign to bUY some clOthEs aND wAtcH movIE aNd bUy sumfin ElsE bUT i cANt rememBEr ANd ApPParAntlii Itz mIchAelS bdAIi nExt weEk soOo mite bUY suMfin sHmAlLL vErii sHmaLL-___-"" uRmM newIAz hrMmz i AmMM sooOO into kOreAN mUSic RiGHt nOwWzzZ.... 1TyM sOoOO roX AHHHHHH!! aND LeXy sHE hAs KewL soNgz urMMm nE wAIz... i FeeEL reAL diStAnt To ME APPEx fWenDz riIite NoW!!-___________-""" ='( *siGH*... O weLLz aLWAIzz can cAtch uP wIf dEmZzZ...=D tOtAliii uRmZz wAT wAz i goNNA sAYz..yESTerdAiiZ? nuThIn mUch Abt yeSTerdAIi .... weLL i LL proB wrIte AGen LAterZ At nIght... soOoOo dAtZzz ALL....
BuA BuAizzz~~

2004-03-15T00:52:00.000-08:00

hAloOOOO~~
iTZ mOndAIizz wOoPdIdOo~~-__________-"" rIIite nE wAIzz urmM jus cAMe bAk fRom skewL nOt vErRi lOng AgO uRMmZ.. soOoOO mANII pplZ diDnt coMe to sKewL iT wAz fweAkiii ASs... uRmMm sHAne ANd dAne diDnt cOMe to SkeWl weIrd... ErRrr nE wAizz oMgoOdNEZz Amy wAz chuKin A pisssY aT mAtt bcoZ sHAne sEd AMy wANted TO Ask HIm oUT bUT mATt dIDnt Do nEtHAnG OMGOODNEZZZ liKE we gIv A fuk?... cHeh sHe mAKes such A hUge dEAL ABt iTZzZ ... we All SerIOusli dOnt cAre And dEiii soOo imMAture WhY IzzIt sucH a bIg dEAl goIn tosuM1 ANd sAYing dAt U lIke hiM... oMgOoDnezZ SpaZ pplZ.. URGH NE waizZ TOdaIZZ WaZ FUnnI WE wErE TrYin To MakE DanIeLLe BeLIVE jOSh wAz gAY LOL SHe ActUALlY fELL for it But yEAH aMy toLd hEr iN thE End iT wAz sOoO dAYM funIIi thoUgh... LOL n EawAIzz urmZz yeSterDAIii i Did Nt gEtto WrIIte A bLog AfTA chURch soOo i WiLL fIll yAz iNz... uRmM eRr i fiNIshed mA ASIgnMEnT in lIke 2 hrZ oMgoOOdNEzz soOoo dAYM eASii UMM ANd mEt dAT fWeaKi aSs gUY.. tiNk i ALreADi sEd dAT thOugH uRmZz i remMebA neEdINg tO sAY sooO mANy thiNgZ buT cANt remMebEr.... urMm o YEAh mite gO ouT diS sAt hOpefuLLi... plZ pLZ pLZ uRmMmmMZzZz.. buT if nOt dEN i WiLL go cAroUSel WiF rEinALdo eTC........ i Tink i MitE buY soME clOthES whIle Im At iT eHz?.. HAHAUihIAUHIUHiuHAU uRm neWaIzz i Got AnotHer ASsinGmenT dUE dIS friDAY dAYm iT i hATe ASsiGnmentz eXcEpt dIS oNE iZ preTTI eASy so yeAH i gUESs iTZ okIZ.. dA kewL thiNg iZ i sLAK off At SKewL anD jUS do At HOme eASierR dAt wAizz.. urmmMm gUYZ guYZ gUZY wElLL.. AS UsUAll i DON NOT LIKE shAne yEt *PHEW* .... LOL todAIz waz soOo fArni urRmm i SAt oN tREyNZ taBle AgEn ANd i sAt NExt to WILLL bUt nEwAizz wILLZ dAYM kewL heheh We do dAt cOUpLE wiNK thAng soOOo fuNNi dEMi wAz nExt to Us jUS thiNKin fweAkIIi ppLZ...HUAIUAHiuahIah yeAH so we kewl NoWwZz n evErythANg but uRmMmzzz Abt reAl guY stuFZz i stIlLL tiNK i wUd mOSt pRobABlIii Like ivAN AtM i meAnz i nOe wAt AdriAN saYs iSnt trUE but iTd BE sooO kewL if iT wAz.. dAYm nE wAIzz i tinK dATz AB tALl i hAv to SAyy wrIT enowZz mite WriTe AGen lAtEr toNIght... ALso mite caLL jaY welL dTA ALlz
bUA bUAizzz~~~

2004-03-13T18:27:00.000-08:00

hAloOOo~~
weLL iTs suNdAY moRnINg-________-"" i WokE uP at 9:30 Y I DUN NOE... nE wAizz hAv to gO cHurCh lATeRzZ... ARGH i ALso hAv tO fiNIsh dA asSiGnmEnT todAIz>.< weLL NE wAIzz uRmMMMmM.... oOOOo dErE IS dIS pErSon i Met on Gb tOK abT WEIRD=| HUAHuAH weL ne wAizz urmMZ.,.. wAt cAN i saY sInCe iTZ dA morniNg nuThin mUch hAS hAppenEd... -_______-"" iM oN mSn.. LOL if dAT iZ of NE iMPortAncE uRmMm HUAHU i TiNK i ShuD hAv goNe oUt yEStERdAii coZ likE i StAyed hOme cOZ i tOt i ResT And do ASsiGnmEnt buT i DiD lIke nUThIN>.< sOOo SHuD hAv jUS goNE ouTZ.... weLL ed jUS sEd We mIte go wATch fiGhhtINg temPTionZ nExt WeEk.. LOL gueSs rEinALdo wiLL hAv to JUs go WifoUT mUAz...hEHHE lalALlAlALala uRmM wElLL dErE iS sEriOSUli nuthIN to WriTe soOo yeAh.. gonNA gOO nOwzz
BAU BUAizzz~~

2004-03-13T01:00:00.000-08:00

haLoLooOLoloLOL~~~
wElL iTZ sAturDAizz AnD i dIDnt EnD uP goiN ouTZ.. i Got iNviTed To dA mOvIes by rEiNaldO bUt dEii diDnt End uP goInz.. pLus i DidNt hAV NE 1 tO gO wiFZ... shIt I aM so DAYm lAziii i WAz mEANt tO do mY uNniqUE portfoLio but i stiLL doNE liKE jAck Shit mUSt dO todAIzz ANd tomOroZ...>< aCtuALli ASlOng i FiNISh A drAft of IT todAIzz itlLL be oK 2MOro.. WelL ne WAizz uRmMZ mY pArenTz Are oUt oMgoODneZz mY siSter WAz oN dA comP ALl dAY wAtchIn Anime OMfG LikE hElOOo doN u hAV N EthiNg beTA toDo dEN bASe yOUr sAturdAiZz on ANime?.. omgoOdnEzz nE wAizz uRmMm wAT to SAy.. nuThin InTerStIng much hAppEnEd.. oOo i caLLed adRiAn yEstErdAiz.. i TinK it KIndA hELpeD mE.. wElll APPArAntLii.. hE lIEKZ diS gURl iN hiS yEAr cALLed kIRSTen oR suMfing... HUAiHUA wATtA frEak he KeEpz sAYin dAT sHE gAvE hiM hEr pHOne NUmBA bUT weNevA hE caLLs iT dOEsnT wORk... LOL heLlooo AnD weN he mSg hEr SHe ALwAIzz dAY dAT sHE diDnt gEt... toK ABt avoIdinG hEii?.. WelL i duNNo ANd i DOn cAre coZ totALii ovA hiM.. nE wAIzz iM dON beLieVe in dA whOLe cruSh tHAng LIke iF u like A gUY dEn OK.. doN hAv to gEt oBseSsivE or mAke oTher UYs noT An oPtiOn n Emore... u jUS eMBrAcE EvEryThing ANd iF yA gET lUki dEN wOOpdidoOO anD den u ignOre dA oTher gUYZ buT uNtiLL dEN derE Are suCh rULeZ to cRushIng thAT u hAv to bASe yoUr crUSh lOvE EffOrt oNto jUS1 gUY i MEAN kEep yOUr oPtioNs open rite?,.... totALiii.. WeLLL dATz wAT im doIng emBrAciNg evEryTHang no sUch ruLeS buT u nOE id hAvE to saY ivAN iS A LiL inTeRSeSTing... eh;P hUAHiAHIUhIAU WELL ne aaWAIzz iTz EmiLyZ bDAy todAIzz buT i cuDnt bE screWed to gO to hEr bDAy... >.< iM noT bEing MEAN i JUs trYing to mELLow bAk ABiT oN a friEnf tANng...;P WeLL ne wAIzz uRmMZ... aDriAN kEePZ sAYIng tHAT hE HEArd aNd ThinKS IvAN LiKEZ me oR dID... LIKE HELLO iF hE dID i Wud nOoOoeEe And Wud HAv mAdE evEryThAng difFErEnt bCoZ u Noe ivAN reAL nicE guY heLoOo.. ANd hEZ liEK THE tOtAL oPPosITe to Like eWwWW gUYZ.. toTALiii lIke i Sed gUD cATch toTaliII... buT yEAh nOw i tInk lOOk iT wUD hAV BEen NicE iF ivAn dID lIke ME,,.. bUT fAct iZ i nOE hE nevA diD ANd Will nEvA in FuTure NE wAizz so ForgEt ABt itZ... toTaliii=P wELL nE wAIzz bESidEZ dAT uRmMmz i tOK to Dee dA oTher niTe ASwelL so DYAm fuNNI sPEnt AGes juS crAckINg up ovA one stTe meAnt Abt melZ pHOne...LOL WeLL ne awAizz iT waZ kEwl To tOK to heR hAvnt toK to HEr in A whiLE hEiii.. yeAh well uRmm ArgH iM ruNNing out Low iN crEdiTZ jEeeeEee.. iTZ oNLI beEn A month i thINKzzzZ o WeLL Im goNNA bE creDiTlESs fOR a WhiLe... i Also hAv To Set uP mY mmS thAng so I cAN seND pIccIZ...>.< i Neo nOwZz... bUT ne awAizz uRmMZ iTZ onLI 5:15 dEii go bY fAst ... buT uRmMZ hEii i FEel Like goin sWImIng.. hOW iZ dAt pOSsibLe i gOT inviTed to ThreE dIffErEnt plAcEs buT diDnt End uP goiNg to AnY lIek wAT da.. inviTed to moviEs aND sWimMIng foR birthdaII PArTAY ANd mOviES bY reiNALdo aND gARbO bY adriAn And sTill i End uP AT HoMe... uRgH dAT suX -___________-"""""" o WelLzz i wiLL pArTY neXt weEkzZ... urmmMmmM wTA to SAYyyYY... hrMSM ABt goSs And mY opiNioN weLL dA oNli thIng dAt ivE heArd worth oPinIonAting Abt iZzz......... chOk aNd hAnnAH sO shuD ShuddDup AnD gEt MArRied ALreAdiII jEEsE.. uRmm chANel fiGht mEAN buT iF dEii reLAli doN liKe hEr dEn NIIIIICEEE!! uRmMm i DUnnO iM in A cRuEl mOOd.... LOL AdRiAn kEPt sayiNG hOW hE dOESnt liEK HIS lIfE ANd SkewL bcOz u noe lOtsA ppLZ doN lIek hIm.. weLL yeAH hE wAz dEscRibIng ANd stUFfZ... aND saYing y dEiii All ANnoY ADN giv hIm shiT And StUff bUt lIke iTZ bAsicAlii AlWAIzz Abt mY fWenDzz oR SUmfIN sOO i jUS sAY UrMM ok.. weELLL nE wAIzz mAtT hE iS ONe mAJor iSsUE oMgoODnEZz HE IS sOO pErVErTE dANd diSguSting.. urgH hE coMeZ ne WheRE nEAr ME AGEN i wiLl kIk hIs As... eWWwWw sO OO peRvErTEd -__________-""" ne wAIzz URmMZ... i DuNNo tOOdIAz wAz PretII kEwlZ i jUS chILL outtZz At hOmEZz... URGH i hAte my fuckIn sIS shE fULl oN shOuted tAke oFf dA fuKin mOOsic oMfg lIEK HEllOO wAT u toO fuKin lAzZii to JUS coME ovA ANd sAy nicELii cAN u tuRn dOWn DA mUSic OMFG SHe HAs goT serIOUs iSsUEs ANd Will BE wILLing To pAy fOR hEr THerApy sEsSIOnS ANd aNDgEr mAnAgemEnt cLasSeS -____-"" urMmM.. tiNk i MIte cALl A few pPLZ tonIteSsS... yeAH bOreD weLL dATz ABt ALllz ... goTta gOeZ
bUA BUAizzZz~~

2004-03-12T00:23:00.000-08:00

hUaLoOOo~~
WeLL hrm frIdAizz YaY!! WeEkEnD i WoULd BE ExciTed bUT iM jUS stAyin HomeZ i gueSs... dOO mY asSigNmeNt..>.< urmMM ne WAiZz toDaIAzzz wAzz soOo kewL.. iT wAz mAjoR fuN ... o And dESe preSs crew cAM e to OUr sKewl tO intErviEw PPlz And tAke pIctUres And fIlm uS.. werid-_______-'' buT i TriEd tO stAy AwAy fRom dA cAMerAz... eEkZ.z.. ne wAIzz urMM i SpenT ALoT of mY dAY wIF sHanE rEiNALdOO eTc.. HehH iT wAz soO fuNNi rEiNaldo wAz suPPOseD tO ASK deMI ouT toDAizz bUT ALl mE fWeNDz foLLowed mE ANd like It wAz ONli suPPOsed to Be ME aShlEiGH deMI aNd jOSh thErE.. soO yEAh hE diIDnt dO it jUS goT aLL pANiCky LOL... yeAh nE wAizz uRMM aPPareNTly SHANe AnD AarOn hAd A biT oF A fiGHt i DUnNo bUT dEi aRent hAnging ArouNd eAch oTher NE moRe sHanE hAngZ out Wif reINaldo ANd dAne aNd wiLL etC hEHHE buT iTz KewlZz... uHAuAHAU AnD sHanE kEpt drINkIng mY scHWePPes -_________-"" hEHEH iTz AIghT thOUgh .. uRmzzZ hEHhE riTe nOW mE lIsTenINg tO D-12 mY bAnD i LuRRvVv dAts soNg~~ HUIAHiUAHiUA.. UrmM i hAd cookIng wE mAde cuPcAKeZ buT i don reLALi eAt cup cakesZz.. so juSt gAve DEm AwAY to shAne rEiNaldo ANd elISe... urmMm wOw i didnt tOK to Zoe thAT mUch todaiZz.. oOo aNd aMy LiKezZ shANe..-______________________-""" oOo aND u nOE i DeCiDed dAt IM nOt goNNa lIke guYZ lIke 1 gUY wAii oF u nOE wAT i MEAN.. jUS LiKe iM noT goNNA shovE pplZ aWay jUs bCoZ i LIkE a Guy buT sEe WhIch ONe aCtuALlil LikEZ ME!! sEe i tinK i Like IvAN And SHANe bUT Im not goNNa oFfIciALllii lIke dEM coZ dATz juS wAStIng mA tiME if yA noE wAT i MeAn.. LIke eSpecIALli iF deiII nOe U liEK DEM And dEii doN do neThAng ABt iT... sEe iLl ADmItt i fLirt aLot wIF sHAne ANd hE admiTTed dAT he flIrtS wIf mE... u nOe bUT dOEsnT meAN i m absoLuteli ObsESsEd Abt HImz... =P HEhEh iTW Az fuN thOUgh We sAT oN da beAnbAGs ANd stUfFzz... HEhEH ;P wELL oMgoODnEZz eVEry gUY i tOK to mY fWenNDzz ASk iF i lIke hiM.. jEEse cANt ijUS toK to DA gUY? .. urgh oMgygoODnEZz mAtt iS soOoo diSguStiNg lIke hE soOO uRgh I oNO diSguSting thoUgh.. suCh A pervErt -_______-"" AnYwAiIZ urmMM u noe TodAIzz i JUs foUnd oUt That TriShEn iS mEesHAz bRoTher OMGOODNEZZ... tOK aBt whOA~~ tr5IshEn hAS A gUd bOdy;P... hUAihIUAHIUHAIU buT n EwAIzz bAK to ShAne.. wAT cAN i SaY hRmz hEZ pretII kewlZ bUt i thOt hE wAz dA shALlow gO fOr pretTi TypE sOO u neo I waz jUs mUkIN arOUnd hAvIN suM fUn... buT apParenTlii hE sEd dErE cuD be pOSsIbIlty To go ouT wIF aMY anD LiKE wElll u NeEd to SeE AmY to NOe wAT im tokIn AbtZ.. buT whOA u noe hE ISnt dAT shALoowwW aS i tHot...=| bUT he Iz PoPulAr aNd kinda cUte... HEZ reALlI fuNNi thOUgh.. HAUHAU wE wErE juS siTtin oN dA saME bEAn bAG u NOe cHiLLin mY fWeNDz WeRe oN dA oTher BEAN bAgZ nEAr bY.. ANd YEAH we weRe jSU plAyiNg Wif EAch oTher hAIr anD mUkIN arouND wif ouR fEetZ.. aNd yeAH ... hEhEHHE soOo fuNNI... i tinK dAtz ABt ALl i cAN sAY... exCept i WudNt sEe mYseLf wiF shANe... jUS nOt LiKe ME.. oR tyPe... i ALwAIzz iMAgIned mYsElf Wif tALL aZn duDe u NOe nEvA thOt ABt shAne kiNdA tyPe. i mEAN shAne iZ aUSsIE juS A biT tALLeR dEn Me ...LOL... hehEHEH o wEll i DuNNoz.. WeLL nEwAiz i hAd A PretII cOOLL dAYy YEAh... dATz aLL
bUA bUAizz~~

2004-03-11T04:42:00.000-08:00

HuaLlOOo
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buA bUAizz~~~

2004-03-10T07:37:00.000-08:00

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bUA bUAizz~~

2004-03-08T06:08:00.000-08:00

huAlOoOo~~
WeLL hrmMZ toDaiZz i WAz FiDdlIng AroUnd Wif mA pHoNe... shIt m8 pIss ME oFf iTz sOoO coMPlIcated... aiShh>.< ARGH y cANt it jUS ISmplY work StoOPid ThiNg n Ew Aizz mY daDdy coMEZ soOn.. i tinK mAYeb 2mOro.. dAYm i doN meAN to Be mEAn or NEtHIng buT wen he coMES soOo much ChAOs And iTz jUS mOre reLeXed ANd cALm WEn hEZ noT heRe yA gET mezz?... nEw Aizz gotta clEAN mY roOm dEnZ.. Xtra xTra xtRa clEAN mY daDdy lIek A clEANiNg fReAk.. evEryThing hAst to BE xtRA cleaN aNd if iTz not bIg porbLEmSzz.. shOUtZ off hIS bLodDy HEAd.. so dAYmm AnNOyINg ANd iT iSnT evEn scAryYy NE mOre so uSed To dA sAme lEctUre ovA And ovA And oVa aGenZ.. NE wAIzz urmM sKewl wAz pretiI okIz... aMy ANd Aaron weRe AwAy mAn evEry WeeEk sum1 iS aWay..=| HUhUHuahUAH and hAyLey She hAs ofFiciAlli goNe oUt of oUR gRouP WoOoOhOoo and she finALli stopz coMMing tO mY hOUSe... -______________-"" nE waiZz sHe nOW haNgZ wif dA dorkEZez sarAh And Dem.. bIgGerST GEEkz IvE SeEn iN mY lIfE...>.< URgh nE wAIzz URmMM mAN i got 2 ASsignMentZ dUE diS WeeK anD hAvnT doNe mUch iM so dEAd jEE iM so LAziI buT don worII ishAll Work my Ass Off ANd trY finIsh ALl drAft ArticlEs 2moro den produCe On WedNEsdAY ANd alSo stArt uniquE ME vErRi guD all PlAnNed oUtZ..=D urmM hrMm wATe eLSe to WritEz oO.. WE moVed into dA proPer bUilDingZ at skewl nuthIN speciAL actUAlli QuitE gAY jUS A Huge roOm wIf diffErerenT tAbLe seCtIOnz wATtT lAme i tinK i Liked it bA$ inDa CRapPy rOOmz AtLEast DEI hAd WALLLZ... lIEk hELlOO we cAN affORd wALlZ cant we? POssiBli soMe mOre doOR z AsWeLL.. mAn dEii wAtse mONey oN reAL stoOPid stufZ Like ZStooPId fEatUres dAT to nuThiN ... weriDoZ Urmm Oo im kInda bacK inot my oLd songz lIke sArAI lAdieS hUAHIUAH suCh a Kewl shE like girl vErSion oF EMinEm...;P weLL spEnt alL dayy oN da NEt eAtIng And plAyiN Wif mA pHOne... WAHhh~~ wATtA slAK i AM... i pLAyed gUnbOUnd siNcE a lOng WhiLE hUAHuahAU stiLL got dAt toUch ALthOgh did VerRy ShiAt AftA WhiLE...>.< stILl fuN thOUgh.. mIng iS nOW sAme rANk AS Me soOo fAst... Argh..>.< uRmM nE wAizz Appex PPlz hAv DerE riVercRuise 2MOro='( anD i M noT goiN coZ i cAnt gEt iN...='( i Wud do AlMOst nE tHAng To go APpex...ARGH dayM iT... stoOPid weLL i tinK daTZ abt iT O anD.. i tokKEd tO jAY YestErday kEpt wArniNg mE ABt "retArDed mAn" ExcEpt i Will nEvEr nO uNleSs suM1 eXplAiNS to Me.. buT he cALlz mE anD stUff ANd i cANt rEalLi dO ne tHIn ABt datzz aNd i DuNNoz i FeEL comfoRtAble tokIN to hImz i guess,... suMtiemZ dErE iS nuThIN to say buT yeAH iT stIlLz kEwl And relAxing I guESs WeLL datZ alLz... P.S dEb Got A nEw phOne toO iT soOO roX buT iTz plAn so i cuDnt hAv gottEn iT ne wAIz...-__________-'' so unfAIrz .. now datzz all!!
bUA bUAizzz~~

2004-03-07T05:45:00.000-08:00

huAlLllOoOoO~~
Welll hrmMMZ suNdaY sHIt m8Zz... i hAV soOOo mUCh HW ANd diIDnt DO NE tHAngZ>.< U noEZ i GoT mY PhoNe yEsterDaY...=D kewLneZz tryIng To tAke pIcciZ oF Me doOgIzz bUT u NOe DeII keEp moviNg >.< buMheAdZ... nE wAiZz letS See urmM i ODn reAlLi tOK to Ed nE moreZ evEr sInCE shE go APPeX she AllL diStAnt and craaPZ o weLL... dEe StiLl da SaEM=D URmMm i toK to JAy toDaiZ dAT wAz PretII oKIz... uRmmM abId soOO gAy LOL hE don nOE mE buT ignore ME >.< buMhoLeZ nE waiZ uRmm ivAN And sAM so fArnIIiII mAde a CluB fORm YUGIO AnD dEn chAngE to pOkemON soOo fuNNI i AM A pokEbALl LOL FunNIZ stUffZ nE wAizz ErRmMZz wAt elSe cAN i Say hEii mEll goT a pHonE OSo kewlNeZz... woW nUthin To sAy -_____________-"" HI CHRI if ur readin dis...=D mY blOg SKiN roX jAy chou mAtiZ;P urmM ne wAiZz gOt ShiT lOAd OF work to DoOZ.. weLL bEtA wriTe suM goSs uP erEZ ... irnE iS pretTi nIcE n ALl iM kEwl wiF datZ.... jAY STiLL kEwl n All bESt buDdI to tok TooOZ iM clOSer wiF MElZz nOWz... =D duNno y Dat iZ..=| HUAiHAuiahiuH buT NE wAIzz mE n ed nOt OSoO guD veerRi fAr... kEep giving ME weiRd coLd fEelIng LikE shE OS hiGh n mIghTY coZ sHE go ApPex >.< sHE so BEtA bOt ReaD diS... noT meAnIng dAT shE StUck uP oR nE tHIng buT soOo diStAnT fRom mE now LIke shE don Tok To MUAZz vErRi dIStuRbiNg... buT we HAvE nuThIN to TOk AbtZ nEwaizz so i guESs dAtz ok.. *sigh* iDUnOOz o WelL hu caReZ Skewl iZ pretTi KewlZ goT toOnnEz of fweNDzz AlTouGh noT da SAME As mE oRigINal Azn buddiZ=P buT yeAH aTleASt i HAv fWeNDz mY ass WiLL so gEt kIKed if i DOn fiNSh hW>.< mE soOoo lazII AlreaDi falLin bAKz oN hw>.< urmm ne waiZz Got kInda LOst in NB ToDAizz lOoking fOr sANgmI onI hOUSe mY goOODnEzz probABlI nO NB REALLI weLLlz cAN GEt ArouND bA mAsElZ.. wALk ArouND foR agews>.< fEeT HuRTZ hUAIhIUAha nE wAizz uRmm TiNK datZ abT iTZ.. o AnD aftA tokIn t0o jAy mE geTtIn reaL freAked ouT abT "retArdEd mAn" maN wiSh i Cud uNDErStAnd wOt jAY iZ tRyIn to SaYyY to MUAz =S coNfuSed m8zz... uRmM nE wAizz bEtA go Do SUm hWZ .. o And LEt ME jUs AdD oNe sKewl FwenD hu fAvoUrZ me ALoT iZ reAL boAstFul buT shE niCE n ALl wAtTA WeirDo buT yeAh iTz okiz... "reTarDed" mAn scArII mAyBE i Shud jUS stAii AwAIi fRom hiM anD lOSe All conTacT LOL....;P welLL yeAh nOW dATzz ALl .. mE go hW noWzzz
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2004-03-06T02:32:00.000-08:00

hAlLLlOOoOOoO~~~
YAY i GoT mY pHoNE tOdaiZz...=D EeEe iTZ soOO kEwlZ.. alThOUgh iTz a bIt biG buT heii StIll kEwlZ... i gOt da mC60... buT dEn Wen i Go oVA sEAS i WiLL bUY dIFf ONE;P... gUD EuFZzZ FoR nOWZz....hEEEE=D uRmMrmMm lEt SeE SHIT oMgoODnEZz i HAvNT doNe nE thANg for mY nEwsPApEr Im IN suCh DeAD ShIT hAVnT doNE nE tAHng For mY UNiQuE ME ASsIgNmEnT EiTHErZzzZ.... >.< mS wOOD iS bIAtch ShE mADE duE dATE eARlIEr wAtTa lIL shiZ mUThA fuKA...>.< nE wAIzz i tinK dATz Abt aLL i WNAted To SAyZz
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2004-03-05T16:32:00.000-08:00

haLLlLLooOOoOo~~~
WeLL HrmMm.. IT iZ 8:30 IN dA moRnING AnD i WoKe uP diS eArlI bCoZ goiN tO cArOUsEl tO gO lOOk At mObYZ...XD fUN fUN fun Ne wAizz.. my AUnTY wilL bE coMMIng nE MinUtE nOWzzZ o WhoOp-____-''' urmMm.. yeSterDaY niGht I wEnT to SleEp aT 9:30 WeLL i Jus lAY doWn iN mY bEd lIStEniNG to MUsiC... cO Zu Noe I wAz ReAlLI wiPed ouT>.< ne WAizz Den At LIke 11:15 aDriAN cALLed ME... bIg ShOCkEr=| nE waIZz We ToKKed ABt StuFfZ n aLL... ANd u Noe iT wAz wAiiI Easier To Tok To HIm den I tOt... i ThoUghT u NoE a BIt *acCkkk* WeiRd... bUt nAW it wAz KEwL... den He ASKEd IF He cUd cALL Or noT TOdaY oR suMFinG -_______- ''' uRm LIke i caRe AnD lIke i cAN saY nO... *dUH* nE wAizz *UrgH* ME eyEz r SeRiOUsli tIreD >.< o WeLl i Hav to wAke uP eaRli 2moRo ASweLL *ARGH* *sigh* The tHingZ i DO FoR peoPLez-__________-"" WeLL daTZ aLL
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2004-03-05T05:14:00.000-08:00

hAlLllOoOOoO~~
m8 mE SoOOo bOreD oN fRidAy nighT>.< urmMm.. WeLL jAY aND dEm All WeNT To bBalLl aPPArAnTli vErRi fuNZ.... hUAuHAUah kNew i shUd hAv GoNe... sumhOw fEeL liKE eD dON wAn Me toOo goEZz... -.-;; mAyBe sHE rAtHEr ME noT bE dErE Eh? o WElll nE wAiZzz urmMM mAn JANEy AnnOyiNg Me wIf HEr bOI toYZ oBsESsIOnz...so ANnOYiNG m8Z... eEk>.< n Ewaizz UrmMm mE GOIn To LoOk fO rmoBy 2mOro Yay... mE aUnTy aLSo coMmIN to USe s ...SuMFinZ... buT so WeIrD ouUtTa nO wHErE i tINk sHE spY... *eviL glAreS* biAtchNeZz... uRmMm It iZ noW 9:20pM... wAtTA lAMe fEeL lIek goIn slEep AlReAdI bOred And nUthIN to doOZ>.< wEll uR tiNk dAT iz All RitE nOWzz...
bUA buAiZzz~~~

2004-03-05T00:20:00.000-08:00

hALlLOoOoOOoO~~
WeLL hrmMMzZ... yAy fRidAY wEeKeND...XD nE wAiZz sKewL wAs PrEtTi gUDZ toDaiZz hAd cOOkINg AnD spOrt so PreTTi EASy goIn day..=D uRRmmMmmm i HAv ItTy bItTy hEaDaChe *AacCkk*>.< yOu nOe i TinK nO mAttEr hOw mUch i 4gEt Abt " reTarDeD mAn" i WiLL aLwAizzZ lIek hIm... aTlEast iTTy biTtY bIt... *sigh* sUx wEn tHAnGZ dON wOrK oUT DA wAy u WaNt tHEm ToOOZzz.... T.T o WeLL iM oK abT iT i GUeSs... hRmM lEtS SeE iT mY bDaII iN 1 moNtH anD 3 dAIZz WOOoOOhOoO i shuD go To ct oR dA BEAcH.... XD fuN FUn FUn lUrRrRvVv dA BEAcH..=D m8 HRMM wAt tO saY aHhh iM goNNA sPenD WeEkEnD At HOmeE>.< T.T sOO mUch HW.... ErRr sOOo gAY mY mOmmI doN tRuSt ME to gOU oUTZ nE moRe...OMFG jEeEsE shE sAW ME wiF "retArDed mAn" so SHe tiNKZ i Lie EvEry SInglE tIMe i Go oUTZz...OMFG iM not Wif Him aND hU givZ a Fuk bLoODy hElLL i WilL teLL HEr SuMTiME .... i gUESs NEX TiME i gEt pISsEd bCoZ sHE hEsiTaTe tO lEt ME gO oUTZz....wAttZ biAtchNEzz..-.-;;;; wELL nE wAizz i tiNk daTZ ABt AlLz
bUA bUAizZz~~~

2004-03-04T04:21:00.000-08:00

hAlLOoOo~~

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2004-03-03T04:19:00.000-08:00

hAAaaALLlLLLooOOoOO~~~

WeLL sTufF aBt "reTarDed mAn" is all cleared...oMgoODneZz i hAv hEarD aLL eXplAnTionZ EvEryThign So ReTarDed i mUSt lAUgh...IUHAiuHAIUhiUAHIUhIAUhiuAHIUHIUAiuaHiuHUIaHUIAHUI.... m8 wAtTT sLoW dUm AsS....>.< i UndErStAnD evErYthINg WiCh jUs gAvE ME aLL clEAr sTanPed ANd ApProved That i Am 100% normAl AgEn And noT in stOoPId liL cryINg piSsY moOd...LOL omGooDneEZzz i Am jUS fReAKEd... "reTarDed mAn" jUS so dAym sLow ANd wEIrD iN dA hEaD dAT hE doN nOE hOW to coMMunIcATez..... WeLL nOw i NOe tO sTAy aWAy fRom hIm.... oMgooDneZz wAtTA wAstE of TIme...>.< hUAhiAUIhuiAHuiahIUAH wELL i DOn rEgReT nE tHIng jUS goTTa lAugh at dA stoOPid rEsuLtz oF exPLanAtioNz...... bUA bUAiZz~~

2004-03-03T02:13:00.000-08:00

WeLL hRmMm fiRsT bLog....

hAlLLOoOo~~
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